Hychap2009

Tomorrow:- The moment of truth? Posted 09-20-2009 at 03:09 PM by Hychap2009 Tomorrow is supposed to be the day that they contact me with news about a date. Will they be true to their word this time? God alone knows! I've tried the Nector Apple Ecstacy Protein drink. Yeah, not so bad. I hope to keep this on my shopping list, hope to try a few other flavours. I'm thinking of introducing protein powders into my mum diet. She does not eat all that well, she has her moment. Maybe a little additional protein may help, especially as she has lost her teeth again, we have to wait weeks for a new pair to be made, so you guess it, she is unable to chew meats and eat much of our regular staples, such as green banana and some yams. Did I tell you guys that I've just been told - Friday actually, that my kidneys have got worse. I feel like its the begining of the end right now. I'm doubting whether any of my health issues can be reversed, will things ever get better for me. Right about now my diabetic is making me feel very poorly on a daily basis; my blood pressure although some improvement - experiencing lots of dizzy spells, and headaches; my feet really hurt and i'm unable to walk any distance; aches and pains seem to be everywhere on my body. My hair is continuing to thin out; Oh i could go on and on. My sisters gone off to Spain, actually that sound a bit bad, and its not fair. What happened is my niece has moved to Spain for a year as part of her degree, my sister went with her to settle her in. Well you've guessed it - she's made no arrangements about the care for my mum, so its down to me. Luckily my step daughter helped out by going to mums early Saturday morning to wash, dress and give her breakfast. I did lunch time - my husband drove me down there, my husband gave mum her evening meal and I got her ready for bed. Sunday was much harder, I had to negotiate with my elderest sister to give me a hand. Anyway, in the end she got mum bathed and dressed and gave her breakfast; She stayed till lunch time. My husband fed mum her evening meal and I got her ready for bed. I do not grudge doing anything for my mum, I love her to bits - I just need some time to get as well as I can - so that I can look after her better - without grinding myself into the ground. I also look after my 18month old grand daughter at home. This sometimes takes its toll, especially when I need a rest. I just get the feeling that i'm been taken for granted sometimes. the problem with that is - I love having my grand daughter as I don't trust anyone else to look after her as we at home do. She goes nursery part time, but her mum works some very horrible hours, very unsociable and has sleep overs at work as she is a residential care work for young people. Anyway that's enough for now.

Posted 09-16-2009 at 07:28 AM by Hychap2009 I have had my second session of laser and the hair on my face, upper lip, neck and chin have taken a lot longer to grow back. Most of it has not grown back at all. Wow you can see the difference in my face already. A lot of the dark shading has gone. Wow! Still not had my surgery. i phoned the hospital again, this time I was told that I have not been allocated a date yet. When I asked why, I did'nt get a comprehensive answer. I was told prior to this call that I was at the top of the list as I'd gone past my 6 months wait. last month i did phone and say that ideally I would like a date after 4th Sept. Note, ideally, that is providing the surgeon operates on more than one date in the month. Anyway, I decided to make an informal complaint - great, the kind lady from Kings College Hospital - Patients Liaision intervened on my behalf to help resolve things. Within hours I got a call back - with a promise that I'd get my date by 21st Sept. and that I should be scheduled either by the end of the month or early October. I'm hoping it does not sit on my next laser treatment day 3rd Oct. If it does I'll just reschedule the laser appointment as close to the time as is possible. Waiting is hell. I short wait was difficult, but this length of time is like taking a roller coaster ride. It messes with your emotions, my life feels on hold. I've not engaged in anything for most of this year - pending this surgery. The only good thing, I've posted a list of things I've brought for after the surgery, it holds about 38 items so far. When I posted it - it did a get a reaction. lol. I can assure you, i have not spent money on loads of protein powders or food products. I have one small tub of an unflavoured protein, 2 proshot proteins -which are yuk anyway. I've since learnt that those proshot protein drinks are not the right kind of protein anyway. I've ordered some Nector protein to try. Oh yes, I'd i've finally got my fit and fresh containers that i've been after for about 6 months - but had difficulty getting as they don't seem to sell then here in the UK. I just love their products. What do I worry about now. Well: 1) how will I cope with not drinking during meals, this is a habit of a life time to break. 2) Coping with chewing, chew, chew,chew and chew food. each bit. 3) Will my bed be comfortable enough when I come out of hospital. I need a new matteress. 4) The pain when I come round. 5) Will something go wrong on the operating table. 6) Will I be able to get in enough liquid. 7) Will I lose the weight? 8) How much more hair am I going to loose. and will it grow back - I already have hair thinning due to my PCOS and have lost so much hair. 9) How much hanging skin will I be left with. 10) Keeping my blood pressure down as much as possible.

