Good morning! It's been a few days since I've posted on how I'm doing. One word: GOOD! I have been raised to Good... oh thank you Lord for helping me through this!!
I don't think there has been any surgery worse for pain than this one. I'm kinda just a big baby when it comes to that. I have a very high tolerance for pain, so when I say something hurts its pretty bad. I also hate for anything to hold me back. Good thing: I've been released for some light exercise. I think I'll start on my exercise bike today. Very slow, no resistance... but I just want to get my legs moving. I can tell they are ready... they've been screaming at me. I do get that weird restless leg syndrome if I go too long without workouts... haha! And no, I'm not really kidding, it's the truth.
The reason I've decided to do what I'm doing is I really did have a lot of residual fat on my knees and thighs. I don't have good knees and with so much fat there it really held me back in my running workouts. I can't tell you how much I love doing that, and once I'm all healed I will be able to run like the wind. I will be complete free from anything that ever held me back before. I know 100% that I will feel outside, and most importantly on the inside that my journey has been completed. Gimme that trophy... I HAVE WON!!! I'd also like to say that it really made a difference in the way my pants fit. They'd always have a gap in my waist, the hips would fit fine but my thighs would be so tight. It made me feel I looked ugly in my clothes, even after losing all this weight.
It is never been my intention to get waste away skinny. That's why at even my weight I've decided to slow it down. I know that no matter what my body will settle in where it wants, but seeing others in my family, we are either very very thin or very very thick. I just want to be normal. Is there anything wrong with that?
Thank you all so much for listening to me about this. You all have been such an amazing support for me in all aspects of my journey. Even when I was doing serious research on the sleeve and praying to GOD that I wasn't making a SECOND mistake on WLS. Can you even imagine the mind games something like that plays on you? Especially when even from your very own surgeon it was always made out to be MY fault I couldn't succeed with my Band? *sigh* Well now that I'm skinny and super fit... I know that's simply not true.
I'm not even planning anything else beyond what I'm doing now. My Hubby doesn't even care about any of this. He loved me at 330+ Lbs, and he still loves me now. He just has always wanted for me to see in the mirror what he sees every day. That's the hardest part I think of all of this. Loving me for ME... What I'm saying is, he loves me the way I am. Always has and always will. Now I have to love me the way I am.
Anyway, next Friday is the last stop. Now that the pain is minimal and I don't look like I got run over by a Mack Truck... and even the swelling is starting to go away - I think I'm ready for it!! I don't expect the pain that I got on this past one. Besides, those areas aren't as sensitive either. I don't really have as much fat to be removed on the outter thigh and a little in my waist. I'd say they'd probably remove another 3 Liters which is more than others, but nothing like the 5 Liters + on this last removal.
Wow, I must be one tough chick because if I were reading this on the other side, I'd probably need to drink some JD just to soak that in.
Hahaaa!!!
Blessings everyone. Make ALL your dreams come true. Because it's YOUR life... and you deserve to be completely happy. Always.