blackanese25

5'7''
surgery date 12-12-11
HW: 265
GWfS: 250
DoS: 238.1
CW: 187.5
GW:150
 
Ok.. so I normally write how well im doing in my blogs, and honestly this week isn't really different.. Im doing well. I think I am actually doing really well with my weightloss, but here is the thing, when people ask me what im eating and how im losing the weight.. i kind of feel bad cuz the truth of the matter is.. Yes, im am exercising my butt off.. LITERALLY, but im also eating what ever I want, and that is a bad thing.
 
Let me explain... Its not like im just eating junk food, cuz im not. However, if i feel like eating chips, or a cookie, or whatever happens to pop in my mind, well then i eat it! Not like a huge portion of it, but just a bite or two to satisfy my craving. And this early in the the game its just a really bad habit that I am forming. I still eat healthy food for the most part, but im 13 weeks out and i eat fast food, carbs, and sweets!
 
Its funny cuz as i am writing this i have to stop and pause, and i think, wow.. im insane.. i went and had this surgery and im actually sabotoging myself..WHO DOES THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!
 
In my mind i think im justifying myself by saying well im goin to the gym enough to counter what im putting in my body, but the reality is... a year down the road when im at goal and i DONT have to go to the gym every day, what will i have just done to myself.
 
Im not writing this to condone my actions or to even make and excuse for them.. I just think that i need to be honest with myself and those of you that take the time to read my blog each week. Yea im gettin results.. and to be honest even while writing this im still really happy with my weightloss, and my body, because yea even tho i eat bad things sometimes, i still work my butt off in order to keep losing the weight.
 
Im having the worst inner turmoil right now.. and i just want be as good a role model as you all have expected out of me.
 
Anyways, now that ive written an essay ill get to at least some of the good stuff...
 
I went shopping the other day, and here is the awesome part... I bought 3 pairs of pants.. IN THE JUNIORS SECTION..size 13. I was soo excited!!! And to top off the great deals, i bought a medium shirt.. GO ME!!!
 
and you know me.. no blog is complete without a picture.. this one i took just last night.

Today marks my 6 month anniversary.. I am 11 lbs from goal, but not trying to lose anymore weight. I officially posted my before, during and after pics in the success section of VST if you are interested in looking at them.. but i will post 2 pics here.. my before and after. I again would like to say thank you to everyon that followed my blog and my journey.. I hope I was able to inspire some of you and be a helping hand to anyone that needed it... And i appreicate all of your support. so without further ado....
 
me at my heaviest..
me yesterday 06-11-12

Today marks my 6 month anniversary.. I am 11 lbs from goal, but not trying to lose anymore weight. I officially posted my before, during and after pics in the success section of VST if you are interested in looking at them.. but i will post 2 pics here.. my before and after. I again would like to say thank you to everyon that followed my blog and my journey.. I hope I was able to inspire some of you and be a helping hand to anyone that needed it... And i appreicate all of your support. so without further ado....
 
me at my heaviest..
me yesterday 06-11-12

So yesterday marks 24 weeks out or 5 months post op.. I am 13.6 lbs from goal and feeling good.. so here are my stats
 
5'7"
HW:265
DoS:238.1
CW: 163.6
Goal:150
 
These past few months have been the best that i could have ever imagined.. My weight is under control, my boyfriend and I are engaged, and I feel like a brand new me. The funny part is im not even worried about these last few lbs because to be honest im not sure where they are gonna come from, but hey.. hopefully not my boobs or my ass..lol. I have been lucky so far to not really lose my boobs.. my butt got a little deflated, but hey a little squats will perk it right back up..
 
I do have to admit i have been slackin hard core on the working out, but thats because im sooo tired from driving every week to see my fiancee. Unfortunately he doesn't live close so we have to drive back n forth to see each other.. not fun but hey its a sacrafice im willing to make to be with him and vice versa for him.
 
I am hoping to be at goal by the end of next month, but if not no biggie.. just wanted to set a little goal for myself and see if i can achieve it, but in order to do that i need to get back to hitting the gym and running like i used to.. So here is my pledge.. i will run at least 3 days a week. and i will hit the gym at least 2 days a week.. i need to build muscle!
 
I leave you with pictures and my thanks for all your support in my journey to a new and improved me. I hope that I have been a slight insperation to some of you as you have been one to me. here are some recent pictures of my journey..
 

So yesterday marks 24 weeks out or 5 months post op.. I am 13.6 lbs from goal and feeling good.. so here are my stats
 
5'7"
HW:265
DoS:238.1
CW: 163.6
Goal:150
 
These past few months have been the best that i could have ever imagined.. My weight is under control, my boyfriend and I are engaged, and I feel like a brand new me. The funny part is im not even worried about these last few lbs because to be honest im not sure where they are gonna come from, but hey.. hopefully not my boobs or my ass..lol. I have been lucky so far to not really lose my boobs.. my butt got a little deflated, but hey a little squats will perk it right back up..
 
I do have to admit i have been slackin hard core on the working out, but thats because im sooo tired from driving every week to see my fiancee. Unfortunately he doesn't live close so we have to drive back n forth to see each other.. not fun but hey its a sacrafice im willing to make to be with him and vice versa for him.
 