What's a girl to do? Posted 08-16-2009 at 05:23 PM by Hychap2009 Hi peeps, or anyone reading this. I actually thought I'd already posted this to my blog, but must be elsewhere. I've had my transvaginal ultrasound (scan). According to the nurse everything looked fine. I'm still to hear that from the consultants though who should have had the results back by now. Well lets update:- I've had my first session of laser hair removal, was not too bad, some discomfort but that was probably because some of the hair growth was longer than they needed it to be. So happy that I've got this show on the road. Contacted the hospital again yesterday to see if any progress on my Sept. date. Was told that they are still chasing the surgeon for Sept. list, basically for him to confirm which days he will be performing surgery in Sept. Hopefully it should be soon, because I know he's off on his holidays come 18th August. New worry. My PCOS is the cause of my hair lose. My hair has been thinning out for a good number of years, but I thought this was due to my anemia. Not so. I am now so worried that it may not grow back as this hormonial. I'm going to look up if there is any herbal treatments. This is so distressing, especially when WLS may cause more hair lose. My bestfriends 50th birthday celebration this Friday. Good news is that I will be going. Slap up meal at the Holiday Inn Hotel - Caribbean Banquet with entertainment. Did I tell you guys that the registrar told me that i'm not required to do a pre-surgery diet? Anyway, this madness continues. Hope everyone is good.

Hi, you could almost be speaking about me. I have uncontrolled high blood pressure and have done for around 20 years; diabetes type 2 taking 2 types of insuline and metformin;Nightmare PCOS, asthma, Diverticulitis and Planta Faciilitis. Life sucks most days, but by the grace of God i'm still here. Like you it was my Diabetic Consultant who referred me for this surgery has she thought the only way to improve my health conditions was to lose weight and it surely was not going to lose weight on my own. Initially I was so scared, attended obesity clinic from there was sent on a series of test (it seemed as if I lived at the hospital) i was there so often - because of my asthma I had to become an out patient at the respiratory dept for months and was also tested for sleep apnea (clear) that God. I have a heart murma so this was checked - have some damage to my kidneys - Oh I so need this surgery for my health. I think its available to anyone on the NHS if they have co-morbities. My BMI is 52 and i'm only 5ft 2in. I have two surgery postponements - bad time of year for me, I'll always catch colds about now because of the weather. I've made the decision not to tell people about my surgery. I say people but I mean people outside of my immediate family members and a few very close friends. Anyway, i'm potentially looking at a January surgery. Congrats on your December date.

I went on the waiting list Jan. '09 and was told the waiting list was 6 months. Unfortunately for me I've had so many set backs and only this week had to have my surgery postponed again. I was scheduled for 30th Nov. but i've developed a bad cold that has turned into a throat infection due to the post nasal drip - this in turn has triggered my asthma, so I'm at home trying to get well. The hospital would not carry out surgery under these conditions and needs at least a 4 week gap between the end of the cold and the surgery date. So, I'm looking at Jan. 2010 before I'm likely to my surgery. It's been so frustrating as the same thing happend last month, I reached my hospital bed, but because my chest they sent me home - too risky, that Oct 19th. My journey so far has been so dramatic.

Hello everyone. I've not visited here for a long while. Just out curiosity is it not normal to get WLS on the NHS. I'm having mine on the NHS London Kings College Hospital. Or is it different depending on which part of the UK you live.

I'm off to have my first treatment tomorrow morning. I really hope it goes well. I spoke to the hospital yesterday and the co-ordinator asked me whether I was ready for my surgery. I thought what weird question to be asking, I've been ready from what seems like forever. Tomorrow afternoon I have y transvirginal ultra sound scan. Ohhhhhhh. Anyway the co-ordinator said she is going to endeavor to get me my surgery date for September as a matter of urgency as I've been waiting for over 6 months now. I say, lets see.

