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Lissa, get your grove on!!! lol... and yea i must be doin somethin right cuz i have 3 dates lined up this week..lol.. im such a hussy.. no not really, but dates are just fun..i love gettin all dolled up. LMAO!!! im sure its just for our benefit!!!! we are so lucky to have men like you around.. you know willing to make sure that we are..eh hem.. completely satisfied! lol... a man that has no interest in his own personal gain. Oh thats ok.. you should see me at the gym.. i swear im getting whiplash!!! It takes all my effort not to jump the hot sweaty boys right where they stand..lol

Oh its only gotten worse...I'm just one big raging sex hormone right now...only I have no partner to release my um...frustration on..lol....

Ok so seriously... i just have to say.. I can't fit into my favorite pants anymore cuz they are tooooo damn big!!!!!---$10 to drive them to a friends house Yesterday I was a size 12 and this morning I can wear a size 10! --- $15 gettin the waist restiched so i can wear them another week I just went shopping at Kohls... I couldn't even find anything to wear in the adult section so I was forced to go buy 3 pairs of pants from the juniors section!! WTF?!?!?!---$57 I have given away literally 15 pairs of pants, 12 shirts, and I have 6 more pairs of pants at my house right now waiting to get picked up by a friend and 4 other shirts.. one also being my favorite.---$60 just basically giving clothes away I just bought a pair of pants 3 weeks ago.. haven't even taken the tags off yet.. and this morning i go to wear them.. oh they dont even fit anymore!!!---$25 wasted on not wearin the when i bought them MY WALLET IS TAKING A BEATING!!!!!!!!! Look on my moms face when she gets back from Japan today and I tell her we wear the same size pants-----ABSOLUTELY FREAKIN PRICELESS!!!!!!!!!!

wow a HUGE congrats is in order... that is wonderful!!!!!! i can't wait to hit goal... do your thing!!!!! and keep living that healthy life!

yea seriously!!! i dont wanna lose any more shoe sizes.. replacing clothes is bad enough as it is.. i really don't wanna have to replace all my shoes too..lol.. and again thank you guys.. i feel terrific!! ---on another note oddly after posting the other day.. AUNT FLOW decided she wanted to make an appearance.. and ive gained 3 lbs..lol.. poop on a stick, but i know it'll come back off once she departs.. but damn.. i was sooo happy to be in the 180's even if it was only 188.. but im back in the 190s now.. grrrrr...lol

yea my feet have definitely shrunk.. and its soo funny too cuz my favorite rings .. can't wear them any more .. my friend bought me a beautiful ring for my birthday.. cuz im more of a jewelry girl than a clothes girl.. i had to give it back cuz it doesn't fit me anymore.. lol I love slimming down, but man i go thru clothes like a little kid.. after about 3 weeks it doesn't fit anymore.

ok so this is starting to get strange to me.. lol.. lately i have people comin up to me goin.. 'wow you lost a lot of weight...' and im thinkin ok.... i mean they tell me i look good, but im like im only down 46 lbs.. i know its a lot, but i guess i thought i always carried my weight pretty well cuz im very proportionate.. I mean i know i was a chunky girl, but damn WAS I REALLY THAT BIG???? Its just odd..I mean I was happy with my looks when i was chunky... and im happy with my looks now that im only slightly chunky..lol.. but still i guess i just never saw myself as being really big, but the fact that people make it seem like i was HUGE just kinda makes me feel uncomfortable.. I guess yea at 265lbs I was a big girl.. i guess its just odd now that i know how other people perceived me.. Does anyone else feel like this sometimes.. or am i just thinking about it too much? this is me just a few days ago at my bands show... this is me at my heaviest..... i mean ok yea im definitely fatter, but i guess i just didn't see that i lost soooo much weight that its that its OMG noticable..i guess..but whatever...don't get me wrong i feel terrific and im not complainin about the loss... i guess i just feel awkward when people come up to me sayin.. 'damn you lost HELLA wait' and they do with that much emphasis on HELLA!!!!

thank you..im just tryin to catch up with you!!!

