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Howdy from East Texas!  My name is Carla.
I am 45 year old short plump lady that is looking to be able to get back into clothes that look good on me.  I loath clothes shopping because nothing ever fits or looks good!  I have struggled with my weight since I graduated from high school.  The "freshman Fifteen" started at 19 and just kept going!  I have two girls in college and another one that is 11 yr.  I never really lost the baby weight after this unexpected last one, and I am just tired of constantly worrying about losing weight and fighting a losing battle.  I am 4ft 9" on my short days and 4ft 10" on my tall days.  My heaviest has been 160, but I am currently at 152-154 or so.  I don't have a 100 lbs to lose, but my 50 lbs feels just as overbearing.  My BMI is 33.  I have high blood pressure and sleep apnea. 
My purpose to get the sleeve is to be able to be held accountable to myself.  I will use my sleeve as a tool to get myself where I should be.  
I am looking forward to the day when I bend over I don't feel like everything is turning black!  I am really hoping that my "dunlap" will also disappear completely. sigh...
I don't think I look that fat until I look at pictures, and I'm like WHAT HAPPENED????
I am happily married for over 23 years, and I have a very supportive husband, that has never been a jerk about my weight.  Thank you God for a great guy!  
My surgery is scheduled for Feb. 5th.  I'm not nervous about going to Mexico to have it done, I'm more nervous that I won't be mentally ready for the life style change when it comes to eating.  I love food, and I can eat a lot of it.