wendy645

You had it right when you said it's with any surgery. Heck, you could die having your tonsils out. It's just the fact that people's bodies vary so greatly, some are allergic to anesthesia and don't know it until too late, or there's a miniscule chance of something major going wrong, like cutting a major blood supply, but your surgeon will no doubt be too competent for that! Besides, the risk of dying with a lap-band surgery- to me at least- is not nearly enough to consider not doing it, especially since I'm gonna die if I keep along this path! May as well DO something about it! :girl_hug:

Oh! And your dog is adorable! He reminds me of mine!

Hi Nichole! Your post really caught my attention because I'm in rez land, too! Well, not technically, I'm in Page, but we're surrounded by rez. Where are you? I'm loving reading your blog and progress, I'm still at the very beginning stages

I'm curious (completely off-topic here) why do some people's posts have every word capitalized? Not caps locked, But When A Sentence Is Like This? Also... where do I sign up for one of those newfangled non-finicky bands?

I looked into surgery (bypass) when I was 19 years old after seeing Carnie Wilson on TV. I went to a seminar about it which is where I first heard about LapBand. Since I didn't know alternatives to rearranging your innards existed, I knew immediately I had to look into it. I've taken my time researching and decided this was for me. There are several things that did it for me. Feeling like I'm about to be decapitated in my own car by my seatbelt. Getting asked when I'm due. I like to reply with something dripping sweet that makes them soooooo embarrassed for asking. It's my little bit of spite, I guess. Going on a business trip and running across the airport terminal and feeling like I was going to DIE, but being afraid to ask for a ride from the carters because they'd just look at me and be disgusted little miss fat ass couldn't walk across the terminal. BARELY fitting the airplane seatbelts, and feeling my butt squishing under the arms and into the next seat, where the people next to me looked disgusted. realizing that 'm out of clothing options and I REFUSE to shop at Lane Bryant etc. I'm a tight size 26 but I will not go any higher because the only thing clothes-wise in my town is an absolute travesty. I mean, honestly. I think the vast majority of plus-size clothing is designed by bitter skinny minnies. Elastic waistbands and terrible cuts, prints that just shouldn't have been manufactured to begin with, much less turned into something a person has to wear on their body! It's what's inspiring me to want to make my own plus-size clothes line with my friend... even though I'll be too skinny to wear them Everything has just piled up onto me lately, making me more and more determined to do this. After being told since I was 7 that I was fat and worthless (I didn't get fat until I was 13, and I'm not worthless, dammit!) I have always thought of myself as fat and worthless. Until recently. I now know I'm just fat. And I'm ready to do something abuot it.

Yay you for taking this step to a better life! We're all rooting for you and will be subsequently post-stalking you to see how you do! :eek:

How did it go? I go to mine tomorrow!!

I'm just starting the process but this thread rocks my socks off! I can't wait to add to this list!! I'm not the only one with tears in my eyes, at least, that's good

My goal changes all the time, and I'm a self-proclaimed numbers nut. I have played with numbers since I can remember, even back to 5 years old. My high weight used to be 270, so I picked 135. Perfect number. But now, my high weight is 286, and I'd like to be 143 due to that, being half of it, but I don't like 143. Maybe 140 or 147. I've never seen/remembered anything below 165, so I'll also admit I have no idea what under-165 holds. I think it'll be a case of wait and see when I get there :-) I'd still love to see 135! Or be able to wear a single-digit size. Even a 9 would THRILL me!

The thing that I find so interesting is the double standard. I've had COUNTLESS skinny friends complain about how fat they are, and I tell them I'd love to be their size, and they all are quick to say they don't think I'm fat, they just feel fat for themselves. At first I thought of this as a load of horse pucky, but I'm starting to believe it. I still come away from the conversation feeling planetary if they're complaining about their size whatever, but I also know they feel bad themselves. And since I know how feeling bad about your body feels, I leave it alone.

Well I was beat to the punch! I was going to come in and post something to share my signature with you lovelies When I saw this thread I read the name to my mom and she asked if she was a shorty porty. I exlplained the band has a port and that was the reference. She's overweight but losing, and not banded. It's funny how a lot of us aren't happy with what we've got, huh? For instance, I'd LOVE to be 5'9" but it's not gonna happen (probably? That patient gaining some height inches is inspiring!!) but at the same time, I'm thankful I'm 5'7", which I know a lot of people here and gonna be like "Oh shut up, you!!" about LOL For the poster who noticed things getting longer on her as she loses: I hope to have the same problem! I have faily long legs, but the pants I can find are short on me (I'm not much of a loser yet!) but instead of having a belly sticking out to make the fabric go out and then down... without it going out, the only place for it to go is down! Holy run-on sentence, bat man! Anyway, good on you all for working with what you've got, and I hope my signature picture can bring you a smile :eek:

Whenever I edit a post, what I see is literally a smilie between every single letter, space, period, comma, etc. It's a sea of smilies! It's all the same one, but I can't remember which one. Why is this? It makes it hard to read so I've stopped editing posts! If they have typos, oh well! (This is very hard for me, being a spelling and grammar freak with fingers too fast for my brani!)

Wow I can't believe it's been 2 years since someone replied to this! I'm bumping this because I think it could get much more attention!

Wow, I have nothing to offer but I'm really interested in the answers here. Where in your back hurts and what kind of pain is it? Like, an ache? A shooting, or stabbing, or burning pain? And is it while you're eating or afterwards? Sorry to ask so many questions but it might be helpful to narrow it down for other ppl who've gone through it or may know why

Yup, that's how I've taken to doing it! Thank you, at least I know it's not just me!

