Krystal

I would love to join the challenge!!!! Post it for us please!!! Some people are just readers and not posters so some may want it and not ask for it. Please please post for all to see!!!! Ill do it with you!

Thats an AWESOME idea!!!! I would be on that thread everyday...it's kind of what i already started on my own with my first thread...it would be great to have a sticky thjread dedicated just to that. Let me know what happens!!!

Thanks Tami---- I did not notice that you were talking about me!!! Thanks for spreading the word. I am pushing every day to make a difference in my life and others.

LISTEN.....IM IN YOUR BOAT...!!!!!! I STARTED A POST ON THIS LAST WEEK AND IT HAS HELPED ME AND MANY OTHERS.....COME JOURNAL THERE......IT'S CALLED "READ THIS B4 BEING BANDED" HERE IS THE STARTER POST.....THIS IS MY STORY....JUST KNOW YOUR NOT ALONE....lEAVE ME YOUR NAME AND NUMBER IF YOU WANT AND ILL CALL AND MOTIVATE YOU! It's been two years and i have lost maybe 10lbs total. Why? People ask....I WILL TELL YOU HOW IT HAPPENED FOR ME.... The moral of the story is not to tell you NOT to get the band...but to tell you that this is no FIX and don't expect overnight weight loss....YOU HAVE TO PUT EFFORT into it. This is important....people like me assumed the BAND would fix everything and the motivation would just fall into place...this is soooo untrue..... I had always been big...all through school..always size 16+....senior year 2001 i was a good size 22....2003 i was a size 24 and by 2005 i was a size 32......I was always made fun of.....i gained almost 100 pounds in 3 years from being on the depo shot(birth control)so i got off of that...... and then getting pregnant. By 2005 I was at my worst. I walked into the Dr's office thinking I was only 360 back in April of 2005. When I got on the scale it read 380...I almost died. I cried in his office because I was so ashamed. Ashamed over 20lbs!!!! I had researched the band and felt because I had a daughter it would be the safest surgery for me. I am only 24 and was 22 at the time. I thought this was going to be the FIX.....the thing to change my life. I thought that there was no way anyone or anything could stop me from losing weight after I had surgery. I went through all the tests....and got all the required medical paperwork and convinced some family members to pitch in for my surgery. I set the date and started my pre-op diet! From that point on I should have known I was going to be a mess. I was supposed to be on a liquid diet for 2 weeks because my liver needed to shrink for surgery. So i ate everything they told me to for the first 3 days and BAM....the feeling set in.....I WANTED AN ULTIMATE CHEESEBURGER FROM JACK N THE BOX AND I WANTED IT NOW! I couldn't get it off my mind....i was thinking about it allllllll day.....i went to bed thinking about it...and the next morning i went and got one. I figured...what could ONE double cheese burger with double cheese and mayo possibly do......well...it did nothing to the surgery process but it really broke the frame of mind. Before the 2 weeks was up i had eatin 2 not one but TWO ultimate cheeseburgers and a few chicken nuggets. Why? Why couldn't I just do the PRE SURGERY diet? June 8th 2005------So surgery day came....and went.....all went well no complications.....i was on soft food in the beginning and I started to eat eggs for Breakfast....but my eggs HAD to have cheese and butter in them....HELLO!!! What was I thinking.....I remember getting my first fill and at this point I had almost lost 40lbs. 20pre-op and 20 post-op. It was amazing....... About 3 months out(2 months after my 1st fill) I started to become familiar with my band and how much I could and could not eat. I realized that when i would eat too much, i drank a little bit, and it would make the food pass and then i would feel sooooo much better. I never exercised...keep in mind...