intelirish

[font=Calibri][size=2]So today 9/6/13 I took another first step towards the rest of my life and my goal to be healthy fit and mobile. I look forward to meeting that energetic fun loving person I was 15plus years in the past. I'm not sure how I lost her but now I have not only a plan and a map but will soon have the tools to keep me on my journey. Not to who I was but rather to who I know I can be. A slightly older not necessarily wiser healthier version of ME…[/size][/font]

[font=Calibri][size=2]Things I need to over come.[/size][/font][list]
[*][size=2]Self doubt - I know I can do this.. Mantra of the century just keep repeating [/size]

[*][size=2]Hunger - accept and realize that to be hungry is ok. I do not have to fill that gap with the first thing I find… usually something from the gas station.[/size]

[*][size=2]Self doubt - did I mention self doubt some where along my travels over the last 15yrs I have lost my confidence… looking back I can see it slowly slip away as the pounds increase…. I KNOW I CAN DO THIS….[/size]

[*][size=2]Ignoring public commentary - I have not kept it quite that I'm 13days from being banded.. When asked why on earth… can't you just diet etc… I respond with if you god forbid where diagnosed with some disease and where offered a surgical remedy would you not say yes?[/size]

[*][size=2]Remembering obesity is a disease - .. The impacts on my life both physical health and mental health are serious.. Action must be taken.[/size]

[*][size=2]Self doubt ---- see above…[/size]
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[font=Calibri][size=2]I am my own worst downfall I pay way to much attention to the small spiteful voice in there going you did this to your self.. Well yes I did but what has been done can be undone through discipline. Something I have truly lacked nothing holding me accountable..[/size][/font]

[font=Calibri][size=2]On 9/16/13 through the careful placement of the lapband I will be forever more accountable to myself and to no other. [/size][/font]