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Good morning ladies. Feeling MUCH better today. Sorry such a bummer last night. Just one of those nights I guess Ok so has anyone tried those Healthy Choice Steamers? I am absolutely in love with them!!! They are so good. Yes I am eating at least one time a day now. To much reflux. The chili with no beans and burger is awsome but HEARTBURN!! Forgot what that was like! Ok Ladies most of you know me and my OCD about cleaning. I am going to TRY not to do my deep cleaning today. I am trying to put it off closer to Wednesday so I clean right before we leave for the hospital on Thursday but I am not sure I can handle that. I am such a routine person with that that it is driving my nuts already today so I am going to try to find something to fill my day. I will cbl Have a great day everyone and again thanks for being here last night. The old ugly feed me til it quits hurting reared its head last night but I did fine. I drank LOTS of water to make me full to over come it. I am an emotional eater and always will be unfortunately.

My heart hurts tonight. Can't sleep and pretty weepy. Thinking of the last 6 years and how much the kids have grown and their dad is not here with them. I know he is watching over them but I just miss him. :seeya: Need to quit watching music videos on Utube! TTYAL. Nite

Janet I am so sorry to hear about your aunt and how alone you are feeling. Hugs GF!! I am very emotional in about everyway possible. TOM is due this week so that explains some of it. I have been watching a lot of the video's on utube about gastric by pass and the band. I tell you some of those about the band really PISS me off!!! How dare they say the band DOES NOT work. If it doesn't work for them then the correctt wording would be 'the band did not work for me' and they need to be honest and say WHY. The band is a lot more restrictive in what we need to do to lose the weight and etc. Sorry jjust so mad about a few of those. Court is so close now. She is down 13 lbs in 9 days due to having nothing but liquids. I am down 4. (yes I have had 2 smart ones in the last couple of days) I was having TERRIBLE reflux from all the fluids and Court said 'you really need to eat mom. I am ok' Bless you little loving heart I am so proud of that girl!!! We went to my sisters today for a birthday party. Told Court it would be understandable if she didn't go (cake and ice cream) and she said 'no I need to deal with it. I can't run from food.' We went and she was really struggling with the hunger, of course my sister did not help at all (jealous of court getting surgery) and took every opportunity to remind Court she couldn't have cake. I got angry with my sister and while they ate cake and ice cream I asked Court to go to the grocery store with me to get more bottled water and crystal lite. We took our time at the store looking at Healthy eating choices for when she can eat. I know sounds like I was torturing her too but she really was fine once we left my sisters. They are usually really close but my sister unfortunately has gained quite a bit of weight this past year and really wants something done but has no insurance due to being laid off from her job and so blah blah blah. Sorry didn't mean to drag on. Oh yeah one more thing. While we were waiting for others to get there we were the only ones there so I got on her treadmill and started jogging at 4.6 and she told me not to run on the treadmill because it might wreck her floor. So I kicked it down and walked for 45 minutes. So we are on the down hill slide. Getting very excited and very nervous for my baby. She told me for Christmas she wants CLOTHES!!! My little girl has not asked for clothes unless she ABSOLUTELY HAD TO HAVE THEM in years. I am so excited to go shopping with her. I have also found my remotivation again to get my butt moiving and drop my last few pounds. Summer is over and I have been putting off joining the gym and soon will be to cold rainy to be walking outside so guess what........I am rejoining this week and my 'surgery gift' to Court is paying for her membership for the next year as well!!! Well sorry such a long dribbling post. Feeling very happy excited and down all at the same time tonight. (Is that possible?!) Feelin like I need a good cry!

My doc never mentioned them to me before. Think I will ask about them. I know that the by pass patients get them but I am going to ask about them for me.

I hear alot of talk about the B shot. Doesn't that help with energy and etc? Please tell more about it. Maybe I should ask for one? I take a vitamin B complex but seems like I am always sleepy and low energy.

I am glad it is the weekend. The days just can't go quick enough to get to next Thursday. Tired of the liquids. They aren't bad but I need to mix it up and create something different. Setting here on my couch cradling my new puppy thinking about all I need to get done in the office yet. Not seeing it happen anymore tonight. Really tired. Gonna set here and veg out and doze off. Haven't done that in a log time. Gnite all.