Hi Jane, thank you very much for your kind response. I'm still hoping for Sept. they wouldn't let me run over for another month without an exceptionally good reason - would they? My sister is still getting on my wick... more and more every day. I try to avoid her phone calls. She is doing my head in. Do keep in touch, hopefully, some postive progress is on the horizon.

I've just sent for a few Protein drinks just to try them out for when I have my surgery. Has anyone tried the following:- Reflex nutrition whey Refresh RTD - 40g Protein NSC Pro Shot = 25g protein. I ordered 5 in total so that I can try the different flavours also. I would like to source a resonable tasting Protein Drink rather than a shake. This is so I can vary the types of protein liquids I take alongside the food choices that I make. I have a small tub of unflavoured protein powder as I'm aware that my taste buds may change after surgery, so I'll wait till after to choose a powder, they are quite expensive to decide you don't like it. I'd welcome any suggestions particularly from my UK peeps - as sourcing the right type of products here in the UK can be a bit of a mission. Thanks.

Hello everyone, So good to find an active site dedicated to "Sleever's", WOW. I've been on the TT site which has been so useful but the majority of posters are either lap bander's or ByPassers. So i'm just going to help you to get to know me and my journey thus far, some of this post I will copy from previous post - just to save time. lol. So far it has been a bit of a roller coaster ride. I'm currently pre-op, i was added to the waiting list 23rd January 2009 with the expectation that I would be having my surgery in May '09. Anyway as you read you understand my journey. I origianally posted this 10th Feb.'09 on TT, so you'll see where my head was at back then:- "Well here I am, finally facing the prospect of having WLS. I've been overweight for far too many years now. When I was in my early twenties I was an extremely active person, always on the go. Life changes, and my activities changed along with it. Before I knew it, it was so easy to put on weight. I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, that didn't help my weight problem but I didn't understand the condition at the time. I have high blood pressure and i'm a diabetic. Never controlled. I also have some kidney damage and suffer from Asthma. Well you've guessed it, my weight has not helped my condition any at all. My quality of life is pityful. At the diabetic clinic they finally gave me no choice. 'Do or die'. So here I am, waiting for the date of my op. I was told it will be within the next 4 months. I am terrified, but want to make sure that I do everything to make this journey as easy as possible. I worry about not being able to sit and eat with my family and friends, this is a very social and cultural part of my life. I fear the internal pain i'll suffer after the op. After six months or a year, what kind of meals will I have? Will I every be able to enjoy a tall glass of iced cold Water again? Eat a whole sea bass - a glass of anything? How does one get use to not eating delicious food. Why do they have to take 85% of my stomach away. I'm quite depressed at the moment. I think I ought to keep a diary of my progress before and after the op. Oh by the way, I'm scheduled to have the Gastric Sleeve." So guys, I've moved long way ahead since writing this, a lot more informed and so much more ready. I copy the rest of my journey into a blog, so hope you're take some time and get to know me. Hope to get to know some of you and would welcome the support. Regards Hyacinth

Hi Ardita How great is this - a site just for us. lol. I'm sure I followed the link you posted on TT that led me here. Like you I previously searched for a site dedicated to sleevers but initially came up with the same sites you mentioned. I once found a site for sleevers but there were very few people on it, was not very active. I've had some good support from the TT site and will still visit there, but I'm so happy to have found the home for sleevers. I have placed my blogs on vertical sleeve gastrectome surgery blogs. I hope i've done this right. If not, some guidance please. Oh thank you everyone for welcoming me here. Hyacinth:biggrin0:

Hello everyone, How good and how pleasant it is to find you UK sleevers. I'm a newbie so I look forward to participating in this sub forum. I'm a pre-op and a foodie like a lot of people on these sites. In my preparation I've spent time trying to source some of the food products commonly used by our WLS American cousins. I've discovered Total (FAGE) oh it's so fab. and versitile. Hope i'll like it as much when I'm post op. Did any of you source any of the food products used by the American WLS community, or did you just adapt the foods that you're use to? Regards Hyacinth:thumbup: .