(maybe got into the pool like 10 times the whole summer) and i was preparing for my wedding which was September 17th 2005. I was so stressed because my weightloss had pretty much STOPPED......I was craving foods like never before and started to eat and drink at the same time...BIG MISTAKE......i was eating at least double what I should have. So I went and had ANOTHER fill. This slowed me down...but still I was not losing ANY weight. I remember eating my first fried chicken after my fill and like trying to manipulate my band into letting me eat more by taking one bite and then drinking....it was the worst thing in the world i could have EVER done. A year after my band was put in I was only 20lbs total lost (which means i gained 20 back) and I was so angry...I promised myself I was going to try and fix things and make it better....So much had happened that year....2006....we bought a house, my husbands dad died of cancer, my husband was leaving for weeks at a time for work...and i was home ALONE with my daughter. I had no energy to keep the house clean(and i still dont) but i would sit and mope.....and EAT.....I would make excuses to people who asked me WHY i hadn't lost any weight. I told them all that it was a slow process and that i had lost 40 pounds(lied to them). This year, Jan 2007...I was just sitting at dinner with my husband and looked down and noticed i had a 12oz strip steak, baked potato loaded....and mashed potatos loaded on my plate. I ate all of it. my band was NOT going to stop me. I also ate bread before that.......and drank sweat tea.... in Feb07 I was online playing around and saw an ad for a weightloss show. Primetime...suppose to be JUST like the Biggest Loser....I thought...hmmmm I'll just fill out the app for shits and giggles.....well they responded and wanted me to send them a tape....so i did. Then in march they had me get my band completely UNFILLED and then flew me out to LA and put me through med tests and interviews,THEY BOUGHT ME 2 PLANE SEATS because i was too big to fit in the plane chairs on my own....pretty sad huh,(cant say much more because they made me sign all kinds of disclosures) They told me it was a show that will be on ABC and told me i would be away from my family for 10 weeks. I thought....this is the chance i have been waiting for. They made me think i was going....for weeks after the interview I was getting called and asked follow up questions and told i was in the top 4....then on March 31 i was called and told the network did not choose me. I was DEVISTATED.............like someone should have just shot me right there. I was so upset...i cried the whole way home(we were out to eat of course) and my husband looked at me and said...why dont you just do it on your own? Ummmmm DUH right...? So about a week went by and I had done a real examination of what i have done wrong and how i have basically cheated myself out of my life! On Easter i saw my family and noticed how no one said i looked good anymore...that's because i didnt.....i looked worse...heavy as can be....and that night i sent an email to my family and decide that enough is enough. Im exercising daily...NO EXCUSES...i posted before/after pictures on my walls in my house of other people who have had the band. I put sayings all over the house saying "whats ur excuse now" and i told my husband that enough is enough. So we decided to start our weightloss exercise on the 9th.....on the 10th I went and had my band RE-filled and since the 10th I have lost 10lbs......unbelievable huh!!! So hopefully all this will inspire SOMEONE before it happens to them. Let my "GAIN" be your "LOSS". Good luck everyone! Krystal

