Krystal

I have no clue how De Paul is but I Go to Dr. Wagner and anytime i've gone to his office i get in and get out. I think the longest I spent there was an hour and that was because he had to run to the hospital to do a floro. He doesnt rush me out of the office and Sarah--the office manager is AWESOME. She answers any and all questions that you may have forgotten. I need a good support group to go to thats not too far away. Im in South County. Anyone know of any?

I really screwed up yesterday and today. I dont even want to do a journal today. I have not worked out. Yesterday I redid the flower garden so i considered that my working out. I have to admit i came inside...my feet were KILLING me and i made A HUGE SERVING of RAVIOLI......whats the matter with me? :cry This weekend has been the hardest. Today I couldn't hardly walk...i must have pulled a muscle in my left leg yesterday while planting flowers.... I decided I was going to try and walk anyway so i got the dog and went to a Jefferson Barracks Park and tried to walk the trail....i went a quarter of a mile and almost had to crawl back to my van my leg hurt so bad. I ended up eating Total for Breakfast, 5 chicken Nuggets for lunch, 1 1/2 Tacos for dinner......ramen noodles an hour after dinner...and then some chicken wings....... WHATS WRONG WITH ME? :help: I FEEL A REGRESSION.....I CRIED OVER THIS....WHY AM I DOING THIS? WHY CANT MY BODY TELL ME TO EAT CARROTS INSTEAD OF BAD FOODS? WORST PART.....I talked to MY BEST FRIEND on the phone and told her i was attempting to stay inbetween 800-1200 cals a day...she almost flipped out and told me i was crazy for keeping it that low and theres no way that should be right. She said it should be good if i stay around 2700 or less. She thinks ive done great with the portion sizes but says im nits to try and do something UNREALISTIC.....:clap2: WAY TO SHOOT ME DOWN SARA!!!!!:angry OMG....IM GOING TO GO POUT... TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY...HOPEFULLY I CAN PULL MYSELF BACK UP...:angry

As far as i know you can get up to a 24 easily there....but im not sure of anything any bigger. I know Oldnavy.com has more selection then the actual stores.

I buy from www.avenue.com and also Fashionbug.com They carry pretty big sizes and the clothes are nice looking. I wear a 32 so my selection is pretty limited.

I am alll the above.....it is good you are aware of it. The band is not an easy fix. Although I never regret getting my band...i regret cheating with it. Please read my story...it is posted in the general section under "READ THIS B4 BEING BANDED" I wanted everyone to know the truth about the band. It's not easy. I cried today because i have been craving pizza....and chicken wings....so tonight my hubby is bringing me wings....but i am going to eat in moderation....im not going to eat the whole pound of wings. You will have to eat to satisfy your cravings as well as your hunger. I have a problem...i could not be hungry at all...and i'll still want something big and greasy... this is all a mind game my body is playing on me... WE JUST HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO OUT SMART OUR BODIES.

I know alot of insurance groups will still cover if your bmi is high enough because they dont want to pay future bills for HBP and SA.

AMEN!! My hubby married me when i was 380lbs.....all of our bridesmaids and groomsmen were really good looking underweight people and my husband is good looking...could get anyone i think...he is not big..but he chose me! (i am one lucky wifey)...... I think when it comes to sex...it needs to be more than a fling...flings can make you actually feel worse about yourself. Find someone who likes/loves you for you....whoo cares if your 1000 lbs! That person should not even think twice about your weight if they are crawlin in bed with ya!:clap2:

I would say that you need to be 100% comfortable with your partner. Don't just have sex to have sex. You can use condoms with spermicidal and its a pretty good preventative....not 100% BUT NOTHING IS 100%. Im not a guy so obviously i dont have certain worries you do. But I know that at my weight I am definately a lot less interested in sex because of my personal feelings about myself. My husband and I talk it over and it really helps to have communication. Good Luck! PM me if you need someone to talk to!

Thanks alot now you got me thinking of curly fries! LOL

Where is De Paul? When is the next meeting? Time? Cost anything? I went to Dr. Wagner...does that matter? Do I need to have gone to your dr? Thanks!

AWESOME VIDEO........made me tear up!!! WE CAN DO THIS!!!!