I've spoken to the hospital, actually AJ the registrar and he thinks it should be fine to go ahead with the laser hair removal. He had no concerns about the the laser treatment having any impact on any WLS that I'm likely to have. 29th July 2009. Today I got a call back fromt the clinic, and the lady Candace confirmed that she had spoken to the clinics medical doctor and that based on my medication everythin should be fine. The only had a slight concern about the fact that I'm diabetic and the slower healing process. Anyway, after a brief discussion I've booked to go in for a skin patch test next week Monday in the afternoon. So I guess we'll see how that goes. Just thought I'd make use of the time that I have before I get my date for surgery. Will let you guys know how everything goes.

Written 23rd July 2009. Well I've had my CT scan Tuesday of this week 21st July. On my return a letter was waiting from the hospital telling me that I had an appointment for 7th August for Transvaginal Ultrasound. OMD's. I guess that means that I wont be having my surgery until Sept. then. I've decided not to stress myself out about anymore as I'm a believer in nothing ever happens before the time and everything happens for a reason. God knows what he's doing, although I might not be able to see it yet. I'm going to relax and try and take it in my stride and put my trust in the almighty. Anyway, I left a couple of messages with the surgeons secretary asking for the registrar to call me as I needed a couple of questions answered. Well today he called. yay! I wanted to clarify whether the CT scan over-rides the need for the ultrasound. He said that it did not and that I do need to have the ultrasound. He also confirmed that it is more likely that my surgery will not be until Sept. at the earliest. OK well now I can go on living until them. I feel as if i've been putting my life on hold since the begining of the year. I can just get on with it - i've got some parties to attend ( most of my friends are turning 50 this year, i've already been to 2 since mine). one tomorrow, one next week and 1 in 3 weeks time. Tomorrow I have to attend my best friends brothers funeral. i'd stopped attending tai chi because I couldnt afford to pay monthly subs, and then waste it because of surgery. I'll start back again next Saturday and pay for August i think. I think I can also start curves so I'll have to pay for that as well. I'm going to call the clinic about my hair removal and get my patch test done asap. So many things have been put on hold due to my anticipation of a surgery date. Not any more. At my last pre-assessment appointment the registrar told me that I do not have to do a pre-surgery diet. Wow. He said that Dr Patel does not ask that of his patients as many people find it too hard to stick to and either eat badly to lose weigth quickly and then become malnurished. So they don't ask us to do that. Cool. When Dr AJ called me at home today, he told me that my bloods came back fine. Just one of them showed that I was diabetic, which is normal as I am diabetic. lol. What i'm looking forward to now:- 1) Continue attending all my school friends 50th celebrations up until next year for those with the late birthdays,(mostly the boys). 2) Improve on exercise regime. 3) Restart Tai Chi 4) Book test patch for laser hair removal 5) Not having facial hair anymore.!!! 6) Earn some money during the month of August. 7) WLS Surgery being a thing of the past, being Post-Op. No complications. 9) Watching the weight melt away. 10) Seeing my health improve. 11) An improved quality of life. 12) Finding it easier to support my mum who has dementia. 13) Getting fit and healthy so I can enjoy my grandaughter Dajah as she grows up. 14) Jah's blessings, continued love, guidance and protection. So for now I just have to attend the next hospital appointment and then wait. Comments 0

10th July 2009 've attended the recall appointment at the out clinic today. Great big drama but I'll spare all the details. In short appointment for 1pm didn't get seen until around 4.45pm. (waiting, waiting and more waiting). Nice registrar named AJ, asked loads of questions about my old CT scan back in 2003, explained quite a few things along the way. He also took further bloods and informed me that I had to contact the ultrasound depart. on Monday to book a CT scan for both Abdomen and Pelvis. Was able to get the answers to a number of questions that have been pondering in my mind for months. Did I say he was really nice, lol. So it's looking like August surgery date, don't know when I'll get my scan, but I guess should the scans come back ok, then I'll have surgery in August. Just praying that everything is ok. Did I mention that I've decided to try and keep a journal of my journey. I'm keeping notes about good foods and recipes - sources of vitamins etc in my blackberry. Trying to contact Fit and Fresh about purchasing some products directly from them. No response yet. Will keep you updated.