Hey gang. So tired of looking at paperwork!! All day long in the office reading page after page to make sure my staff put in all the 'quirks' the state of iowa wants in their so the company can get reimbursed for the time. Just finished that and now need to start chart review on all my charts. Fun weekend! Gonna be a long one. Oh well seems to make the time fly. Court has been struggling today. Hasn't eaten but definately hungry today. She is babysitting for my cousins 2 little ones since last night and cooked them breakfast and lunch. Told her not to take on the responsibility of them because it would be hard because she has to cook then. She has been fine otherwise because she just stays out of the kitchen. She is taking them home before supper and then going bowling with a friend. 5 more days!!!!:scared2:

Good morning ladies! Sorry I didn't check in yesterday. Very busy day. Trying to get my 'end of the month' stuff finished before Courts surgery next week so WAY busy with work. Have to admit that I took the 2 hours to watch my Grey's Anatomy last night though. I LOVE that show. Talk about tear jerker. Had my kleenex right next to me. I knew I would need them. Raining raining raining. We needed the rain but 4 days in one week after almost 2 months with nothing?! Break us in slow! Janet so sorry to hear about your horrible day the other day. Hope you are recuperating from that and things are better since. I will try to check back in later. Prob tonight. Hope you all have a great day!

Just a quick check in tonight. Really tired. Just got home from my meeting about 45 minutes ago. Lots of work to do now through the day before Courts surgery. Crazy busy to get a head of things!! I supervise staff and clients for this area and have to prepare and bill the state for all hours of service billed in a month. FIRST I have to read all the staffs documentation to see if we have everything state requires. Some people no matter HOW MUCH training you give them just don't get it. Even after 4 years. UUGGHHH! sorry for the rant. Anyway~ Phyl~sorry you had a rotten day. We are all only human. The kids dad used to watch CNN and Fox as well and then that was what he wanted to talk about. I had no clue what he was talking about most of the time because like Janet said I can't change it so I am not going to watch it and rant at the ones I love for something they can't fix either. Hugs sweety!!! Tomorrow will be better hopefully. Hope you rest well tonight. Janet~Been married almost 4 years. He doesn't really say anything just kind of exists here. He is not a real social person anymore. NOTHING like when we met. Then again when we met we went out alot and I don't want to do that so much anymore. He doesnt understand that I have teenagers on those roads when I am out and if I am drinking (thats his idea of going out) then I will/would not be able to make sensible decisions if something happened to them let alone be able to get there if I don't have someone to drive me if I am drinking. Don't get me wrong I am not preaching beccaues I used to love going out but I don't want the kids to think every weekend at the bar is 'the life' ya know. I am trying to set an example! Well day 6 of liquids. Getting bored and trying to think of new things. Courtney tells me she is fine with me eating. I am amazed and so proud of how wonderful she has done with the liquids. She had 1 melt down the first day and thats it. Her spirits are even high! I was miserable before my surgery and I did the liquids. Well I am off. Another morning meeting. FUN! NOT! Going to go read and fall asleep. Crazy days! Nite all. Hugs

Steph~ Sounds like Micheal and Jeff have the same relationship as my son and husband. The kids dad as you all know is deceased and my current husband was never married and no kids AND he is the baby of his family. I don't leave the house if they are going to 'overlap' time before I get back. Like tonight I have a meeting for work so I will nonchalantly let son go to his friends because I have had SEVERAL instances when I was called at work, appointments and etc beccause they can't function together if I am not in the house. I hate it and DH and I have alot of issues over that. He thinks he is always right and......well nevermind......I won't even go into all of it because it upsets me so much and gets me going. To make a long story short we live 2 seperate lives in 1 house. Me and my kids are one family and my husband is the other. Hubby is so unwilling to bend for anything. But like I said never married, no kids and the baby of his family....oh and did I mention his mother lives next door?! Totally babies him yet!

