Mary WI

Add .com and it will work. How are you doing? Mary

I had the vs in July 2012. I weighed 268 when I started the whole process in the beginning. When I had surgery I was weighing 245 pounds. I now weigh 215 pounds and I am starting to gain because I am eating all the wrong things and I know I am doing it and I don't stop. I have always been a compulsive overeater who used food to deal with life. I am really struggling with the loss of food and who I am and where I am going. I need someone to make me accountable. I need a mentor who can understand where I am at and help me to move to a new place. I want to be healthy. I don't want to continue as I am but I am self sabotaging myself. Has anyone else struggled with this? This is the hardest thing I have every done with my life. I feel like a failure and I am so sick of feeling so full that I am sick. Does anyone have any ideas? Mary

Thank you all for responding. I am in counseling. Right now I am working on when I hear myself say I need to eat something It is only a thought. Just because it is a thought doesn't mean I need to act on it. I have lots of thoughts and I don't act on all of them, so I don't need to act on the thought to eat. I have a battle going on inside of me right now. Do I love myself enough to take care of me or do I keep hurting myself. I guess I am looking for someone I can talk to and say hey I want to eat. I have a lot of stress in my life right now and I have always ate my way through it before. I don't want to keep doing it. I want to change, I want to be healthy. I am just looking for support. My email is alslbltj4@yahoo if anyone is interested. Thanks alot for reading this. God Bless each and everyone of you!