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Hopefully Bill doesn't let the dual attentions go to his head.

What mass index said. Also, I expr these things as well at one time, when I was at my most insane with crossfit, my doctor told me that most people should be on a low sodium diet, but not me. Not that she was giving me carte blanche to inhale salt, just that I shouldn't go out of my way to be low sodium. Also fyi and I'm sure you know this already, drinking a ton of Water when you are losing salts via sweating or illness, can exacerbate the situation, flushing out even more vital salts and minerals.

Yeah ... about that .... So I followed the dosing instructions on the tub and put in two servings, it said four servings for workout use but I decided to be conservative and just go with two.... I have never done speed, but this $h!t had me awake till dawn, I couldn't slow down, was grinding my teeth, awful, simply awful. I killed my workout but what a price. In fact, maybe even a bigger price than that; I was so sped up and bursting with energy that I may have overdone it on the leg press machine because today my left hip socket if I straighten out my leg and put weight on it, is in excruciating pain. So, a big thumbs DOWN on this product.

Okay somebody who knows I want aminos just gave me a tub - ON Essential Amino Energy. Reviews?

Coops -you are the woman of steel! To be able to resist sausages and chips!! I think I would have felt compelled to pluck hubby's eyebrows, for having the gall to make those ... ;P Brown - I am so tickled that 5:2 is finally swinging your way, as we say in the gym, "git it!!" Georgia - Knight in Shining Armor syndrome ... yeah that occurred to me, and I do think that men who are predisposed to this behavior are actually narcissists or something because it has more to do with their issues than the "damsel"... Chimera - that's precisely what we are here for girl, venting! We should call ourselves the Ventis - a gigantic cup of piping hot comfort . Hubbys Bx sounds like self-sabotage and genuine addict behavior, very dangerous for a newly "clean and sober" person to be around. Maybe go to an OA mtg together? Sheryl "Dead Eye" Jane - What is Covey's 7 Habits? Sounds like something I should learn about. Sarah - Wolfing it down pre-surg style, yeah, I've had moments like that and yeah it scares the beejeezus out of me. The way I handle it is to "wolf" down something that I know is both good for me and will get "stuck", for example, at 3+ yrs out I still get exploding pidgeon stuffed when I eat mushrooms or dense dark greens or dry chicken. If I inhale just a few bites of these things, I'm out of commission for hours, which gives me time to calm down and back off from the ledge. Also, the fewer carbs I eat, the less I feel capable of wolfing and - I utterly and totally stay away from potatoes. Ab day yesterday - 3 sets of 15 plus a set to muscle failure; back-bend crunches, (weighted) side crunches, lower back strengthening forward reverse crunches, declined crunches, (weighted) thigh thrusts, dangling from forearm pads knee lifts. I also fasted yesterday, coming in at just over 600, sore as hell today but not from last nights abs, from 3 days ago arms! My arms are so weak that sometimes it isn't even about going to muscle failure, it is merely being able to do the exercise at all!

Liz - there are always excuses not to. There are always "legit" reasons not to. Don't want to make a decision in haste? I got you, I'm on board with that, it's truth. But Liz, this has been a long time coming, hasn't it. Hasn't it... http://www.womenshelters.org/sta/texas http://www.hhsc.state.tx.us/Help/family-violence/centers.shtml He has slowly cut you off from everything, including physical isolation, and now he is trying to take away actual physical escape (the vehicle). Nothing will ever be enough and the next thing he will take from you is your life. Get out now. Our network is wide, I know we have sleevers in TX, someone will come get you, you are not alone.

Yeah you rocked it big time, I was super covetous! I guess back then it really helped to have a big extended family, lots of cousins to help each other into their clothes and do each other's hair!

I DID go to the weight room last night - by myself, and I did arms: tricep pulls @35#, bicep pulls @35#, the bar donut rolling rope thing x5 each over under, bench presses @ bar+10# - I did not go to muscle failure on the bench as I did not have a spotter. pectoral pushes @45#. I also did the leg press @150#, 3 sets of 15 and then one to muscle failure, even though it was arm day I did that one just cuz it feels good . Fiddle - do you prescribe to the idea of leg day/arm day/etc? I want to do leg presses every day because they feel good but I also want to be smart about the way I work out. Sunday was legs, yesterday was arms, today will be abs, tomorrow will be back, Thursday will be cardio, and I will take fri and sat off. Thoughts? Also, today I am probably going to take in about 650 cals, I figure that is okay because I sit all day until I lift @ 1700 and I'm not doing cardio.