Not bad....sounds yummy..... IMMA BE A GOOD COOK BY THE TIME I LOSE ALL MY WEIGHT I NEED TO LOSE!!!!:clap2: :hungry:

Yes I love chili....but i always have heard chili was really bad for you. Im trying to figure out what im going to eat today........maybe ill consider making this chili....mmmmmmmm

OK WHAT HAPPENED TO THE JOURNALS ON LBT? WTH? So i got no warning of this and I would have liked to get all my journals and copy them to a different site.......they are gone....are they comming back...anyone know why they got rid of them?

Today I got up and decided I was going to have some eggs.....with my FAT FREE butter and a little shredded cheese. Was feeling great......then my sister wooped my butt into shape. She introduced me to some "circuit training" as she called it. 10 minutes of walking.....followed by some weight exercises....followed by 10 minutes of walking......more weight exercises....and then finally 10 more minutes of walking.....(and then cool down exercises) I never realized how much this breaks up the work out. It really make all of it go faster(in a weird way)....instead doing 3 different sets of reps all together you can take breaks by walking....and getting the heart rate up and down like that is good....(or so i been told) So we made PULLED PORK today.....did it in a slow cooker...mmmmmm....NOT.... Didnt care for it much....for some reason i felt guilty eating it....it wasnt BAD for me.....but it just seemed not right....besides....I like chicken and beef better. My theme for todays journal is GETS HARDER BY THE MINUTE.....why? Every freaking minute i do on that treadmill is sooooo hard for me. I didnt realize how bad I really am until i started trying to do a steady 30 minutes on the treadmill each day.....it's like my body says i need it but my legs cant keep up. It is what has in the past made me quit......but not anymore... Im pushing myself as much as i can. Im trying to at least do 30minutes a day...... NO MORE EXCUSES.... Today I parked in the back of the parking lot on purpose.....that was a change... I bought new shoes today as well.....new balance......my $20 walmart shoes were not cutting it on the treadmill. (soon i shouldnt need wide width anymore) My journals are very random....not always grammatically correct or spell checked....but i try to mention important ports of my day. OK...Next subject....... COOKBOOKS I went to Target today as well as walmart. I know these places are not the best sources for cookbooks but i am sooooooo frustruated with the selections i find anywhere. I am a really picky eater. I like really simple meals. I dont like all the BS on my food and basically if there was a good way to describe my pickyness it would be like a 5yr old with a dab of adult every once in awhile. Please tell me Im not the only one here... I try and force myself to eat better foods and different foods...but i was raised on junk... Example of whats in my kitchen (BEFORE BAND) Ravioli (toasted and baked) pizza Chicken Nuggets (these will never make it out of my fridge) Spaghetti Meatballs Mac & Cheese Ramen Noodles Burgers (pre-cooked for microwave) Cheese (just about every kind) Mayo (miricle whip light) Hot Dogs This is just a sample.....and now ive replaced alot with the following: Yogart Tuna Fat Free Butter Skim Milk Grapes Apples Turkey Chicken breasts pork chops BAKED Lay's grean Beans peas potatoes Heres my point.....i need more ideas geared toward the picky eater. I will try things that are not so complex.....really simple meals...like easy quick to make things.....that shake N BAKE I made the other night is a good exaple....very simple and 20 min to make. Easy. Simple. Tastes good. Doesnt have a lot of junk on it. Every cookbook I open up has some weird dish made with all kinds of what i call "nasty" food. HELP!!!! Ok im going to bed :notagree ...enough of my rants and raves...thanks to anyone who had enough patiance to read my post. Im pushing forward........keep it up guys!!!

:clap2: OMG WHERE HAS SHAKE N BAKE BEEN ALL MY LIFE!!!!!! I just had chicken with extra crispy shake n bake for dinner..........do i need to repeat again.... OMG I was so missing out....i could eat this stuff all the time....HELLLLLLOOOOO where was i when this stuff hit the market..... Im soooooooo on target now! It has low cals....low fat, low carbs.....OMG:clap2: :hungry: :clap2: :hungry: :clap2: :hungry: :clap2:

I was self pay too. Every surgeon is different. My surgeon said he would not charge any DOCTOR fees if there is a problem, BUT I would have to pay the Hospital Fees because the hospital would not let me stay for free. Definately ask ur Dr. Theres never a promise unless its in writing.....

