Globetrotter

Hey everybody! This is my favorite forum-within-a-forum so I thought I would post here that I have submitted a blog entry here at VST http://www.bariatricpal.com/blogs/entry/29627-two-years-come-and-gone-so-fast/ I hope everyone can take a minute and check it out, today is my 2 year surgiversary and though I'm not at goal yet, I'm a hell of a lot farther along than I was the morning I walked into the OR! Thank you all for your support, I've uploaded pics!!

How unfair! I'm at least 25 lbs away from surgeon's goal, 50 from personal, and am almost 2 years out. The pounds come off me like I never had surgery, which is to say, begrudgingly one at a time and only with furious effort! Not f***ing fair. I'm still on protein shakes, don't eat anything like bread or pasta or starches, and exercise 5x a week. @#$^&*@!!!

I crossfit 3x a week and have done so for 2 months. It is brutal, the first three weeks I was in a constant state of soreness. I am almost 2 years post-op and have always been a diligent exerciser with yoga and dancing and running and zumba but even with all that my first class was tough! I can't imagine trying to do this when I was still 100 lbs overweight. I am 50 lbs from goal after a loss of 124 lbs.

So glad to hear from you Coops! I nearly fell down a cake hole today, one of those horrible cheap sheet cakes bought for a birthday in the office, the kind that wafts the stink of fat and sugar. I put a tiny amount of frosting in my mouth and quickly spit it out and ate a couple of tablespoons of plain greek yogurt with a handful of fresh cherries instead. I'm counting that as a victory!

scary!!

I've been experimenting with going off my PPI (Prevacid) over the past week and a half and it has been painful! I went almost 4 days without and by the end I felt like a hole was being slowly burned through my chest wall and like my throat was swelling shut. So I took one, then waited 36 hours to take another one and it has now been ... 4 days? since and although I get some uncomfortable burning sensations in the late noontime, if I eat my greek yogurt around that time it helps. I'm wondering if I feed my stomach foods that require a lot of acid to break down, thereby giving it something to do (lol) if that would help?

With S-bucks new skinny line and their off-menu secret stuff, there is plenty to have, Panera is just walking the gauntlet of fat and sugar loaded pastries, and their quality of food and protein is low, imo.

Where is that? KC?

Wow Pdxman, I wouldn't want to be in an enclosed space with you after that lunch! =P =P

A favorite lunch for me I invented when I was deployed, it was so good I will still eat it! 3 oz roasted chicken 2 oz shredded cheese, cheddar works best 2 oz balsamic vinegar arrange chicken, topped by cheese, drizzled with 1/3 of the vinegar in a dish. Pop in microwabe/toaster oven/real oven/stovetop skillet until cheese is melted. Remove from heat, add another 1/3 of the vinegar, return to heat until cheese starts to crisp up around the edges. Remove from heat for final time, add last 1/3 of vinegar, eat. Yum!!

I don't know if it is a sleever thing or what, but I had a hot dog over the weekend and have not stopped tootings since! I think I could have filled up a hot air balloon in the past 3 days! And it was a really high quality organic pure beef frank with mustard, no buns.

If you want coffee/mocha/cappucino/java, then look no further than Click protein espresso powder! It is flippin' amazing and super versatile AND is the equivalent of 2 shots of espresso for every serving! It has 12g protein per serving which isn't much but then I never use it as my sole protein powder in a shake. Not really being a coffee person I use it more as an ingredient rather than the star; I use a serving of chocolate protein powder, a half serving of Click, a tiny splash of a torani syrup, topped with SF whipped cream, with some cinnamon or bitter cocoa powder tapped across the top. Arranged prettily in a Starbucks reusable to-go cup, it's just as good if not better than the real thing!

It would be great if there could be a meeting in Lawrence, KS? Maybe once a week or every 2 weeks.

I PUT ON MY CHEERLEADING UNIFORM FROM HIGH SCHOOL!!!! Wow! I wasn't able to zip or button the skirt and it didn't quite cover my behind lol, but I still got it on and I was able to completely button the shell (uniform top). That really means something to me because even though I felt chubby at the time, since then I have known that I looked really good back then and have always considered in hindsight for that to have been my "thin" period. New goal - to get that skirt to zip and button by HALLOWEEN!!!! =P

I think maybe method of preparation could be a factor, I do okay with grilled dogs but not dogs fried on a flat top or boiled. A regular sized dog ran through the garden Chicago-style but without the bun, I can eat half, then the other half 30 minutes later. Nathan's are good, as are Hebrew National and Boarshead light.

I'm just so SO angry right now, I want to punch and cry and kick and scream, for so many reasons. I'm angry about losing my job, I'm angry about still being goddamn fat, and I'm SO ANGRY at losing the ... idea/assumption/hope that I would have the choice to bear children or not. That makes me ANGRY, I am SO ANGRY. Sure, there are surgeries out there to correct my malformed uterus, which just brings me right back around to the anger over money - my not being wealthy is now going to preclude me from bearing children, nauseating. And nobody around me gives a $h!t, not that they should, but everyone is so glad it's not them (this time) at work, they can't be bothered to show more than relief that it's me not them. People I thought were friends suddenly can't return phone calls, now that I don't have a brag-worthy job. And I just CANNOT listen to my well meaning Mother natter on with her perky little platitudes, I'm not ready to hear that kind of positivity. And I'm angry for everything else, for my life, for my shitty genetics, for parents who used the excuse of my being so smart to not bother helping me with anything so that I had to educate myself on everything because they are so COMPLETELY IGNORANT, I'm angry angry angry! And I HATE BEING FAT, HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE. thanks for listening.

I'm starting to wonder if the naysayers might have been right about a few things, I'm starting to wonder if we screwed ourselves royally by spending so much time on such severe diets and now, like anorexics, we have destroyed our metabolisms to the point where we are now required to be on severe diets the rest of our lives or risk seeing gain where a healthy normal person wouldn't. =( =(