Marimaru

Kids always made fun of me in school for various things. Being overweight, being poor, etc. Plenty of guys who yelled nasty things out of cars while driving by (talk about cowardice). Unfortunately, the one story that sticks out to me most was AFTER I'd had surgery and had already lost 50 lbs. I had traveled to the Golden Gate Fields horseracing track to do some training for software my company had built. The training was done in an area where customers had access to, and we were also helping customers while we trained. This guy comes up (who is evidently a 'regular'), and is yapping away with the people that work there that know him, and all of a sudden I hear "Hey, fat girl! Fat girl!!" and I can't help but look over at him. He says "You know why fat girls always hang out with skinny girls?? So they always know they get the leftovers when the skinny girl is done!" I couldn't even say anything. The things I wanted to say probably would have gotten me shipped back home. Especially since the guy was bigger than I was. I suddenly developed a very important phone call I had to go make and I went outside and cried. My boyfriend was there with me, also working, and he came out with me. He said if we weren't working he'd have had a few choice things to say as well. After I composed myself I went back in and the employees basically said he's an ass to everyone, and he probably doesn't have much of a life. This one bugs me too. It happened a few months ago. I had been to the dentist, and was waiting out side for my fiance (boyfriend from above) to pick me up. I was waiting outside and this car pulls up and these kids (2 of them, one not older than 7 and the other not older than 10) start yelling the most obscene things at me. "Hey you fat b****! F***ing fat b****!" and their guardian (mother??) gets out of the car and just says "Just ignore those stupids" and walks away while her children keep screaming at me. Being that half my face was numb, and I didn't want to sound like an idiot giving them further fuel, I didn't say anything, and I didn't look at them or acknowledge them. Their comments got worse and worse and finally their mother came out and got in the car and I couldn't help but say "You all need serious help." They left and I was in tears when my fiance pulled up. I wished I had thought to get the license plate number so I could report them to social services. No child who is allowed to say things like that in front of their parents is getting any kind of parenting at home. Frankly, it just makes me feel better to know that they are going to someday mouth off to the wrong person, and probably get what's coming to them.

Wow Barb. I hope you got some sleep after you posted this. If it were me, I think I would have to have a converstation with my employee about it. He needs to know that his wife is going to ruin his career, because how one's family acts certainly reflects on the person. I hope that today is better for you and that your phone doesn't ring tonight.

Nana, the difference between salad in coleslaw is that the coleslaw uses cabbage, which might be what's causing you trouble? I can eat hard boiled egg whites, but I can't eat egg salad, if I leave the yolks in. Scrambled eggs are iffy.

A couple of showers and it'll wash away. If it's really bugging you, use a cotton ball and some rubbing alcohol, but if you have bandages on, be careful not to get the alcohol on the bandages, because then they'll have trouble sticking.

Judy, 28 lbs is nearly 10 lbs a month, which is really terrific weight loss! You ARE losing like crazy! Congrats!

My doc said "nothing vigerous" for 2 weeks. I took that to include sex, and waiting that long. We took things slow, but everything was fine at that point.

Man, I thought it was hot down here in the upper 90's! Keep thee in the air conditioning!

I'm an Aries technically (March 25th), but I do see some Pisces in myself sometimes. How do you find out what your other signs are?

Maybe you need a slight unfill. If you can't eat a healthy meal, you are going to stay hungry and turn to crap that you can get down. If you can eat a piece of chicken or fish, you wont have room for that other stuff. Popcorn isn't too bad if it's not the movie butter kind, lol. Air popped popcorn with just a sprinkle of some seasonings isn't bad at all. So maybe get an unfill and see if you can eat some real food for a while?

I was told to wait 6 weeks before lifting anything. You probably pulled on the muscles your port is settled in, which also strained the stitches. You are probably fine, but you might consider taking it easy for an extra couple weeks.

You need to quit comparing your weight loss to anyone elses. Just because other people your age lost weight without exersizing doesn't mean your body will let you do the same thing (trust me, I went throught he same stage, and it sucks). You are maintaining right now, which is a hell of a lot better than gaining, and while I know it's not 'good enough' because you want to be losing weight, just ride it out for now until you can get into your place, and get a job and then manage your own food stuff, you know? Do your best to try and find a job with benefits, so that you can get your antidepressants back, and maybe see your therapist again. Also, (again when you have money) see a doctor about your metabolism. Have it checked, and your thyroid and all that good stuff. Crystal is right, if you are working the band, there has to be something else behind it. *hugs*

You can pretty much decide where you want to be. If you get to the lowest you want to be, just go in and get a little unfill and eat a little bit more.

I have not had a slipped band, but I know of lots of people who were not aware that they had slipped their band. There are people who find they can eat more, and go in for a fill and the flouro shows it has moved, or people who suddenly have too much restriction, and find the same thing. Had you eaten recently? I often times feel food move down past my band, could that have been it?

Thank you for letting us know! Let him know we are all cheering for him!

I get the hiccups usually when I've gone one bite too far. Not so far as to hit PB land, but just a little too far.

you could cut the isopure in half with water, or something?