Up and at em for the day. Checking in LBT first then house work and errands. I have a meeting for work tonight and got everything prepared for that last night so I am good there. DS and I have to go register his truck and do the bank stuff this am. I let him stay home from school because unfortunately neither of our work schedules will allow for this this week so he had to miss school. I hate letting him miss but it couldn't be avoided right now. Well ladies off for my day. I may have time to get in this afternoon. Hope everyone is having a great day! Hugs to you all!

Steph posted on facebook she is home and scheduled for a scope next week but now knows her band is ok.

Kirajh~ Melanie Griffith?! Thank you thank you thank you!! I love her. I wish I could be that gorgeous. I was going to try to make the pic bigger but if it makes me look that good small maybe I will leave it. LOL Thank you for the compliment though. Janet~Prayers and hugs for you and your aunt. I am soo sorry. Phyl~WOWZA!! Your really starting to strut your stuff now huh? Walking farther and farther all the time. Good for you. Candice~ UUUGGGHHHH.....I know your irritation. I was taking Sulfa one time and itched so damned bad and young (19) so had no friggin clue why. It was so bad I took a toothbrush to bed with me and scratched all over. My hubby finally got tired on my jiggling the bed while scratching and said 'lets go to the hospital I have to get some sleep for work!' LOL Yeah I guess he thought I was having a great time. Anyway, hope it isn't your meds but if it is there are many more they can use. Have you called your doc who prescribed the seroquel? Well found DS a pick up today. It was meant to be. I woke him for school this am and we were talking and I told him we needed to get on finding him a different vehicle because the one he bought himself ($200.00 '91 Tracer) was no good for winter and who knows when we will get snow our weather has been so crazy. He said 'I told you I am not getting a car I want a Ford Ranger like dad and I had'. I told him Trucks are expensive and I don't think you can afford a payment on a truck. Left it at that. Went into Farm Fleet today to get dog food and was looking at their board that people post ads on. A guy comes up behind me and said 'looks like they cleared the board because not many ads.' I said 'yeah'. He said 'excuse me a minute mam.' I moved over he put his ad up and walked in the store. I looked at the add and guess what..................'96 Ford Ranger XLT no rust, new tires, 123,000 miles. I rush after him and talk to him about it. Followed him to his place (10 miles) looked at it and drove it to a friends mechanic shop. They put it on the hoist and looked it over really well told me it was in excellent shape that they could see. Called the bank for book price.....$4300.00. Took pictures and told the guy I was going to go see my son at work and show him the pictures and would be back if he liked it. Austin loved it!! The guy started at $2650.00 and I got him down to $2200.00!!! He just bought a newer one and wanted to get rid of this one because he now has 3 vehicles and doesn't need them. Very nice man! Said I reminded him of his daughter in Texas. Wrote him a check and the truck is Austin's. We go to the bank to sign papers tomorrow so needless to say Court is happy because she is going to have surgery and Austin is on cloud 9 because he got the vehicle that he wanted!!! All in all a really good day. Hope everyone else is doing well. For those not mentioned you were not forgotten I forget who posted what. LOL Love ya all!!!:tongue2:

Good morning all! Feeling alot better after a good nights sleep. I had a hiatial hernia that they found while doing my band. They told me it was a pretty bad one and prob the cause of all my reflux/heartburn. Felt so much better once it was repaired and I got a 2fer. Well coffee is on, bedding is washed and in the drier, floors swept and vacuumed and kids off to school. Now it is Jackie time. Yes I have some work to do today but not a lot so I am not going to stress over it. We are having another rainy day! :bored: Love the chilly rainy fall day with warm soup (in my case my liquid chili) and snuggling with a book and soft blanket! The whole day to myself! Woo hoo:lol: I will CBL. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Steph~ sorry you are so stressed. Hang in there and know that we are all hear for you. You are right......it is what it is and will be what it will be. I too have to remind myself of those words often. Hugs GF!! Hang in there.

