michblate

hey. my name is michelle. i'm 20 years old living by myself at the second largest university in the us. i'm having some major struggles with being almost one month post op and supposed to be living it up in college. it's supposed to be the best years of my life, yet i feel so trapped. with football season going on, even more so. i was hoping this site could lead me to some amazing people who can help me with this new life change because most of my friends have kind of deserted me or don't really know what i'm going through. i'm not really sure how this site works yet, but my email is mblate@aol.com hope to hear from some great people soon!

the issue is my social life has gone down the drain. i had complications from my surgery too when i got back up here and started classes. i had pancreatitis and was admitted in the hospital for 3 days and people didn't seem to care or reach out. i couldn't even find a ride home from the hospital!!! not to mention my parents live in south florida and the rest of my family is in central and north florida so it's even harder having my family so far away. a lot of them don't even know i went through with this surgery because most of them would not support it. anyways i haven't been invited out by my friends in so long. drinking is so big here, and it's like no one wants to include me if i can't down 3 cocktails in under 30 minutes. i also don't think my guy friends invite me to their frat parties because i'm still large. basically they are waiting for me to get skinny before they show people they are friends with me. men suck. i am not one to have many girl friends either. it's my 3rd year here. i have had numerous struggles, but this has been one of the worst. i miss feeling included and loved. it's hard because drinking , partying, and eating are basically what college is and my body can't keep up with it. i'm also just really depressed and tired a lot. i'm having some chemical imbalances. i'm not one to just be depressed or antisocial. i'm such a good friend to so many people, and i feel abandoned now that i need someone.