Whew! It seriously WILL get better. And if anything were to happen the band CAN come out. It's one of the safest surgeries you can do. Seriously. Take a breath and relax. If you have any questions there are enough of us here to help you!!!

Well i have HIGH BP as well. Stay away from salty foods. I really dont know much more but i know if you watch your sodium intake then it can really help. Good luck....BP is nothing to mess with.

Today was better than most days. I woke up and started the day off with a bowl (3/4 cup) of Total like yesterday.<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> I had some butterball turkey with a piece of Colby cheese on it for lunch…it was ok…but didn’t do much for me.:faint: <o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> :hungry: For lunch I had 5 Chicken Nuggets…280 Calories for all 5. Not bad when it fills me up….(I still need another fill) Plus they taste really good.<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> :clap2: I walked 30minutes/1 mile. Then took a good nap! LOL<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> So this evening I did not want to sit at home while my husband was at work so I decided I should go to the mall and let my daughter play on the playground. Before we went I checked the cals on some of the fast food places in the food court because I knew we were going to end up eating there. I went to SONIC and ordered a KIDS Cheese Burger PLAIN and took off the bun…just ate the burger and cheese…and ate like 6 tator tots. Not bad. I used to order a Double Cheese w/mayo, Large Tots, Mozz Sticks, and Popcorn Chicken…I would always order a lot and take the rest home to eat…NOT TODAY!!! Cool part about this too is that I saved SOOOO much money. My daughter had the same thing as me and our total for TWO kid meals was $4.36. NOT BAD!!!:biggrin1: <o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> So after eating at the mall I walked the mall a couple of times and let my daughter play in the kids play area too. So im sure I did plenty of walking today.:clap2: <o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> I went into a GNC and was talking to a guy about protein and he says I should DEFINITELY be having a high protein diet. I keep going back and forth with this. <o:p></o:p> Dr. says to get it through food. Friends say through food. Some bandsters say have a shake too…and Dr. and Hubby says NO SHAKE. The guy who worked at GNC is a personal trainer and says he suggests a high protein diet to all his clients. He says “What harm can a protein shake do you?” True right? I drink a cholcolate Isopure that has 110 cal per serving and 25g of protein. Should I or shouldn’t I. I keep getting a lot of mixed reviews on this but then I keep coming back to what the Dr. said about it. I dunno. I just want to lose some weight. I’m working my but off but getting a very slow response. ANY SUGGESTIONS?<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> Im posting this in the Foods section because I really need some advice on this.<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> Ok im off to watch a movie and relax…I’ve had a long night.<o:p></o:p> <o:p> </o:p> How is everyone else doing on their working out? <o:p></o:p>

Ann- The good part is that now that i've decided to change, I can. With the band you can make adjustments and force a change. I dont regret getting the band.....I regret not using it properly.

I have found that this site has made it a lot easier to admit my faults and ask for encouragement from others to do better in my life. So far so good!

