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I could tell you so many things but the one thing that I really want you to think about: Is whether you can except anything that might happen because of this new tool. Can you take it if you have issues like a possible leak?..Are you willing to go through it all for your goals? Many think that they are ready and educated and then they have complications and they can't handle it at all. There are risks with all surgeries. Make sure you know what yours might be and whether your willing to go through the possible hoops for this!

There is no hope involved hun. Just you, your tool and a lot of hard work.... We are here anytime to help you!

There is such a thing as head hunger. We use food to fix all our problems..It does not do it. I would think about the abuse you are doing to your sleeve. You have not even healed yet. Also whatever you thought would happen it is a tool not a miracle fix. You get the sleeve and that is where the real work begins. This is where you start to learn about your new buddy and feed it properly. The pureed stage is important because it is slowly bringing your stomach back to real food. You won't be able to fix your body until you fix your brain and the way you see food. Yes you have a new condition to work with but there will always be something to test our resolve to stay true to the program. Some people never lose the hungry feeling. Some people can eat anything and it does not bother them. That does not mean that you should. Think about why you did this. Why you wanted to improve your health over all and mark this day and tell yourself you can do this..... Start logging your intake. Put Protein in the front. ( dense protein ) when you get back on track. Water 64 oz and then add veggies, fruit and complex carbs. There is no way that a person can eat at your stage what you are eating and not have issues. How you feel about food changes when you change. when you learn what the triggers are for you. When you stop using food as the answer to every situation that does not go well. Your not alone. We are here and will encourage you to start again at your next meal. There is never failure it is a postponement of sorts. Your sleeve is still there...Use it wisely and fix your thinking.....

You know what you have! @@chelseabell91 You have character. I can see it in your pictures.....Don't beat yourself up over this issue. Weigh a couple times a month and watch the inches and clothes sizes....You have a shape...I don't! I forgot about that and now I am a stick again....I would rather have a waist and hips...Oh well....Your doing it Peter! Just keep swimming okay!

Think possible leak. Then, them trying to fix it. Time in hospital and pain and agony as you are trying to get better. Right now your new sleeve is raw from being made. A staple line that has not started to heal yet is being stretched. Even now your body is still trying to get rid of the medications they put in your body during this procedure. Right now you need to be treating yourself with tender loving care. Start working on WHY you are abusing yourself like this and not following the program. You might hurt yourself if you keep it up. And if you stop you may find that you are a lot stronger then you think you are.

I for one have been very grateful to this so called easy way out...Without this surgery I would not be who I am today...Yes much smaller but I have much more compassion and understanding of the underlying issues for myself and others that struggle with eating disorders and life in general.... When I came home from hospital a nurse said that I really didn't lose 70 lbs. The hospital lost them for me during my five month stay with complications. Later the same nurse said that I took the easy way out.... Later I found out that they were working with a very large man and not encouraging him to do something about it....He died...I was horrified...A life snuffed out because of ignorance... It is up to us to decide for ourselves if this is the best choice for us. Hang the rest...I am a live not dead like others when professionals did not do their job which is to help people when they are ill, sick or dying. I had the chance to change and I took it. It is sad to me that others were not given the same options and paid for it with their life!

won't let me see the photos

looking forward to seeing the changes..Please share and congratulations on a job well done!

You have to treat this as a sleever would now. And this is very common. A week ago I was all worked up over something and did not chew my food as much as I should have. The same thing happened to me but I could not throw it up It just laid there until I could drink some Water and it worked its way down.. We will always have the clear and unmistakable signs that we did something wrong...Hope the Salmon was good...I love fish myself now!

For the last few weeks my Hypoglycemia is acting up. I have had no problem with it since I started this journey. It seems to have triggered by exercise...See I always new exercise was wrong I don't want to start eating every 2 hours....That would be hard for me... What have others done to control this beast?

Here are a couple sites so you can look at it yourself..K http://www.healthlinkbc.ca/healthyeating/reactive-hypoglycemia.html http://chealth.canoe.ca/condition_info_details.asp?disease_id=73

Nope @@gomekast I can't. I can eat vanilla and coconut but not the fruit ones. My blood sugar has been all over the place. My daughter has been helping me try to settle it. I had a bad attack last night and this morning. I ate white bread and cheese for lunch. No, no, From now on it is multi-grain bread a little slice of fruit and a Protein. That seems to settle it. This morning it want from 10.1 to 2.2 and then back up to 5.3.... No more white flour or refined sugar for me. I have to attack this like someone would who has Dietetics.... Complex carbs with a bit of protein and a little fresh fruit.... Can't depend on protein alone it does not turn to sugar fast enough. So I have to eat a combo of it....Some fun eh Bambi!

Congrats @@Aaron !

I don't know why! But this topic is stuck in my head today and no matter where I am on the forum someone brings it up: Does it really matter how big you were when you started to take this journey? Should I be more ashamed of myself then someone who weighed 330 lbs. Instead of my 380 when I started? Should I feel like I have committed some kind of crime against myself or mankind because I was at a higher weight when I started then a 250 lb member that goes on about how ashamed they are about who they were.. Isn't it the most important thing that we have all in fact started to take an interest in our personal health and well being without making others feel like they should hang their heads in shame because they started higher then you did....Maybe not intentionally saying it but it comes across that way! I thought that as a family we would be there for each other and support each other even if you have 50 lbs. to lose. To you it is a huge amount. I understand that we all have our own mindset about how we look and how we feel about ourselves. Then on the other hand does that make me special because I have almost lost 200 lbs. Should I have been on some show for extreme obesity...i just don't get it. I don't get that people are afraid to show who they are becoming with pride. Keep the past where it is. In the past and Celebrate what you are becoming or have become. When do we celebrate the good that we have all done..When do we stop feeling like we don't deserve it or that I am a failure even before I start because I weighed this much.... This is real life not a script to be followed. This is you and me. Real people..Real health issues and have had the courage and grit to work hard to fix ourselves and stand out. We are all different as I said but I am not going to feel bad because I was more obese then you when I started this trek. And I don't like it when others without realizing it make me feel bad because I was.....

Thank you @@Chelenka !

Thanks @@Recycled it meant a lot to me coming from you...It truly does..

Thank you @@Ginger Snaps I paid a big price for this...pardon the pun! We can all do it including you kid!

Congrats on your NSV. Keep a record..your going to get a lot more!

My hubby took me to the store yesterday because I needed a spring jacket. A wind breaker..Anyway he kept bringing me size large jackets and they were too big...Finally he said..I just can't believe this your a medium jacket...I said, obviously in this style at least.. Shaking his head he said he never expected any of these things to happen and the fact that I take a smaller size jacket then him, has just floored him..... I love it when he is shocked at the new me emerging!!!

Oh look at that..Not only a wonderful compliment but you are able to run up and downs stairs easily...Way to go!!!!!

Dense protein is going to change the entire thing....It will fill you up and close that flap on the bottom of your stomach....

Wow..Never heard of this..Will be looking into the info mentioned...

What do you mean b y the term you have a unique perspective? @@Chelenka Hope I don't regret asking that...lol