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I agree. When the kids are away at school it's pretty easy. With my pre-op diet, I get one little meal a day. After eating that, it's hard to turn it all off. I'd love to eat the rest of the night! I've been doing 3 shakes and a meal for over a month now. Weekends are excruciating! Everyone is home. Teenaged boys making numerous trips to the fridge- ugh! But our big stomachs will be gone soon!

So, shortly after sending that last email, I got a call from the office! I GOT A DATE! I just started bawling on the phone! Looks like my day is November 13 and pre-op is on Monday! Woohoo!!

I sent another little email just asking where we stand today. Funny, the psych & I talked about how the MMPI said that unexpected changes might heighten my anxiety. And now he's the unexpected change! I feel this is a huge test. A huge UNFAIR test. I've been good and done everything ahead of schedule. I don't think it's right to make up new hoops to jump through. The self-sabotage monster is gnawing at me today!

Ha! I want THEM to cut THIS b---ch! Ha! sent an email. Titled it 'my annoying email of the day'. I even tried to bargain saying ill be at their support group on Thursday and if we get a date, I'll come early to pay my balance (i live 2 hrs away) I'm self pay and I'd think they'd jump at that. Hopefully I'll hear something today.

Yes! That's awesome!

I'm a little afraid to call. Don't want to seem too pushy. The last time I pressed an issue was to my son's football coach about a technique that was hurting his knees. The result of that was my son going from starter to bench warmer for two games. So I'm a little gun shy. I'll send an email to my advocate here soon.

I just posted on a new hoop thrown my way! Yes, it's so frustrating. It feels like a test to see if we REALLY want this. Times like this, it's hard not to feel used because we are fat. But we keep trudging onward. Being overweight has taught us to be resilient if nothing else.

I took them at one time. But the immediate taste of vitamins in my mouth superseded any benefits. Yes, it doesn't make sense -get a shot in the butt and taste it in your mouth. But it does happen to some.

My insurance does not cover WLS and that includes complications afterwards. My surgeon recommended a program called BLIS which offers supplemental insurance for bariatric patients. Not sure if it's just offered in my state (Oklahoma) or nationwide. I haven't looked into it much but will after I get my surgery date. It's an extra expense, but maybe worth it just for the peace of mind. Maybe your state has it or something similar.

TMI= too much information

Texan- awesome! I'm so happy you finally got your sleeve! Aaron- awesome news! I'm on the other side of the office with Dr. Walton. Today I ran down for my last meeting with dr. Keller. Then Monday I hope to finally get my date. It's been so hard but I've finally gotten off my required 5%! And just in time! To be sure- I think it's lots of water and shakes for three days. And hey, when Oklahoma decides to change seasons, it does it in an afternoon!

I really needed to hear this today! I have been trying to lose a mandatory 5% body weight. My surgeon won't schedule surgery until I do. I've been eating 2 shakes and a little meal for dinner. Now, with 2 pounds to go and a week until my next appointment, I'm desperate to get those off and maybe a few more for wiggle room. This has been terrible. I was just telling my husband this very evening that I'd be lying if I said I never felt like quitting. Today I have been shaky and tired. I haven't felt like this since I did a weight watchers quick start diet years ago. So why haven't I quit yet?! I want this to darn much! I've endured 2 panic attack inducing sleep studies, a panic inducing cpap machine, sleepless nights, psych testing, doctor appointments, and plain old hunger and cravings. And don't forget years of snickers (the action and the candy) comments and shame! I know you have probably endured quite a lot as well to get to this point! Yes, I'll say it- if I can do this, so can you. You are where they separate the women from the girls. We can do this. We're too tough and done too much to quit at the finish line. Keep yourself upright- no passing out allowed. Keep yourself to a teaspoon of peanut butter or suck on candy. Keep your blood sugar up. And know you're not alone.

I have 2 week to lose my last 4 pounds before my next drs appt. I need to lose 15 pounds before I get a date. Remembering my nut saying chips are one of the worst things I can put in me right now, nachos were out. Or we're they?! I took low-fat cheddar and spread it out on a plate with some salsa. I then microwaved it until the edges were a bit crunchy and middle was nice and gooey. No more getting chip faced for me! I found a new treat!