So today my sister came in from Kansas City so she could teach me some things about cooking. We took my daughter to the park with our puppy and tried to do some walking. I didnt get very far because the puppy pooped out before I did. I realized quickly that all the mothers up at the park gave me really bad looks. I was trying to walk fast and I ended up getting all red faced and sweaty...HOW EMBARRASSING.....I would walk in circles around the playground keeping my eye on my daughter......and i literally saw a mom whisper to one of her friends and her friend looked up right at me.....WTF!!!! Im walking aren't I!!?!?!?! So after the Park we came back to the house and dug ourselves into a massive collection of cookbooks my sister brought along. O-M-G IM SUCH A PICKY EATER!!!!! So my sister and I came up with some dinner ideas and good snacks that I could eat to keep on PLAN! She wrote me a list of items to get from the grocery store and sent me by myself to the store. I went in....looking stupid as can be (b/c this time i was not going straight to the freezer section) and started looking for the random items.....chicken (boneless & skinless) who knew? Also....some TUNA and make sure its IN WATER......i grabbed some in oil on accident.....didnt think there was much difference...OOPS.... Items on my list included: Bread (i did white...i cant stand wheat) Cereal (high fiber) I ended up with Total and Special K Bananas Yogart Apples FAT FREE Sour Cream (yuck.....but we all have to make sacrifices) Skim Milk (for my cereal & protein shake) Salad (not for me!!! I HATE SALAD.....it was for my hubby) Boneless/Skinless Chicken (I got breasts and thighs) Green Beans Beef Broth Pork Shoulder Roast (pulled pork) Veg oil Lemon Pepper Eggs OK GET THIS.......they have a I CANT BELIEVE ITS NOT BUTTER.......drumroll please......FAT FREE Turkey (lunch meat) Potatoes....(scalloped) Shake N Bake (these are amazingly ok to eat...not bad on cals or carbs) So i had a pretty big list. I was pretty frustruated.....picking which kind out and what to get is so hard. They don't teach that in school. We are having shake n bake chicken breast and thighs....and scalloped potatoes for dinner....NO BREAD ROLLS.....I think I will have milk tonight......i need something other than WATER So hopefully I get back on my walking on the treadmill tomorrow... OH OH OH OH.....AND I FORGOT TO SAY..... When I got up this morning and put on my pair of capris the were LOOSE!!!! These are button up and have been tight for the past year. They are the kind that have to stretch a bit because they are so tight and they actually hurt my waste because they are so tight.... WELL NOT TODAY!!!!!!! IM ANXIOUS TO SEE THE WEIGHTLOSS ON MAY 8TH..... OK OVEN IS BEEPING......TATA FOR NOW :hungry:

So today my sister came in from Kansas City so she could teach me some things about cooking. We took my daughter to the park with our puppy and tried to do some walking. I didnt get very far because the puppy pooped out before I did. I realized quickly that all the mothers up at the park gave me really bad looks. I was trying to walk fast and I ended up getting all red faced and sweaty...HOW EMBARRASSING.....I would walk in circles around the playground keeping my eye on my daughter......and i literally saw a mom whisper to one of her friends and her friend looked up right at me.....WTF!!!! Im walking aren't I!!?!?!?! So after the Park we came back to the house and dug ourselves into a massive collection of cookbooks my sister brought along. O-M-G IM SUCH A PICKY EATER!!!!! So my sister and I came up with some dinner ideas and good snacks that I could eat to keep on PLAN! She wrote me a list of items to get from the grocery store and sent me by myself to the store. I went in....looking stupid as can be (b/c this time i was not going straight to the freezer section) and started looking for the random items.....chicken (boneless & skinless) who knew? Also....some TUNA and make sure its IN WATER......i grabbed some in oil on accident.....didnt think there was much difference...OOPS.... Items on my list included: Bread (i did white...i cant stand wheat) Cereal (high fiber) I ended up with Total and Special K Bananas Yogart Apples FAT FREE Sour Cream (yuck.....but we all have to make sacrifices) Skim Milk (for my cereal & protein shake) Salad (not for me!!! I HATE SALAD.....it was for my hubby) Boneless/Skinless Chicken (I got breasts and thighs) Green Beans Beef Broth Pork Shoulder Roast (pulled pork) Veg oil Lemon Pepper Eggs OK GET THIS.......they have a I CANT BELIEVE ITS NOT BUTTER.......drumroll please......FAT FREE Turkey (lunch meat) Potatoes....(scalloped) Shake N Bake (these are amazingly ok to eat...not bad on cals or carbs) So i had a pretty big list. I was pretty frustruated.....picking which kind out and what to get is so hard. They don't teach that in school. We are having shake n bake chicken breast and thighs....and scalloped potatoes for dinner....NO BREAD ROLLS.....I think I will have milk tonight......i need something other than WATER So hopefully I get back on my walking on the treadmill tomorrow... OH OH OH OH.....AND I FORGOT TO SAY..... When I got up this morning and put on my pair of capris the were LOOSE!!!! These are button up and have been tight for the past year. They are the kind that have to stretch a bit because they are so tight and they actually hurt my waste because they are so tight.... WELL NOT TODAY!!!!!!! IM ANXIOUS TO SEE THE WEIGHTLOSS ON MAY 8TH..... OK OVEN IS BEEPING......TATA FOR NOW :hungry:

