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Hey all, 4th fill now just a memory. I now have 3.5cc in my 4cc band. I hope this is the one that works. I only lost 3lbs. in the last month. I started crying in the Dr's office. It was embarrassing. I am discouraged because I have been walking my butt off on the treadmill this month. Seriously! I have probably done at least 3 to 4 days a week at 60 min or more on the treadmill. One week I did 5 days at 60 min or over. I am a big girl, that wasn't easy at all. I have 7.8 lbs to go to be in twoterville. I hope that when I go in on Sept. 6th for my 5th fill. That I will be there. You guys are the only ones who understand. Thanks for that. KT

Ok, just had a bowl of ice cream. I will not be in twoterville in my lifetime if I keep this up. I go for my 4th fill tomorrow, I hope it is THE ONE that will finally give me restriction. I am just wanting this to work. I hope I have not gained when I go in tomorrow. I just want this surgery to work. I know why I had the ice cream. Isn't emotional eating the worst!? Found out my son has a heart murmur. It is going to be fine, we were just at the Dr. he said that it was mild and that he would clear my son to play football. We had just been at the gym on Saturday and then we went to get the sports physical and BAM. they said he had the murmur, it was new and it could be serious. We have waited til this afternoon to hear its going to be alright and it isn't a major deal. The waiting, the not knowing if he was OK, was the Worst. Anyway, I love the people on this thread. It makes me happy just to read your posts, you are all so positive. I will update tomorrow and let everyone know how the fill goes. Ciao Bellas! KT

Hey all, How are you all?? I have missed you! I have been away, but not really away just being unhealthy and not wanting to get online and admit it. I now realize that it was a mistake not to get on here and at least read the posts. On the positive front, I went to the gym today and walked an hour. That was 3 miles, not great speed, but not a snails pace either. I go for my 4th fill on Aug 9 and I hope that it will be the one that gives me some restriction. Can you believe there are 3cc's in my band that holds 4cc's and I have no restriction. Hello!!!! I can eat at least 3 to 4 cups of food at a sitting. That can't be right! I know I am not supposed to. I know what you guys are thinking too. Why would she do that?? (sobbing) I don't know, because I'm hungry. Today though, I vow that today is the start (again) of a better lifestyle healthier choices! starting my journal again! exercising like I should 5 days a week! Hey, I know it's nuts. If crazy is the worst thing I am ever called then I live a charmed life. Why is it, that we as overweight adults have to keep falling on and off the wagon. It is sortof like alcoholics. Only its food and you do need food to survive unlike booze. I hope when I go for my 4th fill I am in the twos. That would just be the greatest thing ever!!! And then, I will strive for the 280's and then the 270's and so on. Until maybe one day I am looking forward to the onederland. That is such a long way away. But a girl can dream can't she. Thanks for listening to the rantings of a fellow bandster.

Hello to the beautiful people. It's been awhile since I've posted. When I am feeling blue I hate to get on here and bring the place down. Went for my 3rd fill yesterday, at least I haven't gained any. I have 10 lbs to go before getting into twoterville. I should be ecstatic, but I feel like I have busted my butt this last month on the treadmill, (several times did over 60 minutes) never less than 30 minutes and I lost 7lbs. It's weird, it's like I am killing myself and nothing is happening. I see people on these threads who were banded the same day as me and they have lost like 50 or 60 lbs. I guess I should see it as I haven't gained. My NP had a hard time getting the needle into my port, said she wasn't strong enough yesterday. It took several very hard pressing jabs to get it in. Again if the glass is half full then that means I am not leaking through the port. Why am I feeling depressed here? Some days I don't get this surgery, it's supposed to make you a happier and healthier person. I want to get into the July challenge. I would like to lose 5 lbs in half the month that I have left. That way, I can possibly be in twoterville by the time I go in for my next Dr. appt. in Aug. PS. I love seeing how all of you have progressed. Maybe I am back because you all are just inspirational. I think that's it. Ciao Bellas

Faith, Congratulations and I hope you are feeling ok. I have been very bad this weekend with my eating. It is so hard to change. I do really well some days and some days I just slip back into old habits. My NP told me that after the next fill I will probably not be able to slip into old habits anymore. She says I will most definitely feel restriction with fill #3 and that fill is on the 10th of July. It's weird, but I do better on days I have to go into work. Those are the days I go to the gym usually and when I am in the all day mode. Do you know what I mean?? I have had 2 fills and can actually eat as much as before, but I do feel very full. Before I never felt full, I felt bottomless. I hope you can relate to anything I have posted, I feel like I am asking myself at the time of this post, do they know what I mean??? Anyway, let me know. Luv my twoterbuds! I will be there soon!