8th July 2009 The story of my life! Well I've had me pre-assessment on Friday 3rd July as some of you may have read in my posts. I was so elated that I'd accomplished that stage and anticipated that I'd be getting my surgery date for late July or early August, so I was waiting to hear from the hospital quite soon. On Monday 6th I got a phone call from the surgeon's secretary informing me that they'd like me to come back to the hospital this Friday 10th, as they were concerned about a shadow that was discovered on my right ovary back in 2003. They say that they are being prudent and would like to do an ovarian scan and take some more bloods - check for tumors. Well you can imagine how I feel. Right now I feel like my world has stopped. I should approach this rationally, but now I'm wondering again wheather there is need for concern, especially as I've been having a lot of pain, although bearable in my right hip and a little in my back. I'd put this down to my bed that needs a new matteress. My head is all over the place. Rational thinking: They've explained that this could all be a result of my PCOS; They they are just checking everything (full body MOT); That they don't wish to delay my surgery; and that this is just to check to be certain. I really need to dig deep and put all my trust in the almighty and stop feeling sorry for myself. On another note, i've been shopping, I've bought myself a Nutritional scale that weighs food protions and claculates nutritional values, wow. I packed my bag ready for going to hospital, I've also got a small tub of protein powder - unflavoured, sweetner, amongst other things. I'll buy the other things that I need when I've been given a surgery date, God willing. Lets see where we go from here.

Written 12 June 2009. Ok, despite being told that I would recieve a letter this week for my pre -assessment date, believe it or not, today still no letter. I was fumming, this roller coaster ride is getting to me, I wont to get off. Anyway, I calmed myself down and phoned bariatric admissions and spoke with Pauline the administrator -co-ordinator. It wasobvious she was familiar with my name and asked me to hold on whilst she checked. She then returned and stated that she had not yet sent the letter out. She explained that she was still dealing with people waiting since December 2008. Anyhow, she preceeded to inform me that my pre-assessment date will be on 3rd of July at 9am. I was a little upset but held that to myself. Alright, so the 3rd July, what do I need to do now. The bad news is that i've spent the last 2 weeks backsliding. Firstly, I think I was really good last week Friday on my birthday, I had a mushroom risotto, and tomato juice. That was it for the night, I think I was too excited to eat anything else. However, at the weekend, I indulged myself with my birthday cake, OMD, it's soooo nice. I've helped myself to quite a few slices this is not the norm for me as I not really a cake person. I also had a KFC hot wings at least 3 times over the past 2 weeks and a McDonalds cheese burger and milk shake. I don't even eat McDonalds. What's going on I hear you ask, well I think this a little comfort eating going down here, frustrated with the whole surgery situation, plus Aunt Mary from Red Hills, (monthly cycle). To top it off, I've not been to water aerobics for 2 weeks neither tai chi. I didn't go to tai chi because I did not want to pay the fee for a whole month - if I was going to hospital for my surgery. That's a joke. I really need to get back on track. I need to start my exercise, right now I need to muster some self motivation. We'll see. Hyacinth.

6th June 2009. You wont believe it or maybe you will. Full of expectation off I went with my husband to my appointment at the hospital, went throught the usual routine, weigh-in, blood pressure. After that it was to be an hour wait to be seen. Finally my name was called, an unfamiliar doctor stood there so i'm thinking, someone different - this must be my pre-assessment appoinment. When we sat down, the doctor introduced himself and then asked, "what are we doing for you then". Oh my days, I had to hold it down. I explained that I recieved a letter to attend an appointment with Dr Patel's team. He looked at my records and then phoned the co-ordinator who knew nothing about it. What a waste of my time, and it was my birthday as well. He started telling things that I was obviously aware of, such as you were placed on the waiting list on such and such a date, you high BP and diabetes etc. It concluded with him speaking to the co-ordinator, who informed him that I would be recieving my letter for pre-assessment next week. WHAT A JOKE! On a positive note, my 50th Birthday celebrations were fantastic. The evening was better than I could have asked for. I had friends and family, some friends I'd not seen for many a year, some of my school friends boys and girls, lol. In all there were 65 guests. People had difficulty finding the restaurant but when they did, loved it and wondered how I'd found it. It was in Chanary Wharf right on the river. It was fresh and crisp inside with beautiful white crisp table linen. I had two fantastic cakes, one white and silver made into the number 50. The other a beautful decorated cake with my name and 50 on it. I had gold and white balloons, a guest book that all my guest signed. The big suprise was that my sister had arranged for a slide show showing the many changing pictures of me over the years, it was so fantastic. I enjoyed my evening so much and shared it with the people closest to my heart. My morning started off with the knock at the door from InterFlora - a great bunch of flowers from a dear friend who was not able to make it that evening. It was a great feeling to receive a gift like that. When I returned from the hospital - more flowers on my door step. that evening I recieved many more gifts. It was fab. That night has created such a fantastic new memory. I was sooooo happy. Now I'll wait and see if I get this letter. Hyacinth.

