I am scheduled for surgery on 2.11.11 and I am starting to freak out. I am excited and scared all in one. I can't sleep throughout the night. I feel like a little kid at Christmas time (happy) or like someone that is worried about a pink slip (scared). I know that what I am doing is the right thing for me and my family. I know that as the weight comes off I will feel better about doing things with my son. I am excited about getting out to do things him. I won't feel ashamed to play and run around with him. My improved health will give me a new lease on life and better mom for my son.
I am headed to TJ by myself for my surgery. Most of my friends and family think that I will be out of town on a business trip. Little do they know I am going on a trip that will change the rest of my life.