Patrick Curl

I've been morbidly obese probably all my life. Right now, I'm super morbidly obese. my BMI is north of 90, and I need to change my life, or die trying.

One of my favorite movie quotes is: "Get busy living, or get busy dieing" - for me, I'm at a precipice. I feel that if my health doesn't kill me in the next 3-4 years, my depression will.

Last year I weighed 698 pounds, I could hardly get out of bed... I was at a spot where I realized that if I go any more in this direction I will never leave the bed again.

So I worked on myself - I tried hard at dieting, and I kept myself motivated and stopped feeling guilty when I cheated by focusing on just limiting or removing certain 'trigger foods' that I could eat a lot of - namely candy bars and soda.

By my reckoning - normally I would drink about 60 oz of soda a day, and 1-2 king-size candy bars. I can't tell you exact figures now- but back then I actually figured out that just between candy and soda I was eating about 120 pounds of extra calories per year. In a year I've lost 40 pounds - but its not enough. I am getting the surgery so I can be normal, and lose all the weight I need to - to actually enjoy the rest of my life. I've essentially been dead the first 30 years of my life, not able to really live.. I don't want the rest of my life to be this way - I seriously don't want to continue if this is all I have to look forward to.. So I can get busy and start dieing, or I can get busy and start living - I'm going to do everything I can to live, before I go the other way...

Timeline of my life:

At 6 - I weighed 60.
At 9 - I weighed 115
at 15 - I weighed 300
at 25 - I weighed 480
at 31 - I weighed 698
at 32 - I weigh 650

at 33 - I will weigh 400
at 34 - I will weigh 250