Not fasting today, headed to the weight room in a few minutes, going to try to do it myself, hold my head high etc. Also going to try to get in at least 1200 cals without any of it being crap, difficult here! I had a handful of peanuts in the shell just now, before my workout, I'm nervous as to what my reaction to them will be - I ate a single bite, A SINGLE BITE of breaded chicken tender last night and within 2 minutes had an occular migraine!

I recognize so much of this, from my childhood .... I grew up learning how to be my worst abuser ...

SherylJane (DeadEye), what/who are you talking about?

So I know that I am a gigantic costume snob, but apparently nobody knows what Edwardian means!!!! From what I could see, everyone was wearing clothes from the time of the Great Land Race,circa late 1870's. Edwardian refers to the time just after Queen Victoria died up to the Great War. A front apron, back-bustle skirt wouldn't have been worn for at least 30 years by then. Now, snobbery aside - you looked fan-freakin-tastic! The hair was amazing, how long did THAT take?

Is there anything I can be eating in the pace of aminos? I just won't be able to get them until I get Stateside or somebody sends them to me, I really need to do this extend stuff, over a week after my "ab" day and it still hurts to sneeze!

This is almost verbatim what the husband of a friend recently did, and you know what happened next? He punched her in the eye, with all his force. You will stay in this relationship until you have hit your personal rock bottom, but this kind of behavior - it doesn't get better. Get out, and get out now.

Did legs last night, by myself, I'm not letting one person's tantrum derail me!

I was hoping there would be an apology in my inbox at work today but, no. I have defriended him on FB. As for the garlic, I still have the fresh minced but am out of the flakes, nutmeg would also be awesome

A lot of times we forget to make losing the weight the first priority; many of us have been denied life fo so long that we eagerly dive in. I have noticed that the people who successfully made it to goal or even further, and did so relatively soon, were the onces who focus only on losing the weight in the first 12 months post-op. Not fitness, nutrition, exercise, or anything else, just Protein, carbs, calories.

Yeah tell me about it, perhaps I need to sacrifice a chicken.

I don't know if I would call it drama so much as clusterf**kery. v_v

Sheila - happy birthday! There IS a way to have your cake and eat it too, thanks to the experimentations of Eggface! She makes a protein cake that is not just guilt free but even high in protein/good for you! I made it for my birthday last year and it was deelish. Wanda - The older I get, and the more loss I incur, the more I see death as a blessing. The difficulty is for those left behind, but the person who is going home, their trials have ended, they have joy. I will end up doing the extension, as much as possible, to save the money. I learned from my year of employment in Kansas that it is difficult to save money while living life, I made a great salary and cost of living was pretty low there, and after one year I had not saved a single penny! Granted, I was in a car accident, was hospitalized, so that would have been the money I would have saved that year, but that still would have been less than $10K. Here, I have the ability to bank 100% of my paycheck. So, I'm gonna try to do it. Something just awful/humiliating/mortifying/painful happened this weekend - On Friday my buddy and I were going to have a cardio day, I got there early and stretched out on my hard Pilates roller. After some time I realized that a fair bit of time had passed and that he had not shown up yet, I looked at the clock and he was 20 minutes late. So, I got on an elliptical and did my think for 30 minutes and went home. There was a FB message waiting for me when I got there, profuse apologies, he had taken a nap and didn't hear his alarm go off. I messaged him that I was disappointed but that I worked out anyway. He kept apologizing and I said stop apologizing - spilled milk and all that. I made a comment about how I was bummed to not get my hug, which is just as satisfying as the workout. Awhile goes by and then I get this massively long message from him that is just ...... a tantrum. He flipped out on me so hard that while reading it, my ears began to burn and I started to cry. that bad. He went on and on about how I can't be hugging on him, how everything we've done was a mistake, how I have to be professional, how he can't take care of me and everything else in his life too, how the training he has given me out of "the kindness of his heart" would already amount to $300 if we were in the US, how he doesn't have time for my pity party ..... And ladies, those are just the highlights. I was quite literally sickened by this. I felt like I had just been punched in the face by someone I utterly trusted. And for the record - He flirted with me, HE put the moves on me, HE pulled me into hugs and kept me there when I would have moved away, HE initiated intimacy, and worst of all - worst of all, he held me tight enveloped me in his strength and PRAYED OVER ME, telling me and god that he would be there for me, that everything would be alright, that everything had a reason. The cruelest thing that could be done to a person in my position is to offer them hope and comfort, and then $natch it away. Oh and PS - how incredibly irritating is it that I must make up for the dearth of comprension in this site's vocabulary, apparently nobody at Bariatric Pal understands that $natch means to take away quickly, it isn't JUST a slang word for a woman's genitals - they starred it out when I spelled it with a real S! >:[ And now, I'm out a trainer, and you really shouldn't lift without a spotter. I have a month left here, I am going to try to continue with the lifting, maybe ask whomever is near if they will spot me during sets, but this is just so humiliating.