Molly-Don't be nervous, you'll be awesome I just know it!! How about the rest of you, tell me your weigh in routines, Don't be shy now. Tell me how and where and how often etc. Molly, also thanks for saying 20 lbs in 2 months is ok. I feel a little disappointed sometimes. BTW, did I get my butt to the gym today, NO!! I slept in and then remembered I had to be at work early and was almost late! LOL So that extra from yesterday is all for naught. I also ate buffalo wings tonight. I want more restriction so bad! Now entering guiltville, next stop trytoget outofguiltville! Hope everyone has a great day on Thursday!! You are all beautiful! I've seen the pics!

One more thing, when do you guys weigh, and where?? I don't own a scale at home. When you guys say weigh day, what does that mean? Once a week, once every two weeks once a month?? I am just curious, if you don't mind sharing. Is it normal to only have lost 20 lbs in 2 months? I feel like I am behind the learning curve. OK, enough of the one more thing, more like lots more things.

Just wanted to tell all of you that I did 60 minutes on the treadmill today. Actually, a very funny story. I was finishing up my cool down at 45 min and a friend that I didn't know was at the gym climbed up on the treadmill next to me, not to walk herself, just to say hello to me. Well, she stood there (she's so skinny!!) and talked to me and I was SWEATING!!! and huffing and she just kept on talking and was dying, but I just acted like no big deal, so when she finally left I had done about 65 minutes!! OMG! It's funny now, but I thought I was going to die! She had been at an aerobic class and just happened to see me on her way out. I was happy when I left the gym but I hope that doesn't happen again, it was embarrassing. Anyway, I am glad to see everyone. Ciao.

Hey all, I haven't been around the past couple of days. I stained a privacy fence on Saturday and yesterday had to work OT (forced) at work. I feel like my booty has been kicked today. At least no overtime tonight! I haven't gone to the gym in the last couple of days either because I am so tired. I just wanted to say hello to you all and I hope you have a great week.~ciao!

Christine!! Congrats!!! I am 17 lbs away now from the 2's. I am so happy for you.! that is really awesome!

Hello to the beautiful people!!! 2nd fill is now done, plus afterwards I got my hair cut! Can you believe that ticker?? Even with the vacation and no restriction lost another 5lbs. Plus it is right in middle of TOM. I didn't get to go to the gym today because I just got home and now have to leave for work, but I will be back at it tomorrow. Chris, try not to worry ( I know easy for me to say) but maybe time will tell a different story for you and you will be able to heal?? I will pray for you. I know nothing of medicine but I do know second opinions sometimes are needed. I know you will get through it, if there is anything I can do to help just let me know. Thanks for all the great words of encouragement and Congrats on all of the jobs well done, weight loss and exercise wise!! You guys keep me going. Well, its clear liquids for 24 hrs after this fill. I hope I tell a difference when I can start eating normal again. Big sloppy kiss to all of you!!

Wow, you guys made me tear up! It is a great group of people on here! Tann, Libra, Elizabeth Carol Christine and all of the others who faithfully encourage me, I love you guys! I am going to the gym now, 45 minutes, it helps if I say it out loud LOL. Send good vibes tomorrow because my 2nd official weigh in and my 2nd fill. I will write tomorrow and let you know! Big sloppy kiss to all my girls and thanks for becoming my friends, even better than some of the friends I have here in the real world.

Julie-Thanks for the encouragment!! I am headed to the gym again today. I will do 45 minutes again. It is around 2 miles so I know I am slow right now, but like Tracy said I sweat like I haven't seen exercise in ages!! Man am I a sweat demon! I hate my sweaty butt! Oh well, I am looking forward and not back, I am a sweathog now, but any day we will be able to say sweat princess LOL. Have a great day all!!! 2nd fill tomorrow, wish me luck!

Hey all, I guess I am just a baby bandit, was banded apr 9 07 and haven't lost much yet. I go for my 2nd fill on Wednesday this week. But today I had my first "real" workout since my surgery. I just haven't been motivated but today I did 45 minutes on the treadmill. I am going to go as much as possible and do 45 minutes. Maybe in July I will be going for the Gold. I just got back from vacation where I ate so bad. I think that is what has motivated me to get going. I feel tired right now, and have to go into work at 2:30 but I will feel better about myself if I start exercising regularly. I hope you all are having a great day.

Christine, thank you so much for caring. It's weird, but this thread has much nicer people than most I subscribe to. I actually have people respond, it is my favorite one. I can't wait to get to twoterville, but it will be awhile! I look forward to it though. Good luck all, I will talk to you soon. Carol and Christine you guys are so great, I really feel ok about the week ahead now.