Ann...Here is my story that i posted: It's been two years and i have lost maybe 10lbs total. Why? People ask....I WILL TELL YOU HOW IT HAPPENED FOR ME.... The moral of the story is not to tell you NOT to get the band...but to tell you that this is no FIX and don't expect overnight weight loss....YOU HAVE TO PUT EFFORT into it. This is important....people like me assumed the BAND would fix everything and the motivation would just fall into place...this is soooo untrue..... I had always been big...all through school..always size 16+....senior year 2001 i was a good size 22....2003 i was a size 24 and by 2005 i was a size 32......I was always made fun of.....i gained almost 100 pounds in 3 years from being on the depo shot(birth control)so i got off of that...... and then getting pregnant. By 2005 I was at my worst. I walked into the Dr's office thinking I was only 360 back in April of 2005. When I got on the scale it read 380...I almost died. I cried in his office because I was so ashamed. Ashamed over 20lbs!!!! I had researched the band and felt because I had a daughter it would be the safest surgery for me. I am only 24 and was 22 at the time. I thought this was going to be the FIX.....the thing to change my life. I thought that there was no way anyone or anything could stop me from losing weight after I had surgery. I went through all the tests....and got all the required medical paperwork and convinced some family members to pitch in for my surgery. I set the date and started my pre-op diet! From that point on I should have known I was going to be a mess. I was supposed to be on a liquid diet for 2 weeks because my liver needed to shrink for surgery. So i ate everything they told me to for the first 3 days and BAM....the feeling set in.....I WANTED AN ULTIMATE CHEESEBURGER FROM JACK N THE BOX AND I WANTED IT NOW! I couldn't get it off my mind....i was thinking about it allllllll day.....i went to bed thinking about it...and the next morning i went and got one. I figured...what could ONE double cheese burger with double cheese and mayo possibly do......well...it did nothing to the surgery process but it really broke the frame of mind. Before the 2 weeks was up i had eatin 2 not one but TWO ultimate cheeseburgers and a few chicken nuggets. Why? Why couldn't I just do the PRE SURGERY diet? June 8th 2005------So surgery day came....and went.....all went well no complications.....i was on soft food in the beginning and I started to eat eggs for Breakfast....but my eggs HAD to have cheese and butter in them....HELLO!!! What was I thinking.....I remember getting my first fill and at this point I had almost lost 40lbs. 20pre-op and 20 post-op. It was amazing....... About 3 months out(2 months after my 1st fill) I started to become familiar with my band and how much I could and could not eat. I realized that when i would eat too much, i drank a little bit, and it would make the food pass and then i would feel sooooo much better. I never exercised...keep in mind...(maybe got into the pool like 10 times the whole summer) and i was preparing for my wedding which was September 17th 2005. I was so stressed because my weightloss had pretty much STOPPED......I was craving foods like never before and started to eat and drink at the same time...BIG MISTAKE......i was eating at least double what I should have. So I went and had ANOTHER fill. This slowed me down...but still I was not losing ANY weight. I remember eating my first fried chicken after my fill and like trying to manipulate my band into letting me eat more by taking one bite and then drinking....it was the worst thing in the world i could have EVER done. A year after my band was put in I was only 20lbs total lost (which means i gained 20 back) and I was so angry...I promised myself I was going to try and fix things and make it better....So much had happened that year....2006....we bought a house, my husbands dad died of cancer, my husband was leaving for weeks at a time for work...and i was home ALONE with my daughter. I had no energy to keep the house clean(and i still dont) but i would sit and mope.....and EAT.....I would make excuses to people who asked me WHY i hadn't lost any weight. I told them all that it was a slow process and that i had lost 40 pounds(lied to them). This year, Jan 2007...I was just sitting at dinner with my husband and looked down and noticed i had a 12oz strip steak, baked potato loaded....and mashed potatos loaded on my plate. I ate all of it. my band was NOT going to stop me. I also ate bread before that.......and drank sweat tea.... in Feb07 I was online playing around and saw an ad for a weightloss show. Primetime...suppose to be JUST like the Biggest Loser....I thought...hmmmm I'll just fill out the app for shits and giggles.....well they responded and wanted me to send them a tape....so i did. Then in march they had me get my band completely UNFILLED and then flew me out to LA and put me through med tests and interviews,THEY BOUGHT ME 2 PLANE SEATS because i was too big to fit in the plane chairs on my own....pretty sad huh,(cant say much more because they made me sign all kinds of disclosures) They told me it was a show that will be on ABC and told me i would be away from my family for 10 weeks. I thought....this is the chance i have been waiting for. They made me think i was going....for weeks after the interview I was getting called and asked follow up questions and told i was in the top 4....then on March 31 i was called and told the network did not choose me. I was DEVISTATED.............like someone should have just shot me right there. I was so upset...i cried the whole way home(we were out to eat of course) and my husband looked at me and said...why dont you just do it on your own? Ummmmm DUH right...? So about a week went by and I had done a real examination of what i have done wrong and how i have basically cheated myself out of my life! On Easter i saw my family and noticed how no one said i looked good anymore...that's because i didnt.....i looked worse...heavy as can be....and that night i sent an email to my family and decide that enough is enough. Im exercising daily...NO EXCUSES...i posted before/after pictures on my walls in my house of other people who have had the band. I put sayings all over the house saying "whats ur excuse now" and i told my husband that enough is enough. So we decided to start our weightloss exercise on the 9th.....on the 10th I went and had my band RE-filled and since the 10th I have lost 10lbs......unbelievable huh!!! So hopefully all this will inspire SOMEONE before it happens to them. Let my "GAIN" be your "LOSS". Good luck everyone! Krystal