Still gonna lift but - my trainer, who I thought was also my buddy, threw a huge shocking tantrum via FB message the other night, ranting on, mentioning that what he has given me so far would have been $300 in the States but that he was doing it out of the "kindness of his heart". I was just mortified. It was his idea to train me, his idea to do it as often as we did, I was humiliated. So, now I will attempt to go it alone, and just hope that somebody is willing to spot me v_v...

So, the extension won't be in the same location, and my buddy leaves end of Feb. Exit plan should I be incapable of finishing the extension ... yes? I imagine if it is due to physical failings then I will be able to medevac. How does a person walk away from doubling their savings? I just .... can't. When it comes to money and preparation and foresight, my parents were grasshoppers, fiddling the summer away, if you know the parable. This turned me into a neurotic little ant, preparing contingencies, saving saving saving, anxious about every penny, a panicker. If I were to stay the full extension then I will have been with this job/program for 6 years, and all I will have to show for it is a decent savings. It doesn't aid future career movement, I haven't made many lasting friendships, and I've lost all that American time, when I could have been living life and finding someone... If that start-up had worked, I would have been outta here ... Georgia - olive oil loses a lot of its positive nutritional aspects when heated above 200F and I believe develops carcinogenic elements at that point. I wonder if you could achieve the same crispiness by spraying olive oil on a silpat and baking them? I just love all the innovations that are happening lately with cauliflower.

I am a 3+ yr sleeve vet and I second everything that catfish said ^. Also I would add, that you are in the prime time of your "honeymoon" and I would (hindsight being what it is) focus more on diet then exercise at this point - keep the calories low low low, keep the carbs looooowwww. If I had it to do over again, I would not have focused on exercise until I got 75% of my weight off.

CGJ - so long as that fat isn't around your middle, an indicator for heart disease vulnerability, it doesn't matter if your body fat is a bit higher, except for vanity percentage. How much should I be paying for the extend? and what is a good CLEAN creatine brand?

Okay so, massive update - Where do I begin? Long story short... So, we got our extensions, both of them. I will now be here at this location till the end of Feb and this means that I could conceivably stay in country until 1AUG. If I do that, if I somehow draw the strength and ability from who knows where to do that, then that is an additional 6 months of savings, 6 months downrange hazard pay in the bank. That kind of money could cover living costs while getting my doctorate, provide a cushion in the future should I be unable to work, and I could sure as hell get those hot-damn Frye boots .... ;P However, stay another 6 months. 6 more months? Will I be able to? What am I trading in by doing that? Is it actually a form of cowardice, to stay? The start-up is a non-starter, lol. They do not have the money and it is starting to sound like they are a bunch of very early 20s kids who just think everything just *automatically* falls into place. >_> I have expanded my search to Portland, for living, Denise - what are the summers like there? A lot of the places don't have AC, but with my condition I cannShot be in the heat at all. And PS - I'm out of garlic flakes and olive oil lol!! Sheila - good golly you are a romantic! I feel blessed that Zach is in my life, as my Mom says, "a reason, a season, or a lifetime", and I had need of his season... I am not interested in *that* kind of romantic partnership with him, I am simply accepting and blessed of our friendship here, of the support he gives me in my moment of greatest need. Trying to make things last longer than they should or trying to force things into different shapes is a road to anguish. I am trying to learn acceptance, of so many things. So team, do I stay, or should I go?