5'7'' HW: 265 GfS: 250 DoS: 238.1 CW: 192.1 GW: 150 So I just want to start out by saying thank you everyone for your support and caring words when im just in a rutt! I am doing sooooooo much better this week, I went to my masseus and she basically beat the hell out of me..lol but by the next day i was feeling expoentially better..I still hurt but not nearly as bad as i did a week ago. Im finally able to get back to running and some light weight lifting. Also, the weight started droping again so that made me happy!!!! I figure i need to look on the bright side of things.. Im down 46 lbs since surgery.. and its only been 2 and a half months.. i think im doin pretty damn good. And i am really excited about tough mudder coming up in sept.. if i can drop the last 40 lbs by then.. I am going to compete. (but im really hopin to lose the last 42 lbs way before then cuz i wanna be bikini ready by summer..lol....*cross my fingers*) probably not gonna happen, but a girl can dream can't she?!! well you know me blogs are not complete without some pics so here ya go!!!! this is me on 3-3-12 performing with my band!! had a great night! goofy face..i dunno...lol

well hey hey hey.. lol.. glad that you are doing well.. you should update your ticker!!!

My face is definitely where i noticed it first. and yea its kind of a shocker to see the difference in pictures..im like hey look ma no double chin..lol

thank you... yea its definitely a mind game sometimes.. and i just need to realize that people are going to notice a 50 lb drop..lol the more that i look at my pics the more im starting to see what other people see .. its just seems sureal.. and i think its more of HOW people say their reaction.. like HOLY COW YOU LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT..im like damn people i mean i know but why you gotta make it sound like i was freaking hump back whale..lolol thank you.. i feel really good too.. i am 5'7 which isn't that much taller than you and at my highest weight 265 so i know that i was pretty big, but i have a lot of muscle which is why i guess when i told people how much i weight no one really ever believed me.. but its their reactions now that make me wonder if they were just being nice about it..lol Thank you... yea these photos are just messin with me now! im almost afraid to see what im gonna look like another 40 lbs down... LOL ALMOST.

ok so i work out 5-6 days a week.. and i started bootcamp training and i will be starting kick boxing next month.. I am seriously worried about all my wiggly bits.. lol.. i am hoping to keep some of my tightness by replacing lost fat with muscle, but for the ladies has any of the non stop exercising actually helped? I want to get a better idea of my realistic expectations.

thats awesome your gonna love it.. been a kj now for 12 years... its soooo much fun. and yea i had a great night.. it was my first performance as a lead vocalist.. and im just excited about performing now.

thank you.. yea thats what most people said, because i was really proportionate it just never looked like i weighed what i did.. but i promise that scale was brutal..lol thats what i did.. gave all my pants to a friend of mine.. and i see her wear what used to be my favorite pair of pants and im just astonished sometimes... thank you... im 5'7''

thank you everyone, I feel great and honestly i completely understand when you look at the before and after i look way bigger..lol.. And i get why people say wow you lost hella weight.. i just need to take it as a compliment and not damn you were seriously fat before..lolol.. what cracks me up sometimes is that everyone assumes that ive always been big and i really havent ive only been big for about 4 years... after my 3rd knee surgery i packed it on like sumo wrestler.... apparently thats what happens when you can't move and continue eating like you did in grade school... hopefully my mind will catch up to my body, and just be happy about it. cuz i truely am a happier person since the surgery.. im more energetic and i feel all glowy inside!

good luck to you hun!!! im sure everything will go smoothly!! keep us updated on your progress :0)

k.. i know i need to just suck it up and be happy, but i just don't know what to do. So here goes.. My health insurance ran out, so im not getting the post op care that i need. My 3 month appointment is on the 5th and i can't go. Im in excruciating pain because of my cyatic nerve (sorry if my spelling is off) so i can't really exercise...which in turn means ive only lost 6 lbs this month. Im really dissappointed in myself. And I do not want to get down because when that happens my mind automatically reverts to food! Please help me.. i am askin now cuz i already see my past habits rearing its ugly head!!!! I know im doing well, but i feel like i did 45 lbs ago.. not wanting to move cuz im in pain and just wanting to wallow in food! Luckily I can't actually fit that much in me so i guess i wont be eating a lot, but i will start eating the bad things. also anyone know if i can go to like med7 or something if i don't have med insurance?

welcome to the forum!!!!!!

hello hello!!!!! congrats on the surgery... hope everything went well!!! This is gonna be one hell of a journey but your gonna love yourself for it!!!!!!!