So today my sister came in from Kansas City so she could teach me some things about cooking. We took my daughter to the park with our puppy and tried to do some walking. I didnt get very far because the puppy pooped out before I did. I realized quickly that all the mothers up at the park gave me really bad looks. I was trying to walk fast and I ended up getting all red faced and sweaty...HOW EMBARRASSING.....I would walk in circles around the playground keeping my eye on my daughter......and i literally saw a mom whisper to one of her friends and her friend looked up right at me.....WTF!!!! Im walking aren't I!!?!?!?! So after the Park we came back to the house and dug ourselves into a massive collection of cookbooks my sister brought along. O-M-G IM SUCH A PICKY EATER!!!!! So my sister and I came up with some dinner ideas and good snacks that I could eat to keep on PLAN! She wrote me a list of items to get from the grocery store and sent me by myself to the store. I went in....looking stupid as can be (b/c this time i was not going straight to the freezer section) and started looking for the random items.....chicken (boneless & skinless) who knew? Also....some TUNA and make sure its IN WATER......i grabbed some in oil on accident.....didnt think there was much difference...OOPS.... Items on my list included: Bread (i did white...i cant stand wheat) Cereal (high fiber) I ended up with Total and Special K Bananas Yogart Apples FAT FREE Sour Cream (yuck.....but we all have to make sacrifices) Skim Milk (for my cereal & protein shake) Salad (not for me!!! I HATE SALAD.....it was for my hubby) Boneless/Skinless Chicken (I got breasts and thighs) Green Beans Beef Broth Pork Shoulder Roast (pulled pork) Veg oil Lemon Pepper Eggs OK GET THIS.......they have a I CANT BELIEVE ITS NOT BUTTER.......drumroll please......FAT FREE Turkey (lunch meat) Potatoes....(scalloped) Shake N Bake (these are amazingly ok to eat...not bad on cals or carbs) So i had a pretty big list. I was pretty frustruated.....picking which kind out and what to get is so hard. They don't teach that in school. We are having shake n bake chicken breast and thighs....and scalloped potatoes for dinner....NO BREAD ROLLS.....I think I will have milk tonight......i need something other than WATER So hopefully I get back on my walking on the treadmill tomorrow... OH OH OH OH.....AND I FORGOT TO SAY..... When I got up this morning and put on my pair of capris the were LOOSE!!!! These are button up and have been tight for the past year. They are the kind that have to stretch a bit because they are so tight and they actually hurt my waste because they are so tight.... WELL NOT TODAY!!!!!!! IM ANXIOUS TO SEE THE WEIGHTLOSS ON MAY 8TH..... OK OVEN IS BEEPING......TATA FOR NOW :hungry:

So I didnt eat ALL that great yesterday.......i didnt do too bad...but i still didnt do that great. :think Today I started off good but I had alot going on. I ended up doing alot around the house and also some homework for school. When I went down in the den to walk I was not wanting to walk at all.....I got on, set the timer for 30 min and started walking......then my legs were burning and i was ready to stop after 5 minutes!!! WHAT HAPPENED? I had no umpff to walk....i pushed myself to get to 15min .52 miles. so only a half mile today....better than nothing i suppose. I dont know what happened or why im so tired. I think it is because I didnt do it this morning. By mid day i was already tired.....so maybe ill try and do 15 more minutes tonight when i get home. ugh:angry I hope it isnt a struggle everyday like this...i was doing so good last week. Dear God Please give me the strength to move on and push forward. Give me the will to do good for my body and cherish what i have done so far......and PLEASE God keep me away from that stupid candy my daughter got for Easter! A-MEN

I DO HAVE MY JOURNAL......SO I WILL BE BLOGGING THROUGH THAT. FEEL FREE TO KEEP UP WITH IT DAILY!!! THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR APPRECIATION OF MY STORY.