Janet~ so sorry to hear about your aunt. Hugs to you. I have an uncle who is 37 years old (1 year older than me) who is in the end stages of lung cancer. I had never really known anyone personally who had/has cancer before now. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your aunt. Hugs GF Mashed taters sound great but I am not usually able to eat potatoes very well. They are to thick or something. The only potato that works sometimes is baked. I won't even try a french fry. Tried a few times since banding and pb and actually throw up EVERY time so not worth it. That's great though because doesn't even give me the option.:biggrin: Thank you for the reality check and someone to just put it to me straight. That is why I have come back to my Lucky 7's. No matter what it is I know that it is straight and honest and said out of love. Thank you all for that! As I said I am calmer now. I went into town tonight grocery shopping and took the long way to town and home for some me time. I think I was just so overwhelmed with how fast things are moving with this and I had 2 crisis at work and I was supposed to be on vacation today but since I am the superviser of our area (the only one) I had to deal with it via email, text and phone conversations with the blackberry. I love my blackberry for the fun things but one pitfall is I am always accessable to work because it is always at my hand. :frown: Oh well I am over my pity party and ready to move forward. Had my time to stop and regroup. Got a new hair do and changed my avitar. Tell me what you think. Pretty short but I think I like it. My friend is a beautition and I told her 'something different and chick' and this is what she came up with.

Thanks Lindaa. Your right and I know it. :biggrin: I am feeling better. Just alot of info at once I guess today. Things will go fine and she will move on with her life. She is so excited about being 'normal' looking. I am excited to see her come out of her shell more and be more confident in herself. Well it is finally raining here. Haven't had rain for almost 2 months so great sleeping weather tonight. I love to listen to the rain hit the roof and fall asleep. I am going to have a quiet day in the office tomorrow and work at my own pace. Nothing pressing and I need some down time. Thank goodness Court has classes all day and Austin has school. Will be busy the rest of the week so don't plan to work to hard tomorrow. Maybe even a nap and r and r with the babies (3 dogs). Good night all and have a great Tuesday.

Thanks Phyl! I am really falling apart tonight. Thank goodness she isn't home. Can't stop the tears and tummy is pretty upset. Doesn't help that liquids in=liquids out. Add stress to that and................well I am sure you guys get the drift! UUGGHHHH I just have to come to grips with it. I know she knows what she wants and what is going to happen. It is me obsessing again. Just so scared. I do think it will go fine and she will do great it is getting through the surgery and pain afterwards I am worried about. Our DR is VERY good and I have all the trust in the world in him. I am very happy for Courtney just worried. On another note......we did talk to Dr about the sleeve today. He has done several of the sleeves.........in Pittsburg! He said that when he worked in Pittsburg they performed the sleeve on several patients. He told us that the nice thing about being in that hospital was they are a research hospital so they were able to do those surgeries for the research. He said that many times they performed the sleeve on patients that were 450-500lbs as a 'starter' program. They did the sleeve because it was less invasive meaning less risky for people who were 450-500lbs. They did this surgery to get them down to a healthier weight and in hopes that some of the medical issues would also go away and then they would perform the gastric by-pass. He said the sleeve is still in a lot of research stages right now and they do not perform it. It was really interesting though because he showed us on a rubber stomach what/how they did the sleeve. Just thought I would share all that with you all.