Posted 5th June 2009 Well, giving nuff thanks and praises, I've made it to 50. It seems really weird saying that. 50 use to seem such an old age. I'm optimistic about the future, I'm grateful to have made it thus far, and would now like to improve my health and quality of life. Later this evening I'll be celebrating with family and close friends. I've choosen an Italian restaurant located at Canary Wharf (Amerigo Vespucci). Tomorrow I'm hoping I can get a pedicure a spa treatments. Update: Today I have an appointment with the bariatric team, will I get my date today? Lets hope my blood pressure has gone down a bit. I really am excited that this could be the day, what a wonderful birthday present that would be. I've waited so long. I recently had an appointment at the hypertenstion clinic and saw for the first time Prof. Jackson, the consultation was fantastic, I left there for the first time hopeful and confident that he had a grasp on what needed to be done. My medications have been changed yet again. I've also been given treatment for anemia (iron tablets) if this causes me any complications such as constipation, they will do an infusion of iron. On another note my daughter and gran daughter are off on holiday for 3 weeks on Monday. Dajah is just 14 months and spends a lot of time with me. Oh boy,I'm going to miss her sooooo much, I'm already worrying about her - but I've not communicated that to my daugher, I just pray that they enjoy themselves and get back safe. Hyacinth.

30th April 2009 Was back up the hospital again yesterday (Wednesday) to have an ultra sound on my kidneys. The great news it that despite the blood test showing damage, the kidneys appear to have no visable damage. So the damage so far is in the working of the kidneys. Culprit? High blood pressure and the diabetes. Well get this. Having decided that I'm not going to tell everyone about my forthcoming surgery, the nurse doing the ultra sound kept insisting that she has seen me before. I said that was possible and that she looked familiar to, and that I had been to this department before, so maybe that's where she'd seen me before. Twice she referred to the WLS, without me mentioning it. Of course all my details are in front of her on the computer screen, silly me. She asked wheather I was going to go ahead with the surgery, I told her yes, that i was just waiting on my date. Then she spat out, "do you go to tai chi at camberwell" ."Yes I replied" "oh, so do I she said", OMG, I thought. That's where she had seen be before, were in the same class. I then had to tell her that I had not planned on telling people, so basically indecated - confidentiality. I explained that I don't intend on telling the instructor either. She said "you should tell him your having surgery though". I explained that I had already been thinking about that, and will probably tell him something, I deal with that when the time comes. Trust me, I'm glad I made that clear. Just from the expression on her face I could just see/imagine her saying -" Oh the wls is working really well, you've lost a lot a weight" with an audience of course. Well I've given her a gagging order. lol Lets see.

Written 30th April 2009 "She has been restarted on glargine (Lantus)insulin, 20 units every 24 hours in first instance. This had been inexplicably left off her prescription for the last 1 1/2 years". Can you believe it. I attended my appointment with the Diabetes Clinic this morning, (yesterday now), had a long chat with my consultant Dr J Raeburn, she went over my meds and reviewed my diabetic medication and realised that my GP had not included the aforementioned drug treatment, yeah for over a year. I myself had not realised that she had added this to my prescription and that my GP was to ensure that it was implemented. So now I'm taking 2 different insuline injections plus metformin tablets. Lucky me! Not. Here's hoping that after the surgery my diabetes will improve. Got myself a great chiller water bottle today, bright red, oh and a sippy cup. Oh she has also sent a note to my GP to do a referral regarding my feet. At last.