So I didnt eat ALL that great yesterday.......i didnt do too bad...but i still didnt do that great. Today I started off good but I had alot going on. I ended up doing alot around the house and also some homework for school. When I went down in the den to walk I was not wanting to walk at all.....I got on, set the timer for 30 min and started walking......then my legs were burning and i was ready to stop after 5 minutes!!! WHAT HAPPENED? I had no umpff to walk....i pushed myself to get to 15min .52 miles. so only a half mile today....better than nothing i suppose. I dont know what happened or why im so tired. I think it is because I didnt do it this morning. By mid day i was already tired.....so maybe ill try and do 15 more minutes tonight when i get home. ugh I hope it isnt a struggle everyday like this...i was doing so good last week. Dear God Please give me the strength to move on and push forward. Give me the will to do good for my body and cherish what i have done so far......and PLEASE God keep me away from that stupid candy my daughter got for Easter! A-MEN

So I didnt eat ALL that great yesterday.......i didnt do too bad...but i still didnt do that great. :think Today I started off good but I had alot going on. I ended up doing alot around the house and also some homework for school. When I went down in the den to walk I was not wanting to walk at all.....I got on, set the timer for 30 min and started walking......then my legs were burning and i was ready to stop after 5 minutes!!! WHAT HAPPENED? I had no umpff to walk....i pushed myself to get to 15min .52 miles. so only a half mile today....better than nothing i suppose. I dont know what happened or why im so tired. I think it is because I didnt do it this morning. By mid day i was already tired.....so maybe ill try and do 15 more minutes tonight when i get home. ugh:angry I hope it isnt a struggle everyday like this...i was doing so good last week. Dear God Please give me the strength to move on and push forward. Give me the will to do good for my body and cherish what i have done so far......and PLEASE God keep me away from that stupid candy my daughter got for Easter! A-MEN

<p><p>I think it is amazing how so many people have sent me private messages to tell me they are going through the same thing. </p> <p> </p> <p>Why are we scared to be judged? I know I was. It's hard to except failure once again.....but lets except it and MOVE ON......</p> <p> </p> <p>BOND WITH ME!!!! If you want me to call and check on you I will!!! Leave me your name and number....Ill make calls daily if you want me to!!!!</p> <p> </p> <p>LET'S DO THIS TOGETHER NOT ALONE!!!</p></p>

Congrats!!! I started at 380...please please please go read my journal... I thought I could only do water exercise too....trust me....unless u plan on swimming daily you will need to condition your body and start loving to walk...i hate it!! Im 360 right now.....and ive been banded for 2 years....go read my journal....let me know if you have ANY questions!!!

Whew! That was rough!! I just did 30 minutes on the treadmill.......jeeze...the last 10 minutes are the worst. Takes everything in me to keep going. I tried not even looking at the timer but when i did glance at it i was like...OMG i have like 7 more minutes....it lingered........whew I made it thought.....before in the past i would have said there was no way.....or i would have stopped at 15 minutes.......i want to at the very least be able to hit my 30 minute or 1 mile mark which ever comes first. walking 2mph is actually pretty steady and breaks me into a sweat....but in the beginning i try to do 2.4mph and then slowly reduce it down. My goal when i am down 75 or more lbs is 3-4mph. My hubby can run 4mph and has no problem. I would probably croke if i even tried that. Hopefully im conditioning my heart and at the very least making myself healthier! Lets see iF i can walk tonight.......I might just take a break tonight.....but who knows....im gonna jump in the shower and see what energy that treadmill just brought me. Who else has worked out today? Are you all in this with me.....post your exercise routine for today!!!!!