:hungry: So today I tried to make up for the past two days on eating. I think I might have eaten more than I should have tho. For breakfast I had 1/2 cup Total Cereal with 1 cup of skim milk. ( i use the milk left over to take my medication) For lunch I had 1 1/2 tacos from Taco Bell. Just meat and cheese only. My hubby and I were out and he wanted TB real bad....so i went and ordered a kids 2 taco meal. Gave my daughter one taco and one for me. She ate half her taco and i ate her other half. I also had a pintos and cheese. I probably consumed 400 calories in one sitting but i made up for it at dinner time. For dinner I made a pork chop with my all fave SHAKE N BAKE...lol...I ate 3 bites of that.....yum......Then i attempted something that really shouldnt EVER be done again... I tried to eat a baked potatoe with all my FAT FREE stuff..... NOTE TO SELF: NEVER put FAT FREE butter, FAT FREE sour cream, and cheese on a baked potatoe.....YUCK....i took 2 bites and it all went straight into the trash...i said screw this....id rather eat smaller portions and enjoy it than eat yucky fat free stuff that makes me want to puke when it touches my mouth....:spit: At least I tried right? So I tried to clean up the kitchen today and make a concious effort to clean up the house but i been DRAGGING all day. I kept telling myself I need to workout......FINALLY at 730 i said thats it go do it...and i did... Why is it that lately...(past 4-5 days) my body is struggling to walk 30 minutes on a treadmill? I been trying my best to keep going. I turned on a movie and I been trying to get into one while i walk and for some reason after 10 minutes im extremely tired and feel like i cant go on. Well it was hard...but i made it 30 minutes....1 mile....not much to some of you...but to me it was extremely hard. My legs were tingling and everything...whats with that? Im hoping my hard work Im putting into this really pays off. I think I will have a fat free no sugar added fudgcicle tonight....man....what a day. So is it bad if i just sit on my butt the rest of the night? I guess I feel being 360 lbs right now, it would be asking a lot of me to do more than what im currently doing....am i wrong? Seriously.....do you guys think i should be pushing myself harder? I dunno OK......im gonna go watch "Notes on a Scandal" I rented it today.....its break time....:bored (funny when i say its break time i end up sitting here for at least another 30 minutes) Tata for now!

Keep in mind im not trying to offend anyone.....my view on this could certainly be distorted because i am so big. I am working my butt off now to lose the weight. THE ONLY WAY THE BAND WORKS IS IF YOU WORK WITH IT....am i right? I love all you guys dont get mad at me...lol

I hear ya......I guess i look at risks (pros and cons of getting and not getting the band)...and i look at the reality of the situation that even if your banded or not you have to change your life....the band only does a small portion of the overall picture. If there is really THAT much concern then I would suggest trying to act like you have a band for a month and see if it is something u can mentally do. Only eat 4oz at meal time....exercise...and watch what you eat. A band can be cheated...so its not a sure thing....ya know? You HAVE to have the internal will power to MAKE it work for you. Everyone has different views on this....just my opinion is all.:eek:

How bout on a positive note....this girl did it! [ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7I1hS4OsyI]YouTube - My WLS Journey - Lap Band[/ame]

In my personal opinion....which doesnt mean that much on this site...LOL... I think 239 is not enough to need weightloss surgery. I think if you start to eat the foods now that you WILL HAVE to if you get the surgery and exercise you will lose the weight on your own. I was at the point of no return at 380 lbs.....it was do or die for me... At your weight it is not do or die.....and you can bypass all the risks and just do it on your own.....please read my post in the general section that is entitled READ THIS B4 GETTING BANDED......it explains that you cannot go into this thinking it will fix all your problems. You have to put ALOT of work into it. Now that i sit back and think on it....the band plays a VERY SMALL role on this whole thing. Just my opinion for what its worth...i dunno

Awesome!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU!!!! What site did you get that from?