23rd April 2009 How annoying. I've spoken to the hospital again, only to be told that they are waiting for the surgeon to confirm his appointments for May, currently he has not booked anyone for May. The administrator says that they have to work to his schedule and that he has an overwhelming amount of people waiting, they are working through the waiting list. To date they are still on the people that were scheduled for Novemember. As there is so many, they are having to schedule some of the patients to another hospital with the same surgeon, Dr Patel. To say it's frustrating is an understatement. So, i've agreed to phone back again the second week in May. On another note, my package arrived yesterday from Low Carb Megastore, so I started by tasting 'Just the Cheese', Crunchy Baked Cheese. Not bad, I think I could have these as a little occassional snack.Total 75 calories per serving; Protein 5g per serving. 1g carbs. no sugars, no trans fats, 14g per serving. Proto Breadstick - 50g = 10 sticks, total of 163.5 calories. approx. 16 calories per stick. 2.4 g protein per stick. 1g carb. Protein Sugar Free Jelly. Per Pk:- 1 packet 19g 68 calories, Protein 15g, Carbs. 1.8g Crispy Cool Ranch Cheese, Just The Cheese. 1 bar 14g 75 Calories Protein 5g 1/2 carb per serving Should make a nice little snack. 02GO Flavourbursts - add to water. Comes in pack with 3 flavours, lemon citrus, summer berry and orange adn passionfruit. With added vitamins. Less than 10 calories per serving. I would use these occassionally as at present I love water. Can have some flavoured water from time to time. 50 pence per pack. Jell-O Sugar Free Low calorie. 10 calories per serving. 0 carbs. DaVinci x 2 Coconut and Banana Syrup. Still preparing. Hyacinth

Written 22nd April 2009 At last I've found the name for the condition I have in my feet. Its called Plantar Fascilitis. I was given the name for this about 2 or 3 years ago by my diabetic consultant at the hospital, but for the life of me couldn't remember the official medical name, so called it heel spur as I was also told that's what it was known as. Today for the first time I understand whats going on with my feet and happy to know that it can be treated. Suprise! often brought on by excessive overweight. My concern has been to worry about not being about to use the treadmill or to do any brisk walking as a form a exercise as my feet were not up to it. Too much pain. I'll have to see if I can get some night splints on the NHS, doubt it as I've never heard of them before today, and some daytime foot treatment. Anything that will enable me to walk without support would be great news. If not, I'll have to look into getting these myself, probably about ?100 in total it think. This condition is interfering in my tai chi as I have to take time out when my feet start to pain me. I hate having to drop in and out of the group. The instructor/teacher thinks its because i'm out of breath, not at all - its my feet. I try to push through the pain, but its too hard. Oh and I've decided to take up pilates exercise at home to work on my core. Funny enough, some of the exercises will address the plantar fascilitis. I've already got the exercise ball, got that early last year, picked it as it was cheap. lol, I've just sent off for a pilates mat and band. I watched a few videos on youtube demonstrating the exercises and they seem doable. When I can't afford to visit the gym, I can still work on my arms. I've got bat wings already,so I need to firm up my muscles. Also, when I've finished this, I've got a package downstairs with a few products that I wanted to try to see if I like them, low carb and sugar free products that i've bought on line. Missed water aerobics yesterday for the first time (aunt mary from red hills visting). I'll be good to go for tai chi on Saturday though. The worst days for me this week was Monday and Tuesday - guess why! To add to that, my sugar levels went totally out of control, rendering me helpless - stuck in bed. However, today was a warm and sunny day so me and significant other took our 1yr old granddaughter to the park. She loved it so much. She's such a joy to watch. So today was my best day so far. Toying with the idea of phoning the hospital to see if there is any news on my date. Should I tempt fate? Hyacinth