Whew! That was rough!! I just did 30 minutes on the treadmill.......jeeze...the last 10 minutes are the worst. Takes everything in me to keep going. I tried not even looking at the timer but when i did glance at it i was like...OMG i have like 7 more minutes....it lingered........whew I made it though.....before in the past i would have said there was no way.....or i would have stopped at 15 minutes.......i want to at the very least be able to hit my 30 minute or 1 mile mark which ever comes first. walking 2mph is actually pretty steady and breaks me into a sweat....but in the beginning i try to do 2.4mph and then slowly reduce it down. My goal when i am down 75 or more lbs is 3-4mph. My hubby can run 4mph and has no problem. I would probably croke if i even tried that. Hopefully im conditioning my heart and at the very least making myself healthier! Lets see iF i can walk tonight.......I might just take a break tonight.....but who knows....im gonna jump in the shower and see what energy that treadmill just brought me. Who else has worked out today? Are you all in this with me?!?!.....post your exercise routine for today!!!!! Remember there is no excuses allowed!!!!

Whew! That was rough!! I just did 30 minutes on the treadmill.......jeeze...the last 10 minutes are the worst. Takes everything in me to keep going. I tried not even looking at the timer but when i did glance at it i was like...OMG i have like 7 more minutes....it lingered........whew I made it thought.....before in the past i would have said there was no way.....or i would have stopped at 15 minutes.......i want to at the very least be able to hit my 30 minute or 1 mile mark which ever comes first. walking 2mph is actually pretty steady and breaks me into a sweat....but in the beginning i try to do 2.4mph and then slowly reduce it down. My goal when i am down 75 or more lbs is 3-4mph. My hubby can run 4mph and has no problem. I would probably croke if i even tried that. Hopefully im conditioning my heart and at the very least making myself healthier! Lets see iF i can walk tonight.......I might just take a break tonight.....but who knows....im gonna jump in the shower and see what energy that treadmill just brought me. Who else has worked out today? Are you all in this with me.....post your exercise routine for today!!!!!

Ok im heading to my den......im shooting for 30 minutes of walking! Hopefully there are some good episodes of Married w/Children in my DVD player!!! I was trying to think of something else I could do today that would be free and I could take my daughter. I dont want to sit around the house ALLLL day but sometimes thats the cheapest thing to do. It's about 50 degrees outside right now so it's a little chilly to be outside with my 3 yr old. Wish me luck.,............IM OFF TO SEE THE TREADMILL......THE WONDERFUL TREADMILL --IN MY DEN!!! DEAR GOD LET ME PUSH FOR 30 MINUTES! I KNOW I BEEN ASKIN ALOT LATELY.....I NEED THE WILL POWER TO DO 30 MINUTES....THATS ABOUT 1 MILE FOR ME.......PLEASE GOD......MAKE MY LEGS INVISIBLE AND MAKE MY BODY LIGHT AS AIR AS IF IM FLOATING OVER THAT STUPID TREADMILL.... AMEN

