ShannonH

This is just my own personal experience till date.I just need to express how I feel and speak up my mind.
 
Almost 4 weeks post op and I feel depressed, down and lonely.
 
I am becoming so emotional and tearful. Small things make me crying. I am not catching up with our friends as before cause I feel like staying alone.
 
Stalled at 2 weeks and hasn’t lost any since. It is like I need this on top.
 
I did the surgery to lose weight and feel healthy but I feel weak, dizzy and always hungry. After few failed IVF, I am hoping this surgery will help but scared to death it wont make any difference.
 
I have back pain since surgery and it is not going away. It is causing lots of pain especially when I am laid down on my back or sitting long.
 
My scares still hurting and I can feel some tightness in my sleeve. Not knowing if it is something I should worry about or it is normal.
My husband is supportive but will never understand what I am going through.
 
Praying things will get better soon.

So for the past few months I've been making pretty good food choices as I figured that since I was going forward with this surgery I should start changing my eating habits sooner rather than later. I do protein shakes (I actually rather like them!), and a veggie/fruit/nut/dairy smoothie thats delicious and healthy. My body feels like it's running better and I have more energy since I've started actually acknowledging a need for a more healthy and varied diet.
 
As I said above, I've been pretty good the last few months, but today I decided, "What the hell" and answered my craving for a Burger King Whopper Junior and fries. Plus soda, which I almost never drink. I figured having one fast food meal every now and then is no biggie, right? WRONG! My insides feel like they want to be outside and I dont think my gallbladder will ever forgive me. Uck. I also feel just plain ol' yuckie.
 
So with my intestinal discomfort, why am I kinda happy, you ask? Because whilst I was consuming calorie and fat ladden foods I realized that it just didn't taste as good as it used to. It tasted...well...fatty and super processed. Fake. One shaky step up from fillet a la cardboard. Frankly it disgusted me and I have absolutely NO desire to eat that crap again. Healthy, tasty, natural foods are addictive and your taste buds do change over time. My revelation was kinda surprising and very welcome!
 
Not bad for a pre-sleever, huh?