Thank you all SO much for your replies! You're all so very inspiring... I'm fighting back some tears, heh. I want to be part of the second group. I rather like exercise now, but like has been mentioned, being so overweight makes it very hard. As it stands, I'm on Ibuprofin 800 mg just so I can walk further than my standard to-the-copier-and-back office walking. I have learned the hard way that if I don't take at least 800 mgs an hour before walking, my lower back seizes up and I can barely make it home. I plan to have a party when I can toss those babies in the trash bin, though! I know that being an NSAID, I should be careful with Ibu when I get my band. I just typed "if" and deleted it in place of "when"... heh. Now, I'm one of those in the middle group liste, I work out when I remember, when it's convenient, which equals NOT OFTEN. When I do I love it and go balls to the wall, though. I really feel I will be one of those ugly ducklings when it comes to exercise. I have had so many dreams of being thin enough to run without my fat rubbing together and causing pain or a rash, the freedom it allows mw to just GO. Emotionally, I'm ready to be able to exercise without pain, it's just waiting for my body to catch up Oh, and Ariel, best of luck!!

People IRL would be surprised that I'm taking the steps to get the band! 3 people know and I like it that way. Lessee... I am in lust with Orlando Bloom. I've had 3 eating disorders in the last 17 years. I like to chill out with my closest friends (we're all CSI junkies) and talk about murder and how to do it so you'd get away with it. While I HATE coffee, and everyone knows it, my favorite ice cream is coffee. I don't like diamonds.

Yeah, I figure on Christmas because I know I can't wait that long! LOL I'm excited to give this to him, so I'll be doing it on Christmas. It'll be the first time in several years there will be a gift on Christmas, usually we choose to enjoy our time together and try to save some money for something for the two of us. I will gladly break the rules though because I think he'll love this. It's cute, his best friend is so excited! And he's not alone, that's for sure!

I've been with Chris for about 9½ years, and this year, under the piddly fireworks display in our little hometown, we got to talking about his best friend, who he hasn't seen since the night of their high school graduation 7 years ago. Apparently, where he lives, there's this beautiful river and their fireworks display is awesome over it. We kept watching the fireworks and had a great time. The next day, I called his best friend and asked what he thought of me sending Chris up to visit him next year for a week over the 4th. He's thrilled, and we decided to keep it a secret between us until the reveal. I wanted to jump the gun and book his flight ahead of time, but you can only book 330 days in advance. So I have to wait another 3 weeks before I can book. I'm the kind of person who loves to know all the details and little bits'n'pieces as soon as I can... so I'm now trying to decide, in the mean time, how to do this. Should I make it a Christmas gift, or for his birthday in late May? How should I package it? I want to give him his tickets and some spending money* (how much to give him?), now I'm just trying to figure out what to do and when! I'm normally quite creative but I'm drawing a blank on this. Any suggestions? :cry * He has a job but I am in charge of our finances, hence my "giving him spending money", it's just packaging it.

I, too, am on Ibu 800's, but I won't need them for long after my surgery (praying I get it) because I'm taking them to be able to walk to lose weight. My lower back seizes up if I don't take one an hour before going for a walk. No spontaneous walks for me

Thanks you guys!! NYTrink, a patient intake form is a packet about... er... 20 pages long? It asks you about your medical history, things like if you have support at home, how ling you've been obese, if you are happy with your job, what medications you're on, etc, basically a getting-to-know-all-about-you form. I think that some of it may go toward the psyche eval. Not sure. I planned it. I'm telling them I was seeing a doctor for GERD and a hiatal hernia and we were testing the waters to see if I needed surgery and if so, we were going to play the insurance company's game. And then, when the weight comes off, I'm eating less, watching what I DO eat, and exercising more. Completely true! I just pray my ins. won't be jerks about it and just flat-out deny deny deny!

My insurance has an exclusion on WLS (of course :tea:) and also excludes consultations regarding to any excluded item/procedure. So I e-mailed the local doctor I'd been referred to by another WLS patient in town (our town has 8,000 people so we're kinda limited on doctors). Gotaa love being in a town so small you can e-mail your doctor LOL Anyway I explained the situation to her and she said to come in and she'd figure out how to code the visit, and told me she has pretty good luck with getting insurance to cover referrals to WLS surgeons (my ins. covers the surgeon but not the procedure :huytsao) and told me that I need to be on doc-supervised weight loss for 6 months, which I'm fine with. I can't help but wonder, though, if you can do the doc supervised, wouldn't they just say, "See? She can do it. Denied."? So what should I ask? What should I tell her? I'm so excited but I always end up forgetting things, so any suggestions would be GREAT!

Thank goodness you asked this, because it's been on my mind!!!

I'm currently pre-band 285 and wearing tight 26's, but it's the biggest pair of jeans I can get in my town, and I refuse to go to elastic ''slacks''. I have 46DDD's but somehow fit into anywhere between 22-28 tops. It, of course, depends on the stretch. I feel kinda disproportionate or something because I haven't worn a size 14 at 5'7" since 170 lbs! I was in 18's between 190 and 220, depending on the stretch. I refused to even TOUCH a pair of 20's (really, I was crazy about not going near the hangers, even, as if it was contagious or something LOL) but I bought a pair of 21's at 228. From there it's all gone... uphill? Wore 22's around 240, 24's around 260, and 26's now at 285. I've noticed, though, that I can't always count on the numbers being the same because my body changes shape every time I yo-yo! I dunno, I just pray pray pray I can get back to the same shape I was when I was a 14, I was curvy in all the right places and would kill to be that size and shape again. :cry2: I was freaking TINY! I wore 36D bras then... hmm... how has weight loss affected your bra size, ladies? I'll be sooooooo sad if I go below a FULL C! I gotta admit, I love my boobies.

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