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thank u anamor... i love to sing.. its my passion!!!

I had my surgery 12-12-11 Im down 55lbs... Im feeling really good and am seriously active and hitting the gym! I dont really have a fear of stretching out the stomach because the docs cut out the elastic part on ur tummy and u would literally have to eat and drink to fullness on the daily to stretch ur tummy out.... I dont wanna press that envelope any time to soon..lol.. But other than that i dont have any food complications or issues with my sleeve... just feeling sexy and doin my thing!! BTW congrats everyone on ur awesome weight loss.

THAT IS AMAZING!!!!!! Congrats on your journey!!! I can't wait to be where u are!!!!!!

Congrats on taking the steps to a new u!!!! Keep us updated on if journey.

How long did it take before you were actually able to sit down and eat a meal! And dont get me wrong i love my sleeve the not being able to eat part is whats helping my weightloss, but Im just kind of wonderin when i can go on a date and actually be able to eat a meal as opposed to 3 bites and go damn im full.. ..

its not really that i WANT to be able to eat a whole meal, but i would like to go on date and actually eat a meal..lol.. i feel like the girl that orders a salad just cuz i dont wanna eat in front of my man...totally not the case.. and its almost pointless to go out and eat right now.. about the only thing i can get more of one bite from is sushi..minus the rice. which is fine by me, but im just wondering if ill ever be able to enjoy a meal again?

ok this might be TMI.. but can i just say..... now that im seeing someone... my eh hem.. libido is getting worse...lol.. its like i get some and i just cant seem to get enough!!!! WTF?!?!?!? I am officially a dude! lol I think im wearin the poor guy out! lol Might have to go find a spare...OK IM SERIOUSLY JUST KIDDING ABOUT THAT ONE... but it was too funny not to put in.

thank you.... and im glad that i can inspire anyone!! lol... We are all just doin what we can to better our lives right?!

5'7'' surgery date 12-12-11 HW: 265 GWfS: 250 DoS: 238.1 CW: 186.8 GW:150 Today is 3-19-2012, I am starting a new work out regimen so that I can prepare myself for TOUGH MUDDER! I am really excited about this journey and because I want to do everything in my power to succeed I went and got myself a personal trainer! Now this is only for 3 months, so Im making a short term goal! MY GOAL IS TO HIT MY GOAL WEIGHT BY THE END OF JUNE! I think its very doable. Now in all reality I don't care if I really hit goal because I will be doing a lot of strength training which undoubtedly will build muscle which mean possible weight gain or just lack of loss.. as you can see by the fact that I have only lost half a lb since my last weigh-in.. But im not discouraged because even tho im not losing weight i am toning up and losin inches... thats all that really matters.. Hopefully I will have great news come next week about my training.. but until then i leave you with pictures...lol

5'7'' surgery date 12-12-11 HW: 265 GWfS: 250 DoS: 238.1 CW: 187.5 GW:150 Ok.. so I normally write how well im doing in my blogs, and honestly this week isn't really different.. Im doing well. I think I am actually doing really well with my weightloss, but here is the thing, when people ask me what im eating and how im losing the weight.. i kind of feel bad cuz the truth of the matter is.. Yes, im am exercising my butt off.. LITERALLY, but im also eating what ever I want, and that is a bad thing. Let me explain... Its not like im just eating junk food, cuz im not. However, if i feel like eating chips, or a cookie, or whatever happens to pop in my mind, well then i eat it! Not like a huge portion of it, but just a bite or two to satisfy my craving. And this early in the the game its just a really bad habit that I am forming. I still eat healthy food for the most part, but im 13 weeks out and i eat fast food, carbs, and sweets! Its funny cuz as i am writing this i have to stop and pause, and i think, wow.. im insane.. i went and had this surgery and im actually sabotoging myself..WHO DOES THAT?!?!?!?!?!?! In my mind i think im justifying myself by saying well im goin to the gym enough to counter what im putting in my body, but the reality is... a year down the road when im at goal and i DONT have to go to the gym every day, what will i have just done to myself. Im not writing this to condone my actions or to even make and excuse for them.. I just think that i need to be honest with myself and those of you that take the time to read my blog each week. Yea im gettin results.. and to be honest even while writing this im still really happy with my weightloss, and my body, because yea even tho i eat bad things sometimes, i still work my butt off in order to keep losing the weight. Im having the worst inner turmoil right now.. and i just want be as good a role model as you all have expected out of me. Anyways, now that ive written an essay ill get to at least some of the good stuff... I went shopping the other day, and here is the awesome part... I bought 3 pairs of pants.. IN THE JUNIORS SECTION..size 13. I was soo excited!!! And to top off the great deals, i bought a medium shirt.. GO ME!!! and you know me.. no blog is complete without a picture.. this one i took just last night.

thank you guys! I know im gonna mess up.. lol.. hell thats a given, i just want to make sure im doin everything i can to better myself, for as long as this sleeve will let me. Cuz i know that as time goes by its gonna get harder to lose especially the closer i get to goal and I wanna get there and then some. I dont want to look back and go, damn i screwed myself over and if i would have just not done that i could be at goal by now.. no regrets...its what im aimin for! I work out diligently, hell probably more than i honestly need to but my goal is not just to hit a certain weight, but to maintain it.. and by god as my witness.. IM GETTING INTO A BIKINI!!! LOL

thank you for understanding and not reaming me a new one.. lol.. I will do better, in all reality, im sure im still gonna cheat every once in a while, but i will do my best to keep it to the bare minimum.. again thank you all for your support! and frumpy.. that is so funny we are really close in everything, and we share the same birthday.. lol small world. well good luck to you all as well on your journey!

SOMEONE PINCH ME CUZ I MUST BE DREAMIN!!!!! I just don't know how i lived as a fat kid for so long... I have energy like you wouldn't believe!!!!! I am at the gym every other day and the days that im not at the gym im running outside! My only day off is Sunday and i dont mind it one bit! I honestly thought that me being in ONEderland was a fluke, but nope its hear to stay.. as of this morning I am officially 195.6.... HECK TO THE FREAKING YEAH!!!!!!! Ok so that was my happy dance..lol. These past few weeks I have been on one hell of a ride. gaining, losing, pretend stalling, lol.. but i know no matter what is goin on that week that the weight will countinue to fall off because im workin hard to make that happen! Im not perfect. I eat things i probably shouldn't, i drink alcohol, and in all reality, i need to stop that. But the best part of all this is i know i screw up sometimes, but that i do my best to get back on track. Before I had the mind set oh i screwed up well i guess i will wallow in my guilt and keep messing up.. now i just go well hell it happens now let me fix it! I know i normally start with stats but i just wanted to get my piece in. so here are the stats 5'7" HW: 265 CW: 195.6 GW: 150 and of course this blog wouldn't be complete without pics..lol the first pic..i wore that dress back in 2008 when my best friend got married.. it fits again! the second pic-- i know you have seen the dress before but that was me on valentines day!