I am hoping to be at goal by the end of next month, but if not no biggie.. just wanted to set a little goal for myself and see if i can achieve it, but in order to do that i need to get back to hitting the gym and running like i used to.. So here is my pledge.. i will run at least 3 days a week. and i will hit the gym at least 2 days a week.. i need to build muscle!
 
I leave you with pictures and my thanks for all your support in my journey to a new and improved me. I hope that I have been a slight insperation to some of you as you have been one to me. here are some recent pictures of my journey..
 

SOMEONE PINCH ME CUZ I MUST BE DREAMIN!!!!!
 
I just don't know how i lived as a fat kid for so long... I have energy like you wouldn't believe!!!!! I am at the gym every other day and the days that im not at the gym im running outside! My only day off is Sunday and i dont mind it one bit! I honestly thought that me being in ONEderland was a fluke, but nope its hear to stay.. as of this morning I am officially 195.6.... HECK TO THE FREAKING YEAH!!!!!!!
 
Ok so that was my happy dance..lol.
 
These past few weeks I have been on one hell of a ride. gaining, losing, pretend stalling, lol.. but i know no matter what is goin on that week that the weight will countinue to fall off because im workin hard to make that happen! Im not perfect. I eat things i probably shouldn't, i drink alcohol, and in all reality, i need to stop that. But the best part of all this is i know i screw up sometimes, but that i do my best to get back on track. Before I had the mind set oh i screwed up well i guess i will wallow in my guilt and keep messing up.. now i just go well hell it happens now let me fix it!
 
I know i normally start with stats but i just wanted to get my piece in. so here are the stats
 
5'7"
HW: 265
CW: 195.6
GW: 150
 
and of course this blog wouldn't be complete without pics..lol
the first pic..i wore that dress back in 2008 when my best friend got married.. it fits again!
the second pic-- i know you have seen the dress before but that was me on valentines day!
 

Ok everyone status update:
 
5'7"
HW:265
GWS:250
DoS:238.1
CW:199.6
GW:150
 
WOW!!!! where do I start... Since December 12, 2011 this has been one amazing journey! I am down approx 39 lbs in 9 weeks, I don't think i could have accomplished that in 6 months prior to the surgery. This is my tool for a better life and a better me, living pain free. I never thought i would make it here but yesterday I finally made it to ONEderland!!!!! And even tho its that TOM, and i throughly expect that number to go back to the 200's i know that it will drop below again once aunt flow goes away!
But for right now I will take this little victory!!! AND SHOUT IT AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS!!!!!!!!
 
lol... on another note... Today is also the start of my TOUGH MUDDER training.. i will be kicking my own ass all up and down the block.. and i am hoping that this will help keep the lbs away during aunties visit.. lol But more importantly im doing this to prove to all my haters, doubters, and **** talkers, THAT I DON'T GIVE A RATS BEHIND if they think i CAN'T do it.. I AM NO LONGER LOSING WEIGHT FOR ANYONE ELSE BUT ME!!!!!! he he he... go me!
 
so im trying to decide if i want to start a whole new blog for my training or not.. i guess let me know if you guys are interested in the journey..and if you don't know what TOUGH MUDDER IS.... youtube it for 2012... ITS INTENSE AND NOT FOR THE FAINT OR WEAK! and no you wont see any blood or gore..lol

ok so after last week i was really excited, but this week just hasn't been good for me.. so here are my stats
5'7"
hw: 265
gw:250
dos: 238.1
cw: 203.6
 
 
so here goes, today is week 8 for me and i only lost 3 lbs from last week.. and i know thats not really terrible except for the fact that before i left for vegas on 2-2-12 i was down to 202.1 which means i gained weight! OK OK i know.. it is definitely my own damn fault cuz i partied like a rock star in vegas.. not really eatting things that i shouldn't, but because of the alcohol.. total empty calories.. it is officially the price that i pay!
 
I guess tho it has been buggin me because even before i left i realized that i hit a miniature stall.. and normally i don't worry if the number on the scale doesn't change a bit, because i work out so much that im sure that i gain muscle which is much more dense than fat meaning at some point yes im going to stall on the weight loss i guess i just didnt figure it would come soooo soon.
 
Now i really need to get back on the band wagon with my workouts and cardio, so that i can break this stall that i seem to be in.
 
On a good note tho!!!! I HAD AN AMAZING TIME IN VEGAS bought clothes, went to go see a show (beatles love w. cirque du soleil) it was freaking amazing!!!!!!! and we got vip treatment the entire trip! so thats good.. i've included some pics..
 

alright so here is the skinny..lol no pun intended.. my stats as of today
5'7''
hw: 265lbs
gfs:250
dos:238.1
cw:202.9
gw:150
 
As of today I am 53 lbs from goal. I had my first post op meeting with my surgeon a few days ago everything went well.. doc said im on track and infact that i have lost something equivalent to those on bypass surgery, which i took as a good thing. She said that im healing nicely and that i can return to full workouts...YAY!!!!! THAT MADE ME HAPPY. Im gonna really start working my abs now cuz i want to have a 6 pack.. or at least something that resembles a 6 pack.
 
