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I bought my bowflex revolution and it had instructions. In fact the best instructions that I have EVER seen to put something together. Call and see if you can get some instructions or look on the website and see if they have some downloadable ones.

jm, are you remembering not to do two machines back to back AGAIN???? You are doing great. You will make it. Keep it up!!!

Oh god, JC, thank you!!!!! That was so great!!! You are great in more ways than one!!

Oh my, if I hadn't been feeling a bit better since last night, I definitely would of today reading this!!! I loved the *it rubs the lotion on and puts it in the basket*....that was my worst nightmare show of all times. FOR YEARS!!!!! I am still a bit freaked by it!! Okay, for inquiring minds, here we go. This weekend my older brother, Doug, called me. He didn't know that I had surgery, but my mom told him this weekend. He on the other hand, has been losing weight following a no carb diet, all salads and vegetables. Meat and no carbs, except oatmeal in the morning. He is a long haul trucker and was up to over 350. I was glad that he was doing something about his weight. I knew that he was going to die soon if he didn't. Our dad passed away in 1998 of a massive heart attack at age 58. My dad had his first heart attack at age 40. Cards are stacked against us. Ok, back to brother story. So, he calls and says, he has lost over a hundred pounds!! I am so happy for him, and he says he has bought a bike!!!! We talk about biking for quite awhile. Then he asks me why I didn't feel like I could tell him that I had surgery. He tells me he is my brother and I can tell him anything. WELL,(this is where it all began ladies and gentlemen) I SAY.......(and I don't have a fuckin' clue where this even came from), I didn't want you to think that I took the easy way out where you are doing by yourself. THERE!! JUST LIKE THAT! THAT AWEFUL SENTENCE THAT I JUST WROTE WAS WHAT CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH!!!!!!!!!! WTF?????? Where did that come from????? I can't even believe I said it myself. I am sitting there in disbelief!!! WHAT?!?!?!? Why the hell would I say something like this???????? Story moves on.... My brother proceeds to tell me the reason that he can do it on his own is because he and Dave(my other brother) were raised by dad and that I was raised my mom. Dad taught them to be self sufficient and strong and if they want something then to go out and get it and get it done. Then he gives me an analogy....That's why me and Dave have lots of tools, if we have something that needs to be done, we have the tools to do it, we don't have to go asking around and borrowing stuff to do a job, we already have the tools. We are self sufficient. Story moves on...... When DH gets home from work, I tell him what happened and what was said. I hits me as I am telling him that what my brother was telling me was that I am weak and he is strong that is why I had to resort to having surgery to fix my problem. I can't concentrate on anything else and I keep thinking about what came out of my mouth and what came out of his mouth. The rest of Saturday I am upset and can't quite thinking about it. Sunday, DH and I fight most of day, and now I am sure it was because I was mad, hurt and pissed at what my brother said to me, but didn't really put two and two together. Monday comes and I am having a hard time dealing with myself. I can hardly stand to look at myself in the mirror. At this point I am more self pitying myself that anything. I just keep thinking about WHY THE FUCK I WOULD SAY WHAT I SAID TO MY BROTHER. Why did I say "the easy way out????" I can't figure it out, at all. I am sinking, it feels into something that I can not get out of. Self hatred is worse than other people hating you. Monday night, I sit and watch t.v. all night. I HATE t.v. I hate sitting and doing nothing. I am numb and don't even care anymore, because, I am weak after all. I am a fucking weakling. I can't even go on a diet and lose weight without help. I am weak person. That is all that goes through my mind. I start to ponder why I am feeling like this. Why I said that? I think of possibilities of why I might have said what I said. Did I say it to make him look better than me? Did I say it because I KNEW he would say something to that affect, so I wanted to say it first, so I wouldn't get mad at him for saying it? Did I say it because it is true?????( this is the one that really had me feeling the worst. Is it true that is really is the easy way out and I have convinced myself that it is not the easy way out?????) Then I think about what he said to me...about why he could do it on his own because he was raised by dad.....what the fuck???? That is the stupidest thing I think I have ever heard. What a self righteous fucker!!! Fuck that and fuck him. If he thinks he is STRONGER because of that then fuck him. He has NO fucking idea what is feels like to diet when you are fucking 11 years old!!!!!! I have been dieting since 1981, and I am NOT going to let him or anyone else make me feel like this anymore. So the story goes on.... Even though I know all of this Tuesday comes and I still am feeling pretty weak. I am not the same person and don't have the same thoughts. I call the clinic to see if I can get in sooner than Sept. 10. School starts again on the 28th and I want to have some restriction before I go into long days and nights of studying and winter is coming. The nurse says "what do you need to come in for"...I thought I was going to fly throught the phone and rip her heart out......WHAT IN THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I NEED TO COME IN FOR???????????? God, I was self pay and have a years worth of fills, I will come in whenever the hell I want too!!!! Jessssuuuuuuuusss people, I am on a hormonal rage here..... Dh comes home from work on Tuesday night and I am sleeping away my pain in the lazy boy and he says, "get your ass up now and lets go for a ride"....well, that pissed me off too...but I got up and then STARTED TO JUST SOB.....I CRIED AND CRIED AND we talked about all of it over and over again and he made me see that I am not weak. I am NOT weak. I am a strong person and a weak person would of continued on doing what I was doing and eating myself into oblivion and not cared about what was happening. He made me realize that I was not the weak one, but he(brother) was for having to make excuses for why he could do it on his own and I couldn't. And not that I don't want my brother to keep his weight off, because I do, I do love him, but I know all too well, how no carbing it is. It can only last so long, and then as soon as you start eating carbs, it all goes to hell.... So, that is what has been happening in my world, and today I woke up and felt like a brand new person. I am me, and I am NOT weak!!!!

