bellalizza

i hit the 50 pound post-surgery milestone this AM... totally stoked!!! 50 lbs in 13 weeks... averages 3.8 lb loss per week but in reality it came off very quickly in the beginning and i've hit the more gradual 2 lb/week loss pattern for the past month. (exactly 10 pounds in the last 5 weeks) and even then that isn't the whole picture because i will still have a week where the scale WILL NOT BUDGE but then all of a sudden.. BOOM! 3.5 lbs disappear! so... from this i gather my body has it's own rhythm it's falling into... shedding weight and holding on to it according to little secret hormones and weird balancing acts and such... it gets reeeeeally frustrating at times but then i remember how my body has it's own way of doing things and take it easy on myself knowing that a big loss is right around the corner. sometimes i do get a little freaked out... old ways of thinking come back... telling me that i had all the weight loss i was ever gonna get... the surgery did all that it could and i'm on my own now... pretty weird thoughts i know... my mind has a lot of catching up to do... i had my first "skinny" dream just the other night... before surgery, after my first child was born i had a great deal of success (aka physical recovery) with OA (overeaters anonymous) and it was there that i was introduced to the idea that a person can be addicted to sugar. i can see my food addiction narrowing in on either booze or sugar and frankly, both prospects scare the **** out of me... i read all about transferring addictions when i was prepping for surgery... Kaiser does a fantastic job of giving you the straight dope about post-surgery obstacles and transferring addictions is a biggie. so... it's time for OA again... i am scared. and i'm not sure why. on the surface it's a time commitment that is gonna be hard to squeeze in right now... but since i'm being so honest, i'm really just scared that i will be judged for having my sleeve surgery. my ex-sponsor was very openly anti-weight loss surgery. it was kind of a big "no-no" in my local OA community, supposedly it was a Higher Power thing, like a person who decided to have the surgery was taking their will out of HP's hands and doing it all themselves... i don't want to be judged for my surgery. period. and in my heart, i believe that my Higher Power put everything in place to help save me from killing myself with food so that i can now focus on getting and staying sober from deadly foods and behaviors... any OA sleevers out there??? i'd really love to hear from you... thanks for reading! xo bellalizza

HOTT

are you taking any prevacid or protonix?

oh my goodness! i'm so sorry! and just in case you still need some back-up... YOU DID NOT CHEAT!!! you took your health and life into your own hands and took control... made a positive change and there was nothing easy about it! i also get this response a lot! from my sisters & mom actually! even this morning my mom told me I finally looked like I had the baby! (the baby is actually 15 months but i never lost a pound until i started my pre-op diet...) so you know what i have to say about these little smart a$$e$... HATER HATER HATERS!!! just HATING HATING HATING!!! hate away... i tell them! i'm just gonna keep going to the next bigger, better, brighter thing! and i REFUSE to eat over it! on those days, when folks are hatin' on me, i make sure to eat super clean and slow... give them something to really hate on me about! my new healthy self!

Hello My Fellow Beautiful, Courageous Sleevers! My First Blog... Feeling more open to sharing my experience and hearing about yours! Mi Numeros: January 17, 2012: Attended my 1st Bariatric Class 302 lbs. Miserable. Ready for change. (I was told I would need to get down to 285 lbs. before my surgeon could schedule my surgery) June 20, 2012: VSG Surgery with Dr. Le @ South San Francisco Kaiser 286 lbs. Excited. Scared. Thankful. (PRE-surgery weight loss = 16 #s) August 13, 2012: My First Blog... EVAR! 248 lbs. 7ish weeks Post-Op. Feeling Brand New, Skinny, Pretty, Hopeful, Energetic!!! (POST-surgery weight loss = 38 #s gone forever!!!) 54 pounds gone. Like vanished. Wearing clothes/sizes I haven't seen in over 6 years!!! My sleeve is my miracle!!! I am, first and foremost, a mother of two. Grew up an obese child, turned into a full figured teenager & eventually became a morbidly obese adult. I desperately want to help my kids develop a healthier attitude with food and exercise, and see them beat the odds. I would say that my children were/are my biggest motivation to get the help I needed vis a vis surgery. My reason to start blogging today, after being a member of this online support group for a little while now, was to get some good feedback about these Pure Protein Bars. Is it too good to be true? Basically, sugar-free candy bars packing a whopping 20 grams of PROTEIN! Delish! http://www.pureprotein.net/category/BARS I found them @ Costco... 18 bucks for 18 small sized bars! Good deal even cause I've bought them a while ago at Trader Joe's for 2 bucks a pop! So between my Premier shakes (also a Costco deal) and these delish little suckers I'm already @ 50 GRAMS of PROTEIN! Are there any rules about bars I don't know about? I have one a day and wonder if that's overdoing it??? Any feedback or suggestions would be appreciated!

i agree! 7/11: chocolate "light" muscle milk... some fruit if you are up for it... all the best!

damn that scale when it doesn't give you what you want... and bless that scale when you see that number getting smaller! great jokes!!!