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Thank you both for your responses. This is kind of what I mean though by people around me not being supportive. My BMI is 34.6. To be obese it needs to be 35 which is 4 lbs away...I am wanting to do the surgery to "fix" my problems before they become too bad to fix. I'm trying to be proactive. I do not want to wait until I have sleep apnea or diabetes. I am already on high BP meds and have high cholesterol. I go back and forth with the decision to go through with it or just wait. The thing that keeps making me want to have it is that fact that even if I wait 5, 10, 15 years SOMEDAY I will NEED it. I'm just trying to prevent that. I want to enjoy my youth and not let weight interrupt it any longer. I used to love playing volleyball and golf and singing, but I can't even do any of those now. I'm a hermit. I hate going out into public and having my picture taken. Being overweight has mentally crippled me. Isn't that reason enough?

My name is Ashley and I'm 21. I am 5'10" and weigh 240. I have been struggling with my weight since 3rd Grade. I've always been the odd one out. Not only with my weight, but being tall doesn't help to blend into the crowd. I have 2 sisters and 2 brothers and they are all thin. As well as all of my cousins. I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin and get emotional on a daily basis because I can't fit into anything and have absolutely no energy. I've been researching the sleeve since Christmas after finding out that my boyfriend's sister had GB and has lost 100 lbs! She's so much happier and I ask her for advice. My boyfriend is very supportive! The few people I have told aren't so supportive. My sisters and parents don't seem to have much to say and the 2 drs I've asked have advised me against it due to people they've known either have awful reflux or gaining the weight back. I'll admit I love food! It's kind of a given in the situation I'm in. I am constantly hungry! We'll be out and about and have just eaten and we'll leave the restaurant and I'll be like "I'm hungry". I know my boyfriend gets annoyed with my eating habits, but he has no idea how hard it is to go through being heavy. I've told him this and he wants to understand, but until you've gone through it there's really no way to explain the toll it takes on you, especially mentally. I'm about to start Radiology school and I want people to take me seriously, I want to feel good and confident. I had lost 35 lbs on a previous diet I did in 2009 and felt amazing! Then some family things happened and I went off the deep end...gaining over 60 lbs in less than 2 yrs! I'm so scared that I'll do this surgery and then it'll happen again! I'm afraid that I won't be able to enjoy the tastes and textures of the foods I love....especially pastas! I'm scared! Someone please give me some advice on whether or not to go through with this! I'm confident if the feeling of constant hunger subsided I'd be much more likely to succeed on a long term scale.