My best mothod of journaling is online. I have another online journal that I type in, sometimes it's just ranting, sometimes I make the entries private and sometimes I don't. But I think I will use this one to journal about things that I think have to do with why I had a wieght problem in the first place, and why I haven't been losing very fast. I've been in therapy for about 2 months now, going once a week. The way Catherine works is very helpful to me. She doesn't actually say much at all. I start talking about whatever is on my mind, and she'll throw in a little question or a little insight to keep me going, or turn me in a different direction. SHE doesn't TELL me, that I have anger issues, or this or that, I come to those things myself. I first went to her, because I was having trouble dealing with things going on with my dad. Namely the idea that he did not go to my sister's wedding, and all of the things surrounding that. I've discovered that I really didn't feel like I had a father figure. I mean, a father is supposed to protect you, and my 'father' didn't pay the bills, and didn't take care of lots of things. When my mom left, I had to get my sisters to school, make sure they were okay after school, make sure that dad was going to be home before I could go play with my friends. I was babysitting from age 8 or 9. I've also discovered that I kind of feel like my mom abandoned me back then. We lived in Colorado, and she went to California for work. She worked at a place that was supposed to open a call center in Denver that she would then come back and run. During that time, my parents decided on divorce, and so my mom stayed in Cali. She called often, and visited when she could, and had us out to visit when she could, but none of that kept me from having to take care of my sisters. Then, when we'd go visit her, she'd get on me about 'parenting' them and I didn't even realize I was doing it. Everyone still calls me "mini mom" to this day. Yesterday, I realized that I was very angry with them about the whole thing. I mean, who might I have been if I hadn't been required to turn into the 'mini mom' that had to take care of and protect her sisters? Would I have turned to food for control? Would I have had more fun with my friends? Would I have been more confident? Would I have done drugs? Would I have actually rebelled against my parents? Would I have done better in school? Had more friends? I can't help but think that I'd be a more 'well rounded' person. And I can't help but feel like feeling this way is stupid, since I'll never know the answers to any of those questions. Catherine told me that I should give it some thought, and kind of grieve it. My mom always tells people not to hold onto things. If someone brings up something from the past, she says "Well, you are just going to have to get over that". I think since I wasn't 'allowed' to hold onto things, and I was never taught how to actually deal with them, I just stuffed them all down so that I wasn't bringing them up, but, I also wasn't doing anything about them. So now I have like 18 years worth of stuff to deal with. And that makes me mad too. So I guess I am journaling this here, because I believe that I have a mental block about losing more weight. I am 5 lbs from being halfway to goal, and I am 15 lbs from onederland. I think that scares me. I think it scares me because if I do well, people want better, and if I do better, people want even more than that. :think

I actually had a small unfill a while back because I was so stressed and that wasn't going to be letting up any time soon, and I was SO tight at the time.

I think it sounds like a dog would be great for you. My sister and her husband got a pug puppy, and they crate her during the day. She didn't particularly like to be crated, but they would say "April, we're leaving, come on" and the puppy would slowly move toward the crate and go in. You would less hours during the day than alot of people I know who have dogs.

What Donna calls a "shadow headache" we call in my family "migraine aura". It does sound to me like you have a migraine. I don't get them often, but my first one I was 9 or 10. My mom didn't believe I had a headache as bad as I said until I threw up, lol. Then she apologized profusely, because she gets migraines. If I take excedrine migraine early out, it can get rid of it. Other than that, darkness, quiet, and being still is also what works for me. I try and sleep them off. I have never had one last for days and days, but my mom sure does. She had an ongoing perscription for the imitrex injections for a number of years. I do think you should see your doctor though. Even if it's "only" a migraine, it's a good practice to go check out anything that 'isn't normal'. Feel better! PS: Maybe you should quit staring at the computer screen.

Those bars sound really good... and really evil... ugh. You know those skinny little marketing people sit up there and say "What things can we put together that will make people melt into our hands and buy our products? Oh! Ice cream and cookie dough! And we'll smother it in chocolate!!"

Nykee, I wonder about you too . Have you considered beef jerky? Even when I am tight, I can nibble nibble nibble on this stuff, and it's got tons of protien, and is 90 calories per serving. I still haven't found a really good thing to replace chips, but baked is a good start, lol. Good luck!

I'm 2 years out and I have not had any issues. I had one small unfill, and I'd had my fill for like 8 months, and just suddenly got tighter. I believe it was stress.

It's so interesting that we can all do so many different things. I have had calamari on a number of occassions without issues. Fortunately, it's usually at dinner time, and I know how the day has gone, so I know whether or not I should even bother trying it, lol. So you've seen the nutrition in what you posted. Chances are that you could not eat a whole breakfast sandwich if you were at your 'sweetspot' but even still, you will need to concentrate a bit more on protien. But, in theory, to your original question, my answer would be "yes, for a while".

Well, I've had "Yabos" (thank you Disney, for that gem, and for giving more fuel so my sisters and my mother, lol), since I was in the 5th grade. I think that my 'yabo slings' could be a good long distance catapult or something. I actually like the size of my breasts, but when I get to goal, these suckers are getting a LIFT!!