So i have to admit.. lately i have been slackin on hitting the gym, but its cuz ive been really tired lately, i think a lot of it is due to the fact that i am NOT getting in my required amount of food and i keep forgetting to take my vitamins.. I know i know.. not good.. so im trying to get back on the horse and remember to take my vitamins and eat right.
 
I am gonna keep this blog short as i decided to slice my hand open and its kind of hard to type.. but ive added progress photos for you to see!
 
ITS A NEW YEAR!!! TIME FOR A NEW ME!

Well, I just had to write a few words about what happened today when I went to see my primary care physician. Let me tell you a little background first.
 
I am seven and a half months post op. I had my surgery June 18 in Tijuana, MX. And I am thrilled to no end with my results so far. Have lost right around 98 pounds. (It varies depending on the day.)
 
I was living and working in California when I decided that I wanted to have the surgery. I am a travel nurse, but my home is in Iowa. I traveled home to Iowa in June for a couple weeks off, then my husband and I were going to fly to San Diego and travel on to Tijuana for the surgery. I went to see my PCP the day before we flew to San Diego to get my meds refilled. I hadn't seen him again till today, so hadn't been in his office since June of 2011.
 
When the nurse called my name today, I got up to follow her to the exam room. As usual, she led me to the scale on the way to the exam room. In the past, I have frequently declined to get weighed, as I didn't want/need to be depressed by what it said. But in my new, current life, I am not afraid of the scale anymore. So I hopped up on the scale to see what it would say. (I had already weighed myself at home this morning and was 160 lbs without a stitch on!)
 
The digital readout of the doctor's scale said 162, which is about right, since I had a pair of jeans on and a pair of boots. The nurse went to write it down, and said "hold on a minute! What is your name again? What is your birthdate? When were you here last?" I told her my name, birthdate and that I was last seen there in June of 2011. She then replied "well who ever weighed you that day is an idiot! They wrote the wrong weight down. They wrote that you weighed 260 pounds!!!! I need to change that!"
 
 
I laughed and told her there was nothing wrong with the weight in the chart, that I had lost almost 100 pounds in the last 7 1/2 months. She was amazed and had all kinds of questions. When I told her that I had undergone a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy she didn't know what it was. So I gave her a short course on VSG.
 
Anyway, I guess I can count this as one of my NSV!
 
P.S. the doctor told me I looked amazing, and was SO encouraging. He thought I made the right decision and told me to keep at it.

So today is my two week mark. I am officially down 15 lbs. And sooooooo happy..
 
i will keep this blog short and sweet.
 
I have been going to the gym at least 3 x per week.. and im gonna kick it up to 4 starting this week, because i am afraid of the dreaded.. 3 week stall.. dun dun dun .. lol
 
Anyways i've been doing zumba and free weights and paying close attention to my legs and arms since its about the only things i can do right now that dont hurt. I recently fell so im a little worried about the damage that i may have done so i am being really careful right now, and i will probably be going to the doctors soon to see if i screwed up anything. keep your fingers crossed for me.
 
to date:
starting weight 238.1 day of surgery
current weight 224.0
starting pant size 18
current pant size 14-16 depending on brand
goal 160

So here I am 6 days out of surgery.. it has been one hell of a journey already.
Up until today I was getting dangerously close to being hospitalized for dehydration. And to make matters worse the gas pains were unbearable. And the icing on the cake.. aunt flow decided to start two days after surgery.. lol.. lucky me.
So night before last I had asked my mom to get me some gas x, which really really really helped. And thankfully my periods only last about 3 days and are very light, so today it ended.. whew! When I woke up this morning I felt like a new person.. no gas pain, no cramps, just a little tenderness near my incisions was all the discomfort I felt.
I was so excited that I decided to go for a walk outside.. which is nice because I literally hadn’t been outside since I had the surgery. I barely got out of bed for most of the 6 days. But, today I went for a walk around the block which was about a mile and a half and it felt GOOD!!!!!!
Furthermore, I decided to weigh myself…. He he he.. this is where I just got a huge grin… on the day of surgery 12-12-11 I weighed in 238.1….. as of today 12-18-11 I weigh 230! I haven’t seen that number in over a year! And what really made me laugh is I have an appetite, so I go eat my jello or my cream of wheat and take a few bites and im stuffed! The only thing that goes thru my head is… HELL YEAH BABY!!!! I LOVE MY NEW TUMMY.. I AM GONNA LOVE TO EAT AND FEEL FULL EARLY IN THE MEAL AND NOT FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO DEVOUR MY ENTIRE LASAGNA THAT I COULD HAVE GOTTEN FROM BUCA DI BEPPO (FAMILY STYLE RESTAURANT) BASICALLY YOU ARE REALLY NOT SUPPOSED TO EAT AND ENTIRE PLATE TO YOUR SELF!.
In fact I wake up and I WANT let me repeat that I WANT TO START EXERCISING…. I almost can’t wait. In 6 days I dropped 8 lbs, my face I already thinner, I am freakin happy, and I have energy.
 
VSG---- I LOVE YOU!