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This is a poem wrote by Rosie Dehli, I heard this on the PBS documentary last night and its everything I feel and gives me more courage to finially go through with surgery. Hope everyone will enjoy! Rosie's Poem: I Want To Live < Meet the Characters: Rosie Dehli To whom it may concern: I want to live. I want to be healthy. I want energy. I want to be in control. I want to walk without pain and stand without pain. I want normal legs that are not swollen. I want normal ankles and feet that are not swollen. I want to sleep comfortably at night without pain in my legs, feet and hips. I want to be able to sleep a good night's sleep. I want to have no pain in my back from the load that is on the front. I want to have energy to do what normal people do. I want to be able to walk...and walk with my daughter. I want to be able to walk up stairs. I want to be able to get out of a chair...and be able to sit in any chair and not worry that it is going to break. I want to sit on the floor and play with my grandchildren...and get up again. I want to tie my shoes and put on panty hose. I want to know that the seat belt will fit. I want to be able to entertain people in my home without having my body ache for days afterwards. I want to be able to clean my house and do my chores like normal people do. I want to go on a trip with my husband and not worry about being tired and so very scared that I won't be able to make it. I want to be able to stand up in church without pain. I want to dance. I want people to look at me and see the best part of me, not the fat. I want to see acceptance on peoples faces when I walk into a room...and never again feel the pain of rejections and disgust and inferred weakness of will. I want to not be the butt of jokes about my size. I want to be close to people and not be afraid to give them the best of me. I want to FINALLY be successful in this lifetime battle. I don't want to fail again. .......I want to be healthy............I want to have energy.......... .............................I want to be in control.............................. ......................I WANT TO LIVE...................... help me.... please!joys.

I have been planning to get the surgery this year when I found out I was pregnant...Great! I am happy, but I am WAY to big to be caring this baby...I have 2 other children and I was much smaller when I had them, I am finding this very challenging plus I had such great hopes of getting the surgery. I was hoping to go to the tlbc to get it done. Does anyone know how long of a wait to talk to a doctor. I have my baby in Feb. and want to get right in. I really can't wait to get this weight off!

I have the same situation as you...I have a lot of dept..I could very well add this surgery to my dept, I will feel more comfortable if we were in a better financial situation. I eat, sleep dream and pray that I will win the lottery, even if I could win the 16,000 I would be happy...I guess it will all happen when the time is right...I definitly will pass any information I recieve, maybe we should get a ticker to see who is closer to paying off their dept! HA HA

Hi Dawn, Im not banded yet, I sure will be interested in seeing more reply's to your question. Your situation sounds exactly like mine.

lferland, wow 41lbs, you must feel so awesome. I haven't been banded yet, you both are an inspiration

Argon, congratulations on your weight loss...I've been reading a lot of your posts and threads and you sound very inspirational and real.

I did see most of it as well, I loved the part where the grandmother was reading from her computer... I not sure if it was her own personal journal or something else, but she describes exactly how I feel everyday. It was a very good documentary.

so, you can feel the port outside of your body? ahhhh, is it uncomfortable? P.S. Green sorry about your liver and your brother.

Hello bansters, I haven't been banded yet...I have lots of research to do....I would love to know what happens if you just feel the urge to PIG OUT? Or maybe that urge is gone being banded...I know If I had WILLPOWER I could diet and get rid of my weight......but I don't have any willpower AT ALL!!!!!!!! So I guess what I'm asking is does it feel like being on a diet or is it just natural after being banded. (hope that makes sense:ermm )

I am still at the point of research...how long did you research before you made this decision.....Good luck with your surgery, I will definitly watch your thread for your results...you must be so excited!

Thanks....wow thanks for the advice

I have been over weight most of my life, and I have been thinking about my options lately...I have lots of questions and I live about 4 hours from the tbnc I would love to go for a consultation, but I still don't know if this is what I should be doing. I am also concerned about cost...nothing I have been reading talks about the cost, does OHIP cover any costs, I don't want to get my hopes up to only realize that I can't afford this....

Do you eat normal, example do you eat like the food guide suggests?

I have been over weight most of my life, and I have been thinking about my options lately...I have lots of questions and I live about 4 hours from the tbnc I would love to go for a consultation, but I still don't know if this is what I should be doing. I am also concerned about cost...nothing I have been reading talks about the cost, does OHIP cover any costs, I don't want to get my hopes up to only realize that I can't afford this....