Trooperstar

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I have BC BS National plan - PPO and they covered it here in New York.

Did anyone cheat on their pre-op diet? I am supposed to be on a liquid diet for 2 weeks, but a few times in the first week I didn't follow it. I cheated with a veggie burger, some Beans, a couple of beers, a couple of glasses of wine but for this week prior to surgery - I am sticking to the all liquid (along with lettuce which they said I could have). I am worried that my other week where I was about half liquid/have eating will have an adverse effect on my surgery. Did anyone cheat during their pre-op and have problems after surgery or vice-versa Did anyone cheat and have no problems?

I am glad I found this board - the group that my doc's office referred to me doesn't exist anymore, and I am more comfortable discussing some things online than in person. My surgery is 2 months away. I am excited and scared all at the same time. I haven't always been fat - I have yo-yo'ed my whole life. Sometimes thin, sometimes fat... all times on a diet of some sort. To be honest... I am uncomfortable being thin. I don't like the attention, and I am hoping there are others on here that can help me with that. I saw someone's post that said "you have to let the walls down to let others in and yourself out" and I really love that. I just need help learning how to do it. I'm about 230lbs - 5'2" and hoping to get to some weight that makes me comfortable and healthy. I'm nervous about following all of the directions, about what to tell people, about changes I can't anticipate. I'm worried if I ever decide to get pregnant.... I'm curious about how fast I will lose weight, about whether or not it will come back on in the future... If I can accept the person I will change into. I'm worried about sagging skin, complications and dying. I wish I had done this earlier in life. I feel like I missed out on the last 10 years by being too consumed with how my body looked. I know I am all over the map here - but I just needed a place to vent everything I am feeling without judgment.