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I just don't see this ever happening for me, I really don't. its just so painful and it isn't easing up yes its only been a week and people heal differently but I am weak and cant take it. I just want to be better, I thought I was doing something good something that would help me and I feel like I got just the opposite.

I am home and I am just not having a good experience with this lap band surgery at all. yes I know it takes time but I just don't feel any end in sight with this pain and throwing up. I go to the doctors tomorrow for week post-op appointment and I am just going to tell him I want this outta me take it out burn it and I don't ever want to feel this pain again ever. I am that through with it. I have terrible luck and this seems to have been whammied from the start. I am so over it! this has taken all my effort and energy and attention and I cant have that with five young kids and a husband I'm tired I just cant win this one I want out of the lap band life.

I am part of a horror story. to this very second I am still crying I cant sleep I cant take in any fluids I was banded ok 10/9 everything went well while in the hospital I stayed an extra hour cause I throw up a tiny bit of fluid but stayed an extra hour just in case. I was out of the hospital by 4:30 home by 5:00 and calling the doctor back by 1pm the next day totally dehydrated hurting sick as a dog I was throwing up all night the gut retching ones that sound demonic. I was then ordered back into the hospital for 2 days was out yesterday by 2pm and I am now going through the same damn thing. I don't want to go back into the hospital but I don't want to die from this this is the worst thing (other then labor) that has ever happened to me. I cant take anything by mouth its been 5 damn days I am thirsty I cant be a mother and I cant be a wife all I can be is sick this isn't what I signed up for. after the fact I was told that this happens to 1 out of 50 people guess I should play the lottery I am the one lucky one. this is terrible now all I want is this thing outta me and to go back to normal the way I use to be fat and happy with no sickness. I feel like this will never end I have just about lost it. I taken all the classes and got all the information and the pros and cons of everything I was ready but I wasn't ready for this. now all I can do is throw up in my hospital basin, cry from the pain. and hear everyone else's voices in the family wishing mom would get better. I don't have time for this BS. I need help

do you have a facebook? or email? you can find me on fb here ---> https://www.facebook.com/sofielderin talk with you soon. Erin

looking for someone that I can take this journey with that is going through the same thing around the same time as myself. my surgery date is 10/7. today marks my protein tracking, multivitamin taking and filling out the daily journal. tonight marks my first support group meeting. I wanted to find a buddy to keep each other on track.

Y'all are so right! I just gotta stop it!! get over what ever it is!!!...and keep truck'n along. thanks y'all time to dust off the treadmill thanks a bunch both y'all.

October 7th and it can't come fast enough. have a real hard time with the pre diet before the 10 day liquid diet gained 6 lbs. I just hate myself right now and cant get myself to get the ball rolling. now that I'm finally here I am screwing it up big time. I wish I could kick myself in the butt. I try to talk myself into getting on with the walks or get on the treadmill. I'm not a lazy person at all, wish I had Chris Powell to train me! but I don't...how do I get in the game and start this right. I got to get these 6 lbs. back off before the 10 day diet. I just hate myself grrrr

ugh I cant find your story. I'm scared not about going but about how it will be after. I will follow the diet they gave me and I have a doc here to do fills is there anything else I should know or what I should do to prep myself. I go 9/3/13 and have to be on the per op diet for 3 day before surgery. if you get there and get your blood work finished is there anything else to do other then sit in the hotel and count down the minutes and seconds till your wheeled into the OR. thank you for any and all info.

everyday growing up was a struggle, each and everyday I had to face not only kids in school , teachers (yes teachers), strangers, and yup family members I was the youngest of 5 kids and my life was hell every single damn day. I gotta say I must be made of steel for me to still be sitting here. I don't like to toot my own horn but ......toot friggin toot in every jerk off that went outta there way to make my life not worth living each and everyday.... may God have mercy on you. p.s I know this isn't what you asked for but I just cant bring myself to relive all the nasty things that were done to me. may you all find inner peace.

Newalla here!!! and will be getting my fills from dr.keith..

Oh ok i'm a 37.3 good luck with the diet sending positive vibes ur way.

Oh ok i'm a 37.3 good luck with the diet sending positive vibes ur way.