I am 10 days post op and feel the same way. One minute I think I made a bad decision then the next I feel like the light is brighter than ever in the future. Mixed emotions are hard to control. I didn't know about the 20 staples, the gas and the choking feeling I get everytime I eat. this part really sucks. I feel like my throat is closing up to reject anything I want or need to eat. Water ....Water.... gives me gas. What is that all about? I will pray that we both just stay strong and make it past the babies steps of this process.