Peaches no offense taken!! I still love ya and appreciate your comments and knowledge. A normal day for me is yogart mid morning, a cambells tomato soup at hand for lunch, or tuna, and supper what ever I cook the family but protein first. I do not cook fatty foods for them either so we all win. LOL I am not a big sweet eater but if I want something at night when hubby eats his ice cream I have 1/2-3/4 cup low fat strawberry yogart with 100% granola in it. This to me is like ice cream and is just a treat. Not a bad thing but I really try not to eat after supper. Ok so I went with DD to pre op counseling and to visit with surgeon today. I AM FREAKED OUT!!!!! I know that I made the right choice for me getting the band. I was starting to have an anxiety attack while they were talking to DD about rouxen Y and drain tubes and 'extremely rare complications'. I am soooo scared you guys. We talked about lapband and by pass after counseling before talking with surgeon and she is totally convinced this is the right thing for her. We did talk with the surgeon about both again (as my chest was tightening up and anxiety was rocketing AFTER I took my anxiety med). He talked about both and complications of both and people can fail each because both are a tool and the patient is the one who controls the outcome and etc. He asked her why she was choosing by pass instead of band. She talked of follow ups and fills/cost and she feels the by pass will keep her more 'in line' due to dumping if she 'cheats'. He said he totally understood and agreed with her decision and reasoning. All the way home I was trying to hold myself together. We got home and she went to walk with a friend and I just lost it. I am falling apart with fear!! I called the surgeons office and talked to his nurse and explained how afraid I am and she talked with me and then Dr Matt called me. I trust them it isn't that but this is my little girl who has never had anything except a scope on her knee and sinus crap!!! They showed us the drain tube and when I went to pick up the display because they wanted us to hold it and look at it my hands were shaking so bad and DD looked at me and said 'what's wrong mom' I said honey I am just worried. I told her I was not trying to scare her but she is my baby and ANY procedure would worry me. She said I am scared to but I have to look at all the benefits just like you did. Tears came to my eyes. When the HELL did she grow up so much?! On top of it all, she was scheduled for Friday Oct 2 but while we were there they moved it up to Thursday Oct 1. DD jokingly told me on the way home to make sure I bring the whole bottle of anxiety meds the day of surgery. We laughed and I said 'oh honey I will be eating my 'tic tacs' (as I call them:tt2:) and when you get out of surgery I will be one cool mama.' LOL I am soooo much more nervous about her surgery than mine. I am staying strong and supportive for her but freaking out behind closed doors. Normally I would want to eat but when I get stressed my band tightens and I don't even think of trying to eat. Good thing I chose to do the liquids with her. I would have to be doing them now anyway. Sorry for such a long post. You will probably see many more the next 10 days like this. Thank GOD I have you all to turn to. Hubby is so passive he has no reaction to anything. Drives me CRAZY!!! I try to talk to him and he just 'dismisses' me. Some days (most) I wonder why the hell did I remarry!!! Ok sorry for the vent. Needed it!:biggrin:

Evening everyone. Checking in before heading to bed to read. Day 3 liquids down. Not having hunger but tired of the same 'see through' stuff. LOL Courtney is pretty excited. She has lost 6 lbs since Friday! I told her that will slow down some though because the body will think she is starving it and hold on to everything. Cleaning the whole house and finished my filing today. I have a home office and work out of home so it is convenient but also interfering. (sp?) Never get away from work. I am doing much better managing my ocd with work since my meds. Still get things done just don't stress out over it and stay up all night. LOL Well it is back to work Monday tomorrow. Why do the weekends go so fast?! I am bushed and would love a rainy chilly sleeping day! Haven't had rain in so long I miss it. Karih the kids are pretty great but believe me we have had many issues. If anyone were to say they have had no issues or problems with their children I would have to say they are niaeve or just flat lying. HAHA Well I am off. Gonna go check facebook and head to my book. Army wives is on tonight and have that tivo'ed so I will watch later or tomorrow so I can fastforward through comercials. So excited for TV this week!!!!! All new season premiers! Have to hurry each night and get my things done so I can be on the couch by 7p. Yes that includes my exercise before then too.:biggrin: Love you all and sooooo happy that I am back into the groove with you all. Just being here and reading about all of you and your lives gives me motivation again. THANK YOU ALL!!!!:biggrin:

Just got back from my little nieces cheerleading at the flag football game. UUUGGGHHH so many snachy things people were eating. Thank goodness I have my fill!!!! I seen someone eating NACHO'S WITH CHEESE......yummy!!!!!........but I knew if I even tried chips I would be in trouble pbing because when I have good restriction ships, candy, chocolate and those kinds of things don't work for me. Isn't that crazy? Most people say those are the things that are easiest for them. Ice cream has always made me reflux/foam so that is out as well. That is good though! Came home and made my chili with no Beans or burger drink. I love it!! Courtney is doing amazingly well with no food. Had a breakdown Friday but we are now on day 3 of 14 and she is ok. She told me when I got home she wants to just sleep the next 2 weeks and I can wake her to take drink her Protein and potassium. LOL I was pretty worried because she went with a friend last night (whom she has trusted and told what she is doing) and I was so afraid she would have a hard time or cave. She called me to tell me........THEY WERE ON A $ MILE WALK! Said they decided they might as well walk since nothing else to do and told me how good it felt. She is determined and I keep telling her how proud I am of her for sticking to the liquid diet. I think that in itself is really boosting her up. And the fact that her friend (2 of them that know) are very very supportive of her. Looks like lbt is pretty quiet today. I got up and straightened the house, swept and vacuumed this morning and now I will relax until time for walk. Gonna go read my book. CBL!