Guess they weren't really my friends. I used to have a pretty good social life. My group consisted of quite a bit of BBW lovers and admirers. I told a few about my intentions and desire for surgery. Word spread (I knew it would). Then people stopped talking to me, inviting me out, etc. I thought this group liked me for my personality but turns out it was for my body! Ha! The pre-surgery portion of this is isolative enough- but wow. It's been a bit of a blow. I feel used and angry. People who tout being open and encouraging to being who you are inside have shunned me.

I've felt the same way too! My dr. Requires a 5% weight loss before he even sets a date. Yep, I've been a raving green eyed monster! But our dates will come!

I know it's all for the best. But I really thought I 'belonged'. I told my friends partly to see their reactions. I know I will need to call on them for help after my surgery and needed to know who I could count on. Looks like its me and just my little family. So, my support system has been the same from the beginning: my hubby, my mom, m birth mother (who also has WLS) and my beautiful teenage boys. So, I've got that going for me. As soon as monthly payday comes around, I'm going to join a nearby gym. Perhaps some will notice I'm losing rapidly (at a point in the future yet to be determined) and a conversation will strike up. New mobility will open things up as well, I'm sure. Thank you all for the encouraging words.

Last time I was at my surgeon's office for my monthly meetings with everyone, the psych had me take the MMPI. I was upset to begin with that I had not lost my 15 pounds and would be putting off surgery another month. Then the stupid test said I was a bit anti-social and might not listen to authority figures. I was very upset by that. I have been so compliant through this. Anyways, I was visibly upset. So I go back to see everyone one the 29th. It was everyone but psych. He supposedly signed off for me to have the surgery. Now he wants to see me for another hour. Part of me is scared, but I also see the good in it. He left me upset and he's following up. However, there is no free time in his schedule between now & the 29th. I said I'd even be up for a phone consult. Well, we'll see I guess. This will be my 3rd time with psych. Don't I feel like a crazy loon right now!

I'm 40 and very done having children. I don't want to have a surprise and get pregnant with my youngest being 14! So, all this has been a push for me. To get off hormones after too many years on birth control pills and to really take care of my birth control. I'm getting sterilized. I'm having the Essure procedure before my surgery. Outpatient procedure with two little springs inserted in the Fallopian tubes (they scar over and seal up). Drastic- perhaps. But appropriate for this time in my life.

I'm adopted. I've known my birth mother for 20 years now, but the last 10 of those we have been out of touch. When I met her, I didn't notice that she was terribly overweight. I just noticed she was plump and chalked it up to just getting older. Recently, a death in the family brought me back to that side of my family (my family tree is more like a family square in the middle). To my surprise she was so tiny! I felt huge. She confided in me a little secret- she had gastric bypass a few years ago. She had been battling her weight for most of her life. She and I carry our weight very compactly and right in the torso. Think of a sausage trying to put on its shoes. I find it fascinating that two people who've never discussed weight problems before and connected only by biology (on this issue) came to the same conclusion. So, while my adoptive mom doesn't completely understand (tho she tries), I am comforted that I have a cheerleader in my corner who knows what I'm going to go through (for the most part). Just an interesting development

I use Syntrax Matrix as well. I like the Milk Chocolate because its not too sweet. I mix mine with almond milk because i dont care for milk. I ordered mine from My Bariatric Pantry. I've been nothing but pleased with them. They have a sample pack of both the Syntrax Nectar and of the Matrix. It's a trial and error journey right now but the right mix and flavor is out there.

I'm trying to give them the benefit of the doubt. They may work for the company. Either way they are casting a bad light on that company. I just had a 'ballsy' moment and Taylo gave the phone # to all of us... Decided to maybe make my .02 count

I called the center Taylo has been promoting and just let them know there is someone 'advertising' and while they may be well meaning that it is coming across as heavy handed and eventually bad press for the center. They said they will look into it. In this society where WLS is already misunderstood and shunned, we do not need anyone from within tearing this industry apart as well- good intentions or not.

You can wear corduroy pants without fear of starting a fire! That's awesome!

Sometimes, do you post-sleeves ever want to get a shirt that says "I've been sleeved - google it and get over it" or something?! Catty little girls are the worst and no matter what they will never change. You and your sister have shown more restraint than I would be able to.

Glad you're on the other side of it now! I'm still pre-op but now I'm going to ask my nut about potassium on Monday. I forgot about the cramps!