Suzzzie.

Beckie! I think cause we had the same surgeon on the same day I always read your posts with high interest and I worry so much about you! I do the whole "OMG, that could sooo easily be me!" thing... and while I"m grateful it's not me, I"m so sorry that it has to happen to you. Or anyone for that matter. I think what you've been through is my worst nightmare. So. Was it your band or your port that was eroded? I though you just had your port replaced? Do you have anything in there now??

Ohhh RHonda! I want a Wii Fit too!! I'm so jealous!

Ya'll are silly.

Merry CHristmas!!

:tongue_smilie: It's my puppy Tiki in his Santa hat! I posted some pics of him and my cats wearing the hat in my albums on my profile. Ya'll gotta go check them out! My babies are CUTE! Haha!

Hmm.. for MY weight gain it was this: I was too tight. I couldn't eat more than 2-3 bites of anything without pain. No matter how small the bite or how much I chewed. I could eat about 3 bites, wait 10-15 minutes, eat a few more, etc. That was frustrating emotionally and mentally. Not to mention, I am just not into pain with my food. So I was LIVING on things that went down easily - ice cream, candy, cookie dough, Pringles, cheese puffs. It's weird, cause I couldn't eat yogurt (maybe 1/2 container when pain would set in) but I could eat pudding fine. Anyway... So living on sugar for 6 months doesn't help weight loss.... BUT. Now I'm down from 8cc to a more manageable 7cc and feeling MUCH better. I can eat REAL food for the first time in 6 months and it is amazing. I can probably eat too much... I think I was at a good spot several months ago when I had 7.5cc, but I screwed that all up... I go back in 4 weeks to see where I"m at and how I"m doing. I might get a slight fill, we'll see how I feel in 4 weeks. But hopefully eating protein instead of sugar will help my body feel better. It sure as heck is more mentally and emotionally satisfying!!

Stef, it is so good to see your face on here. :huh2: I'm not moving to TX as I'd planned.. the economy came out of no where and bit my ass. So I"m struggling to pay my bills where I"m at. My mom has offered to help pay for my education so I can complete my RN (I'm an LPN now, so I need about 3 semesters of nursing courses to complete it.) So I figure the best thing to do is stay here so she can pay for that. Lol. TX is still in my plans, but has to be delayed for a while. Food diary? Calorie limit? Exercise? What are these things you speak of? Thanks Insub. It really was hard to go back and 'face the music' about gaining weight back. Ugh... no one said it was going to be easy, huh?

OK! I went in for my unfill... of course got the WHY DID YOU WAIT SO LONG lecture.. OMG guys... I can EAT FOOD without pain. I ate an entire veggie burger (plain, no bread) without pain!! I did not feel stuffed, full, or anything! I haven't been able to eat an entire one in MONTHS! FOOD, I LOVE YOU! Bad news... I knew I'd gained a crapload of weight by eating around the band... it's 7 pounds per month... so that is a total of 42 pounds! YIKES!!!! I'm sooo sooo ashamed... BUT, I'm better now and will keep better track of myself and my food now that I don't have to rely on sugar in order to be able to eat. Now HOPEFULLY my little Fish in my Ticker will start swimming FORAWRD again! Congrats to everyone who is doing well - bcrazy and bigbaby! You guys are awesome!

OMG! She really DOES exist!! And I know I haven't posted much at all lately.. Been feeling REALLY down in the fat dumps cause I've gained so much weight. I think I'm just too tight. I can't eat much regular food at all (few bites) but sugar goes down fine and dandy... so that's what I live on. I'm going today at 5pm to get an unfill... I"m thinking 1cc. Hoping that will put me back to being able to comfortably be able to eat a small meal. ... that is, if I can get out in this snow today. I hate snow...

OK. So tell me if you think this idea is stupid and insane.. I'm thinking about getting a partial unfill. Like, 1-2cc maybe? I eat around my band cause I want to eat more than 1 cup of food. RIght now I have some days where I'm so tight that 1/2 cup food goes down slow and is downright uncomfortable. Of course there are other days where i can eat more, but still it is uncomfortable. I would almost call it painful... and I'm not taking big bites either. Also, I cannot eat much meat or veggies at all. These things haven't gone down well in a very long time. I feel like if I get a couple cc's out then I will be able to eat enough to mentally satisfy myself. Maybe I'll even be able to eat a freaking salad(!) which I have been craving for over year and am unable to eat at all. Anyway... I was just thinking that instead of eating around my band and GAINING more weight, that I should play with my band some and find a good spot for me where I can eat real food and feel mentally and nutritionally satisfied. I'm so embarrassed to go to the doc though and have them see how much I've gained. Ugh!

Ohhh ! I'm very excited for you!

Hey guys... I"m still struggling... BADLY! I almost think I need therapy... Sugar is like my heroin. I crave it night and day. I eat so much sugar crap everyday that when I am having a good day and eating right, my blood sugar will bottom out on me. Its like my body needs it now... I can't imagine going an entire day without a cookie or candy bar or something. But I cna't seem to stop with one. I want to get another fill, but the band doesn't stop sugar from going down. Please. I swear I am desperate. I'm back up to 315 - my lowest weight in May was 270's. I can't stand the thought of being 380 again!

Hey Dan. No I didn't try that stuff - but I think I should! Lol.

texas was fun as always. Went apartment hunting - I'm still looking too move there March 1... though we'll see how that pans out, financially. Soooo cold here in MO. I've already kicked my heat on. Anyone else SICK AND TIRED of stupid politics and election talks? I mean, I'm going to vote and all... though I dislike both candidate equally... but still. I can't wait until it's all over!