Carol, changed my avatar I did. I am liking the force, it will help me in my endeavors!

Carol!!! AKA Obi Wan The force is strong with you! Follow your advice I will. LOL thanks for the sweet response. My friends on Lbt are the best! Carol, Funny you are!!! LOL

Christine, I was in Orlando too. Did a lot of walking, but ate everything in sight. I am such a slow loser anyway!! I wish I had more willpower! I have NONE. Not one ounce of willpower. If anyone on this site is a praying person, please!!! I need your prayers, mine aren't going to be enough after this vacation. I can't believe I am going to be happy to be back at the Police Dept! I needed the vacation so badly, and now I am upset at myself because of it! Crazy I am. LOL that sentence sounded like I was Yoda from Star Wars. Crazy I am.

Wow!! congrats Libra. It makes me smile to hear how well you are doing. Especially since I have had a bad couple of weeks. I was on vacation and now that I am home I am feeling HORRIBLE about how I ate. I am just disgusted with myself because I didn't keep my weight loss at the forefront of my mind. I hope after the fill I get on Wednesday this week it will give me courage and some better tenacity to get back to work on this. It will be easier when I start back to work and get back on my schedule. I just hope I haven't gained like 10 lbs or something. Oh my, I will cry if I have.

Alexandra, I think you might be like my lap band angel. The day your lapband was taken out, I got mine put in. I have only lost 15 lbs so far and haven't had a good last couple of weeks. Vacation- I lost my mind! Ate like I had never had surgery. I am feeling guilt and disgust with myself. I read that you would do it again and I think to myself, she would put herself through all of it again, that's how much she believes in it. That gives me the strength to go back into my good habits one day at a time. I get my 2nd fill on Wednesday this coming week. Hopefully it will give me much more restriction. I need to get jump started after this bad bump. Anyway, wanted to say thanks. Thanks.

Hey Musical Momma, I just got back from an 8 day vacation to Orlando FL with my family. I live in KC MO. I have only had one fill, feel NO restriction and I ate horribly on vacation. It was like I had never had the surgery. I am completely upset with myself. I go for my second fill on Wed. and I know I will have gained weight. I recommend getting the fill. If not, then please keep your goal at the forefront of your mind. All I wanted to do was get away and have some relaxation and time with my family. ( I am a Police Dispatcher) I wish now that I would have kept my weight loss efforts at the top of my priority list. I would not feel like crap right now, guilt and disgust at myself. I am over 300 lbs and have a lot to lose. I just can't stress enough how horrible I feel about the vacation just because of this. Best of luck to you. I know you will do the right thing and have fun too.

Hello all. I posted on the Shrinking Violets today too. I just got home from vacation today. Didn't eat right on vaca for 8 days. Just ate whatever was put in front of me. I didn't eat a bunch of crap, only sweet I had all week was a piece of carrot cake but I didn't eat good. I didn't stay below 1000 cals a day. I just totally forgot all about the fact that I had surgery in April to help me lose weight and on Wed. I go for my 2nd fill. I know I will have gained weight and I feel terrible about it now. Why didn't I feel terrible when I was eating like the old me on vacation?? I am not looking for sympathy, I just want to let everyone know it's just not worth it. I wish I hadn't gone on vacation with my family, ISNT that Terrible?? I hope that this post helps someone get through their vacation in the diet mindset. It just isn't going to be worth it when I get on that scale on Wednesday.

Thanks Darla, I know youre right about one day at a time. Hopefully I will be better after the 2nd fill. Thanks for replying.

Hello all, I just got home from vacation. All I have to say is, I did not stay on a good eating program. I just ate what everyone else ate. I did not count calories, I just plain was on vacation and didn't want to have to think about it. I didn't eat a bunch of sweets or go crazy or anything. I am now afraid of going to get my second fill on Wednesday. I am afraid of what the scale will say. I know I just have to know that it may be a weight that I will not like. I am just not prepared. I wonder if I had more restriction on vacation if it would have been different. I guess I got some exercise as I was in an amusement park almost every day walking my legs off. I also went to the beach one day and was in the water. Maybe it won't be as bad as I think. Or maybe it will. I just hate this feeling of being back in "reality" and going back to work and the 8 days I was gone may have sabatoged what I was doing before I went. I just feel bad I guess. I could use a friend from the Violets right now. Thank you.

Hey all!!! Thank you for giving me the perspective I needed on a day when I was truly discouraged!! I love you guys in a way that is different from everyone else. I need you too. I hope that makes sense and doesnt freak anyone out!! Still trying,