You are on the right road, and don't be so hard on yourself. You made a life changing decision. It was the best thing I have ever done for myself. I had 4 kids and never lost and baby weight. I have struggled with it for 20 yrs and I hated shopping in the big and tent department too. I was extremely hard on myself, but there is light at the end of the tunnel ... trust me. I found something the other day that I had lost quite a while back...my hipbones! Sad huh? but I was soooo excited. I actually dont have to shop in CJ Banks...I graduated to Christopher Banks the skinny store. I have gone from a size 24 to a 10/12 in 6 months. It will happen for you too. Just stick with the diet and excerise too, it will help with the loose skin. I eat whatever I want to now and I am still losing. I even ate a lindor chocolate the other day. But, no soda....it's been 6 months and still counting. Good Luck! chat back if ya want to. Merry Christmas!