Hello Wendell- Here you go! Mind if I ask you some questions? If I minded...then I should never come to this board....you can ask me ANYTHING.....ANYTIME......it's the purpose of this board is to share experiences and to help..... What is your current diet like? My Diet is not great but it is definately cut back. I have been eating something light like either yogart, 1 packet of oatmeal, or some sort of fruit for Breakfast. After talking to Michelle more we both agreed that maybe the Protein shakes is not such a bad idea.....My doctor told me it would be wasted calories......who knows......if it is my only breakfast then whats the waste right? Are you getting guidance from your doctor, or from a nutritionist? Just my Dr. I probably need a nutritionist and maybe even a psychologist but I dont have much money. I quit my job because it was so stressful.....but I am on my husbands insurance and it has high deductables..... Another thing you should know about me....I was basically raised on fast food and junk. I grew up with my dad who was a single father and instead of cooking dinner he took me out to eat at all kinds of fancy and junk rest. People tell me to eat fresh veggies.....ummm YUCK......I try to eat what I can....i need to develope a taste for these foods but really it takes everything in me to eat some of that stuff.....like a little kid really...i have my 3yr olds pickyness....pretty much anything she will eat, I will eat...its BAaaadd. How much food by volume are you eating at one time? Right now I am trying to eat just a small portion. Usually a handful or if you want to put it in chcken nuggets view (5 of them). Thats one serving. Sometimes I eat less at one sitting. Im not at perfect restriction and need to have another fill, my Dr will not fill me until May 8th. How many times per day do you eat? I have tried to eat like a handful or something 5-6 times aday...but each day has varied. I have not eaten anything today yet so i will probably start with 25g Protein shake thats about 105 cals. How many calories per day are you eating? I've been watching that and im close to 800-1200(1200 is a stretch) Im averaging aout 210-250 calories per meal except for like 2 of the meals are yogart or something smaller which is less cals. Like I said earlier my meal selection is very thin...so when in doubt i eat some chicken nuggets which one serving (5 nuggets) is 280 Calories like 16 grams of fat and 14g of protein and 17 carbs. Seems like a lot but i figure it makes me really full and if i only do it once aday then it is like my biggest meal really.... How many grams of protein are you getting in a day? Well when i went to my Dr last week he told me the protein shake i was drinking was "empty calories" and said i should get my protein from food. After talking to Michelle last night I think my Dr may be wrong(is that possible? LOL) I was originally taking a 210 cal 50g protein shake a morning.....Michelle says you cant digest that much protein so I think I will be cutting that in half. 105 cal 25g shake. (Cholc Isopure) How much fluid are you drinking in a day? I have been really working on that. I am currently drinking about 3 bottled waters a day and usually one diet pepsi (to get my soda fix) a day.....i been skipping the soda tho...only had it once in past week. I drink a full bottled Water while i walk as well. How are you going to handle stress without eating food to cope? Not quite sure. I am amajor stress eater and so far the 5-6 meals a day has covered any level of stress.....when a lot of drama went down and I quit my job I called over my best friend and we watched a movie to get my mind off of it. Any ideas on this one? And finally, what are you doing for exercise? I used to not exercise at all...but now i am walking on my treadmill at the very least 1 time a day for about 20-30 minutes. The last 3 days I have walked 2 times a day. (Check my journal out for those specifics.) I'm hoping this walking will really do something for me because I HATE WALKING and im doing it because i need to for my health.....this is the first time i have been "religeouis" about my exercise. You probably were not expecting all the long answers but i try to be truthful and paint a full picture for you to kind of gauge where im at. Good luck figuring me out. I would love to hear more of your story! Thank You!:help:

Thought I would post my Journal for the evening. 4/14/06 9:40pm Today I realized that yesterday, although i walked a lot I was slightly bad in my eating. I had a few bunny ears...(candy from easter) if you know what i mean. After posting my story on LBT I realized that it is so important to stay true to everyone and myself. I realized that if I don't take the extra step then i will not succeed. Today I ate better. One of the LBT girls called me and had words of inspiration....THANK YOU!!!! Feels good to know someone is here and is listening to me. Exercise: I walked this morning while my husband was working out on his new bowflex and I turned on the first season of Married with Children......I noticed it is alot easier to have something that keeps your mind off of the actual walking....AMEN... I walked 30 minutes and 1 FULL mile!!!! This morning. I decided this evening since i had sat around for most the day after this morning that I would walk some more....so i turned Married with children back on and started to it.....ended up walking 21 Minutes and .64 miles. A little over a mile and half today is a pretty big step. Im really proud of myself...and such little time it takes to do.....literally just takes a few minutes before you walk and the time you walk. I used to make excuses for going to my den to get on the treadmill. "Oh not today, I'll do it tomorrow" Somehow tomorrow never came. Now ive FORCED myself to do it 2 times a day....amazing. It's kind of weird how i get excited about posting my progress for all to see...maybe it's because I feel like I really need the attention....BUT DONT WE ALL DESERVE THAT LIL BIT OF ATTENTION? At my weight I am definately starved of attention. I do not get out much and when I do it's usually something quick. I have been embarrassed of my weight for over 3 years now. Thank God I have a husband that has stood by me through all of this. It really says something that he married me at my heaviest weight. Ok....im tired now... .....ready to get some sleep....my husband hid the scale on me because he knows the first thing i'll think about in the morning is if i had any weight change.... Im going to focus on the dress sizes I drop and not my weight...my goal dress size i would be totally content at would be a 16. Good night everyone! Happy exercising!!!