Marimaru

I would say it sounds to me like if he's had trouble losing weight and being banded is 'the most important thing' in your life, he may be worried that when you start getting healthy you may want to insist he get heathly and that his lifestyle might cause you problems. It's just a guess. Alot of sabotage comes from insecurity. You might consider just sitting down with him one night and bringing it up. My guy thought that when I lost weight I'd leave him and he doesn't have any weight issues. Good luck!

Unfortunately if you know you are eating too fast, then all there is to do is slow down. Alexandra has a really good idea. I know that most of the time that I PB it's because I eat too fast, or eat too big of a bite. Find a way to slow down, whatever it is. If you can't find a way to slow down, then go get a little unfill so that you aren't PBing so often.

The only type of hunger I fight if I eat right during the day is head hunger. It's a nasty thing!

It's all about water, Bandayed. If it's really humid some of us get tighter also. I don't know why some of us are tight and some of us are wide open, it's strange that way.

This kind of hits home for me. I just went through a few months of not really following the rules (and naturally wondering why the scale doesn't move). I got it back together when I noticed the scale start the creep up just a tad. Now it's creaping back down the up it went. I can't eat much at any given time, but I can pack alot in if I snack throughout the day, which is what I need to quit doing. To your question about whether the 'reasons' really matter, I will say that I believe the answer is yes. I believe that if you know why you did something, you can work on what made you do it, rather than on not doing it again (I hope that makes sense). I am going to tell you how the band works for ME, and hope that it helps you a bit. I am going to have to diet and make sure I don't snack, and probably count calories to lose all of my weight. "Then why get the band" someone may ask me; but the answer is simple, and worth every penny spent, and more : When I start snacking, and stop dieting and counting calories, I don't GAIN. Or I just gain a little bit before I slap myself and come back under some kind of control. That way, I can pick up pretty much where I left off. Sure, it's going to take longer than I wanted in the beginning, but I've learned alot about myself, and if this is how it's going to work, then that is how I'm going to work it. I think (based on the post above only) that the band may work the same way for you. Get a couple of fills to help you get full more quickly, and not be hungry so fast, but you'll also have to be careful about what you eat. THEN, when you do fall off the wagon, at least the band is there to not help you gain everything back before you start working at it again. I hope this helps a little. Even if the advice doesn't work for you, maybe it got the wheels turning and you'll think of something else

Are we all on the same cycle?? I've heard you can sync up with women that you hang with, but I didn't know it went through the cyber waves too! I'm super tight right now. Sheesh.

Carrie, don't forget that 1 to 2 lbs per week is supposed to be our goal weight loss rate. You are doing fantabulous!! I understand how you feel frustrated tho. I felt like that when I lost my first 25 lbs right away.

Along with NSV (non-scale-victory) goals, I have mini scale goals. My first goal was to reach 250 lbs, from 280. Then 230, then 210, etc. Just little milestones.

I would raise he** with that company, and if your HR person says anything at all, get very firm with him on the subject as well. What a crock. "Oh, I don't normally deal with you people, so, oh well".

Just because we might be jealous doesn't mean we begrudge you the ability to rabbit away

I decided I'm going to draw out christmas cards this year. Here's the first one (now I just need to buy toner...)

I know you aren't thrilled with the guy are the moment, but what about placing a call into Lopez, and having him call someone he knows in the states. Like a 'direct referral' not, "hey I know this guy, give him a call"? Maybe Dr. Billy knows someone in Nevada??

I'm glad you are going to get checked out so you can make a decision one way or another. Keep us posted!

Ooh, count me in! I'm in SouthBay

After I graduated from high school, my friends pretty much quit being around (they hadn't graduated yet, and I didn't move away, but it happened anyway). There were a few that I kept in contact with until I moved, and then those disolved too. After that, I never really got close to people at work, and didn't really have other ways to make friends. I went to a semi 'reunion' thing that my high school friends threw and when they were complaining about the SAME THINGS they were complaining about 5 YEARS ago, I ws immediately happy that those friendships had all but disolved. I talk to some of them sometimes and there's just so much drama around it that I've decided I'm quite happy without a gaggle of friends around me. As for your 'wild girl' side, bring it out yourself! My fiancee isn't for big crowds or dancing or much really that involves leaving his computer, which is usually fine for me, but sometimes I just have to get out of the house, and darnit, he's coming with me! My mom is my best friend, and I live close to her, so it's easier to still have a 'girls night' with her, or her and my sister(s), which isn't the same as the girls from highschool, but for me it's enough to fill the desire for that. I guess all I did just now was blurt out how I delt with it when it happened to me, but sometimes that can be helpful too. I know the itch of "I want to go out! I want to do something!" and I still get it, and I don't deny it, I just deal with it differently. Hope this helps, even a little.

I think that you look great. I think that those of us who are struggling need to remember where we've been, where we are now, and while we aren't where we want to be we are alot closer than we were.

My boss is my mom, her boyfriend thinks she's hot? I love the shirt you are wearing in that picture!

I'm gonna "do over" with you, k? I haven't lost anything since June. I go through periods where I try really really hard, and then I don't see results, so I just don't try at all. I've had so much crap to eat lately. I just bought some containers to eat my meals out of. The entire meal has to fit into the container. It's still probably too big (maybe 2 cups if it was all the way full to the brim), but if I can set some guidelines, I can tweak them later. Of course, my problem isn't what I eat at once. It's what I eat before/after my meals, but if I have structure; meal times, etc, I think that will help. Do over!

I would see if you can get the doctor on the phone. You might even just call and say you have some questions (not bring up your current history), and then bring this to his attention. Doctors often do NOT know that there are problems with their office staff. Regarding the $750, I imagine that with what's been going on, you can get out of that considering they haven't given you any service. It might take a little work, but I bet it could be done. Good luck!

I live close to my mom and her boyfriend and my younger sister, and I live with my fiancee (who I met online). Other than that, there's really no people I hang out with other than work folks (at work, not often after unless it's a work function). Then it's our 2 cats. I got my Azriel after a breakup when I was living alone. I was thinking about getting a pet when I got an email from a previous co-worker saying she'd found a kitten in a tree but couldn't keep it, would anyone like it. She got a bit prissy when Mike moved in, and even prissier when we got Fuzzbutt for him, but now that she knows they are both here to stay, she back to being my snuggle kitty. If I am downstairs, and she is upstairs, she'll meow demanding I come up and see her. I haven't made any effort to meet any more people friends. My youngest sister creates more than enough drama in my life

I feel my port quite often. A little pressure, just kind of lets me know it's there. I got used to it.

Penni, Thank you for sharing with us. I can't imagine the shock you felt when Dr. Billy told you that you'd eroded. I hope you recover quickly!

I'm in Gardena, which is near LAX. I've been thinking about getting a tiny fill recently and could probably be conviced to go see Dr. Kuri with you. I've been down there a few times to see him. I was also banded in Monterrey MX .

I clicked on this post 3 times before answering. So, that's 3 of your 500. I never thought seriously about suicide but there were certainly times where I thought it would be convenient if I didn't wake up, or I was in a fatal car crash or something. I hadn't given any thought to the idea that I was committing suicide by gaining more and more weight either. I mean yeah, I knew I was leading myself to a future death if I didn't do something about my wieght, but somehow that didn't spell suicide for me. Anyway, thanks everyone for sharing. It's interesting to see what other people have gone through.

Thanks for the update. I'm glad to hear she's doing well. Keep us posted!