15th April 2009. Hi everyone, hope you've had a lovely Easter, embrasing the new season. What have I been up to, well let me tell you. So far i'm sticking to my plan. I'm still religiously going to water aerobics every Tuesday morning, and Tai chi every Saturday. I've now joined the gym, done my induction on Tuesday evening, then spent a little time after trying out some of the equipment. Still motivated, praise God. I introduced both tai chi and the gym to my god daugher, so she comes along with me. She's loving it too. When of my cousins has decided she'd like to join me at tai chi due to the health benefits. Great! I't makes it so much more fun having friends and family participating. Do note though, I would still be going along if I didn't have any company. When I'm at water aerobics, I find it enjoyable and feel like I've had a full 1 hour work out. I find though that I'm having problems with my calfs and the soles of my feet. I really hope this will be sorted out at some stage as it also affects my tai chi sessions. I have so many health issues to overcome. Honestly, I think this is probably why I'm depressed some times, not that most people notice. I find it difficult to do anything physical, lack of energy and stamina. All I seem to do is pop pills every day for blood pressure, what a cocktail, for my diabetese. remembering to take my inhaler for my asthma, and meds for my cholestrial. to name but a few. I've not worked this year at all so for the first time, I feel dependent on others. My poor husband is having to take the finacial strain. I do feel sorry for him. I've had to ask for help from my brother, he pays for my tai chi sessions. I was on a fairly good income, now our household income has been cut by half. lots of changes. Its stressful. My younger sister has been getting on my wick these past few months. Despite explaining what I'm going through, she still trys to make life difficult for me. Forever applying pressure and demanding more from me than I can give right now. Between us, we both look after my mother who has dementia. I don't live too far from my mum. My sister lives on the same road as my mum. My niece and nephew ages 19 and 26 both live with my mum. As a family we agreed that we would allocate specific days when we'd take turns to support mum, ie. provide meals, feed and personal hygiene. That's started out fine. Of the five of my siblings, only my sister and I took on the most of the responsibilities. My younger brother provides mums meal for Thursdays and spends time with her. Family members are always in and out of the house daily. I spent 4 years cooking a varied menue every week for my mum, ensuring it had nutritional value. I would travel from work every evening (2 hours journey), stop off and doing some food shopping for my mum in addition to her normal weekly shop, reach my mums about 9pm and cook till about midnight, wash and dress my mum for bed and keep her company. She's a good laugh and great to talk to. I would prepare food for 7 days of the week. My husband helped out my bring her evening meals at the week end and feed her too. This year I was told that I had some slight damage to my heart, my kidneys have gotten worse and my blood pressure has raisen. Both bp and diabetese are not controlled well. It was evident that I need to rest some what, and not put too much pressure on my self. I explained this to my sister, she appeared fine at first. After all, my daughter helped me out by going to my mums on my behalf and carrying out any tasks I ask her to do. I continue to send meals to my mum and my husband still feeds her at the week end. All medical needs are sorted by me. I have difficulty walking and depend heavily on my husband or daughter to transport me to most places. Yet she had the audacity to accuse me of looking after my gran daughter (who live with me by the way) and neglecting my mum. I love my mum very much and have always pushed myself in order to care for her. All I asked is to just give me a little time, while I try and help myself improve my health so that I'm better prepared to take on the responsibilities for my mum. Unlike the rest of us, my sister is being paid to care for my mother at the weekends; and without much notice wanted to take a weekend off. I find her attitude so selfish. She need to plan and arrange for someone to cover in advance, she dose not think so. Oh gosh, she just adds to my stress. I've still not heard as to when my surgery will be. I thought they would have sent me out a letter by now, specially as they've said I should have my pre assessment in May. I don't understand what's going on. If I've not heard by next week, I'm going to call again. I'm trying to stay focused. Hope to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Written 4th April 2009 Well folks I attended my first ever counselling session yesterday (Friday 3rd April). Interesting, talked about my feelings re. the soon to be up and coming surgery, a bit about myself, my life to be precise. Also, the fact that I do have some reservations about opening up to people about things that I feel deeply about. Talked a little about the death of my father - losing him and the impact it had on me; how I handle stress; and more importantly, WLS do I feel like i've made the choice or was the decision made for me. It was good to talk but the jury's out at the moment. I've another appointment in 2 weeks. The counsellor asked me what I hoped to get from counselling sessions, I don't think I told him what he wanted to hear. I concluded that I am self sufficient and counselling was at the bottom of my list, in terms of all the other departments I have to visit with regards to my health. He suggested that perhaps I just needed to offload and have someone listen. This may well be true. I explained that I decided on counselling when it was first decided that WLS was the way I had to go. At the time I was terrified, anxious and scared. Those feelings have subsided since visiting this site/forum (TT) everyday. I've learn't so much and I now look forward to being post op. and getting well. On another note, I went to tai chi today. 2nd session. This time I had no friends to go with,they all (3) had reasons they could'nt attend today. Normally I'd use that as an excuse to say I'm not going alone. Not this time. Off I went all by myself and enjoyed it even more than the first time. I'm back to water aerobics on Tuesday, unfortunately this clashes with my hospital appointment for my blood pressure, i'm going to see if I can change that as I don't wont to miss out on my water aerobics. I also thinking of taking up something to deal with my arms and tummy. Mybe the gym or I saw at the centre classes for arms, tums and bums lol. Anyway, I'm keeping on track. See you later.