Good morning everyone. Just checking in again. My addiction to LBT is returning. LOL I am checking in and thinking about you guys all the time. I have lost 3 lbs since Friday with the liquids so that is a plus. Like I said before though I had a fill Friday and I am sure that is helping me with this as the hunger is not there. Anyway~Steph sounds like things are a little quieter with Micheal? I sympothize with you girl. Courtney graduated in May and I was wrestling my own demons (OCD about everything~DIAGNOSED! LOL) Thought I was going to lose my mind. The more she pushed away and tried to take charge the more crazy I became! My phych. put me on a new drug to help with the obsessing over my baby growing up and pushing away and anxiety and I have to say IT WAS A MIRACLE!!! I take Luvox and hey I don't stress nearly as much as I used to and I have been able to calm down and not latch on to her so tight so that has equalled her wanting to be around me and not push me away. That coupled with counseling for her and myself has helped us find a friendship. Now my son who is 16 is another story. He is reaching out and 'becoming his own man'. He is pretty good but thinks he can do what he wants when he wants ya know. Both kids are workers. DD started working at 15 AND paying her car payment for the car she chose to buy. She has been very responsible paying all carpayments and insurance each month. My son also works for a local grocery store. He on the other hand does not want a car payment at this point so he bought a cheap little car that runs and he puts 3/4 of paychecks into the savings and pays his insurance and of course blows the rest. I have been pretty lucky that way but I tell you we have had our times when I wanted to trade them BOTH in. Hell not even trade give them away!! LOL Anyway sorry kinda got off the subject there. Hope things are going better and there is always light at the end of the tunnel though when they are teens it feels as though the tunnel is long and dark and never ending!

Where is everyone at? I keep checking back and not many posts....I guess you all got skinnier and hotter while I was away (almost a year) and you all got more exciting lives! GOOD JOB! LOL. Me it is saturday night and I am bored and keep checking in on my blackberry. Have a wonderful night all! Hope your pain level is down tonight Phyl. Your doing amazing with Walking. One of muy staff had a knee surgery last october and she didn't do her walking and etc like she was supposed to and she was off work until April. That was her own doing, per her words, because she didn't follow the dr orders but she is so happy now that she did the surgery. Do you have to have the other one done too? Sorry I am sure you have posted that answer before. I started to read this whole thread but I am only up to page 11. I will catch up with this one but I am sorry I would have 300+ pages on oiur first thread to read. I don't think I could catch up with that one. SORRY! My fault for falling so far behind and not checking in. I am back now though so hope that counts. LOL

Kirajh I don't think she wants the easy way....I think she wants out like all of us did. I know that we all decided that the band was right for us but that doesn't make it right for everyone. I know many people who have also had rouxen Y and have been successful and others have failed.....just as is the case with the band. I don't think ANY weight loss surgery is EASY! I am sorry this is mho.

Lindaa first off CONGRATS GRANDMA!!!! I am so happy for you! Thank you for the compliment on the pics too. Encouraging hearing others who don't see me. Court and I walked 4 miles tonight. That girl is determined I tell u. SOOO proud of her! Phyl thank you also for encouragement on the liquids. Thankfully I have a recent fill and FINALLY have restriction after the last 5 months. He has been filling me really slow due to to much, PA totally unfilled, waited 2 weeks and filled again, too much and etc etc etc. Same deal 4 times so we have been going VERY slow with the fills. Have restriction now but not as restricted as need be. I go back in 3-4 weeks for another fill. I agree with you about the sleeve. I really do love my band but I would have prob done that if I could have. Oh well I am happy with the band, even despite the past few months, and so happy to be where I am today.