Shanny

You look awesome!!!! Keep up the good work! I'm so proud of you!

One of my friends told me that she has to start working out because I can't "beat" her. I'm only 4 pounds more than she is. Um, I didn't know we were competing!

Today I acted like a food junkie - not an addict, a freakin' junkie. So, I've been a little down the last few days, and on top of it, I've been craving carbs. Today, I finally gave in and decided to buy some the $.99 bag of Sun chips from the school store. Only, I didn't want to eat the chips because of the calories. So, I chewed them up and then spit them out in a napkin. I did that for 1/2 the bag, then I threw the rest away. I know it's completely gross, but the truth is I feel satied. I'm not full because I didn't swallow it and my chewing and salty/carb craving has passed. The problem is that's a junkie move. Man I wish there was some ultra rapid detox for food additction!

I guess it's true, haters will hate. That's their job. At first it was a shock, now there's no shock to it, they just feel the need to be rude, bossy, intrusive and all up in my business. I mind my buisness. I do my job, and work out at lunch. I've invited plenty of people to work out with me in the weight room, no one does. But everyone wants to tell me that I'm doing too much or I should do this or that. They're not down there with me, they have no idea what I'm doing. Everyone's a trainer now. I just wish that people thought before they spoke. If you have to say something say I look nice today and keep it moving. There's no need to be all up in my relationship, bedroom, and pants size - yes, I had someone ask me what my pants size was now I said 14, and she said "really, because you look bigger than that. I mean you're not as big as you were before, I would have guessed you were at least an 18 now." The nerve of people!

Thanks everyone. My therapist said that it's not that big of a deal but I need to cut myself some slack. I can have a snack every now and again. I'm 3 months post op and I think I know what I'm supposed to do and I don't have to be so strict. I've found a substitution for my sweet tooth - that dessert flavored sugar free gum does the trick. But for the salt, I just want Sun chips. The problem is I want to eat ALL the Sunchips. It's better if I don't have any. But, I made a deal with a woman I work with. If I get a bag of Sunchips, I'll take a few out and give the bag to her to hold for me for the next day. I don't deal well with temptation and usually I end up making myself sick trying to eat things that I can't digest (for example the other day my son had Popeyes chicken. I don't even like Popeyes but I couldn't have any. Well the next day I tried to eat a wing. I got so sick. I can't eat fried/greasy or spicy food. I foamed, threw up and felt like crap for an hour). It's better for me if the temptation isn't there at all. So, I'll give the bag to her and she'll keep it until the next day or whenever I need a fix. Sounds doable to me. I don't like the fact that I'm now having cravings 3 months out. For the 6 months preop and for the 3 months post op I was really good, no cheating, no acting like a junkie. I guess I'm afraid to undo all the progress I've made. Or maybe it was the depression (I had a horrible week). Either way, I'm going to try to make sure that I do what I'm supposed to and if I want a snack, a little one won't hurt me!

Thanks. I went to my therapist today and we talked about it. I don't plan on doing that again!

SN...............Starting Wt..........Current..............Goal...........lbs to goal Shanny............191...................178.6..................165............13.4

So, I'm super excited about having lost close to 70 pounds, but I've noticed that the more weight I lose the more disproportionate I'm becoming. When I work out, I usually work out my core, and legs however it seems that I lose the most weight in my upper body. Right now I'm a 8/10 in shirts, but a 14/16 in pants. Weird huh? Has that happened to anyone else? Am I just destined to be bottom heavy? Any workout suggestions?

I had egg foo yung. I know not the smartest choice, but man I had been craving it. I figured it was just like an omlete, plus it had gravy which was still liquid. I could only eat about 3 bites of it, and I haven't wanted it again for 3 months. Those were the best 3 bites I've ever tasted!

According to my doctor during the first 6-12 months, while losing weight is still really easy, you want to ingest a little bit of calories, and burn as many as you can. That's the same problem I had. Once your body gets to the stable point and you remain at your weight then it'll taper off and to maintain the desired weight.

Not a bad Wednesday afterall! Goodbye 180s! SN.............Starting wt........Current WT..................Goal.............Lbs to Goal Shanny............191.................179.8.........................165.....................14.8

Not a bad thing at all! As long as you feel sexy, do you!!!! We've all got to do what makes us feel our best. God knows we spent too many years feeling like crap. We deserve this!

I had a pretty crappy day today. My shirt had a stain on it, so I had to change what I was going to wear to work. The pants that I had on last week fit last week, this week they are too big. I figured they would still do. I get to work and someone tells me that I need smaller pants because they look like "granny drawers". Wow. So, I started feeling like I don't know how to shop or put together outfits anymore. I'm still trying to pull my shirts down because I'm used to be being longer (plus sized clothes are way longer than non-plus sized ones). Just gotta used to that I guess. The last time I was a size 14 I was like 16 years old. I'm 35 now, so I need to figure out how to be a 35 sexy and still feel comfortable. Plus, all I wanted today was a troth of French Fries. But, I didn't do it. Instead I went to aerobics. That crap about exercising making you feel better is a lie. I still was having a crappy and found myself not working as hard because I just couldn't get into it. Ended up buying some cute stuff at Walmart (in a size 14 and 12) and I feel pretty comformable. I noticed my shape was changing again, so I decided to measure myself. Here are my new measurements! Neck: was 16 now 14.5 Waist: was 42.3 now 39 Hips: 44.5 now 42.5 So, what started out as a craptastic day has ended on a brighter note. I'm very proud of the progress I've made, and I guess until I finish this transition I won't find my "style". That's okay, I can wait! Be easy!

The only one I liked was the Twisted Cherry and that's only when I added Calypso Black Cherry Lemonade to it. I don't really care for fruit flavored protein drinks I don't think. They taste too thick, or milky or something. It's just something off about it. But, it was a nice break from the choclate ones I was drinking every day.

Hey. I'm getting tired of my chocolate flavored Protein and I'm looking for something different. Just wondered if anyone ever tried the nectar brand before. If so, is it any good. Is it like that Isopure crap? If you have any experience with it, please let me know.

http://www.si03.com/reg_index.htm You have to call them to get the sample packets shipment.

I can also tell you that I exercise 5 days a week, so I don't have a lot of sagging skin. My stomach still hangs over and my arms are still flabby, but I don't look like those wrinkly dogs either. Right now it's still all in check. I think as long as you exercise it you have a shot of not sagging.

Most people think I look younger. It's been said that I'm no older than 25. Ha! I'm 35!!!