pain BELOW their sternum???? I was awakened last night in a panic attack!! My stomach, below my sternum, was in terrible pain. Enough pain that it felt to me like my band had come undone and was stabbing my other internal organs and causing them to leak. I went to the bathroom and sat down and got that feeling like when you are going to throw up...all light headed and dizzy and started sweating profusely!! I was soooo scared. The pain was unbearable...I grabbed my phone to call 911 and then I woke up hubby. I had some suppositories that the doctor had given me in case I ever felt nausea so I wouldn't throw up. I went to the cupboard and got them and put one in. My stomach was in so much pain.... It felt like someone was stabbing me!!! I tried walking around with hands in the air...my whole stomach was hard as a rock...well, not the whole stomach just where the pain was....I did eventually get some relief with laying with my head down and butt up in the air....passed some very bad gas and then all of a sudden it was gone!!!:faint::faint::faint::faint::faint: WTH???? Has anyone experienced this kind of thing. I don't have ANY idea what it was other than some bad gas, but come on....STABBING STOMACH PAINS...I wanted to rip my stomach open and rip the band out so it would quit hurting. I don't have a fill... any ideas???? Thanks, Deanna

Tuesday 14th a.m. bowflex strength training p.m. 11 mile bike ride

Monday. Nothing.

Hi all, I am here and have been reading. Sorry I haven't posted. I am a bit down and don't really feel like the same. I really don't know why, but will let you know when I am out of this slump I am in.

I would also love to see it BUT, I think there are sooo many LB'ers that DON'T exercise that it would probably be taken the wrong way. I think that some people will NEVER exercise. I don't know what the solution is, if there is one!! Gosh, I just wished that everyone could see the major impacts that it has on your life.

I am happy that you are getting a new band. What a wonderful thing!!!! You are on your way back to bandland!!! Rest and let us know how it all went!!

Sunday the 12th of August a.m. 28 miles bike ride......WHEW!!!

JC, you are the man to do it though. Look what you have accomplished already in your life!!! You are being put to the test and you will come out on top!!! Good thoughts are with you!!! I know you must be greatly disappointed but certainly a man who has done what you have done will succeed no more what the cost!!!

That is really weird. I did not type every word capital, it just came out that way

Jm, Never Do Two Machines Back To Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woohoooo we are all so happy!!! It is great to read all of the things from others and think, yeah, that for me too!!!! I love being able to get on the floor and sit and not worry the whole time how in the heck I am going to get up. I just do it!!

How about Diet Center....CHICKEN BREASTS GALORE!!!! I remember my mom doing this and I was 11. I wanted to do it too. I remember going EVERY SINGLE DAY to get weighed, and taking those humongous pills. Oh boy, what a time that was!!

Now there is something to think about....better than Lance!!!! I like it!!! LOL...

Saturday August 11th a.m. mowed the lawn, picked up crap...LOL....sorry doggy pooh! About an hours worth of sweating!!! p.m. no ride tonight, but one mile walk around our block, not a fast sweat breaking walk, just a leisure walk with hubby!!

HP, you know what? I think no matter how far we come with exercise, we will always think we need improvement!! I know, that every time I go out, I think, wow, I should be riding 50 miles every night. So, its now just you who thinks that about yourself, and I personnally think that you are doing GREAT!!! Wouldn't that be fun if we all lived by each other. That would be a kick ass time. BG, you are the champ!!! WTG for beating your time. THAT is what it is all about right there!!!! J, I bet you are enjoying some time with your daughter right now. I loved the growing food comment. I think I will use it too!!! JC, I hope you got some rest and are thinking a little clearer today. I totally agree with BG, you have come so far and have worked so hard, that you can do this. It is what you have done for yourself that is making this work. You do work your ass off, and you will continue too now. You are a great inspiration to us all and we are all here pulling for you. Maybe the doctor is always like that, maybe that is his "bedside" manner. Chin up dude!!!

There are exceptions to the rule, but most smokers DO NOT, WILL NOT AND CAN NOT exercise. Like I said, not all smokers are non exercisers, but for the most part, they don't. That is why it is to your benefit to NOT smoke!!

Hey come look through the exercise threads!!! They are great and inspirational. I know that I want to not only lose my weight within a year but also to look good afterward. I am not about to lose that much weight and not work on my muscles. I workout hard and I love it. I am now thinking of getting into some running. I bike about 100 miles a week and love it, absolutely love it!!!!! There is no better high than riding around seeing everything breathing in fresh air and feeling your muscles working at maximum potential. In fact, today I am off on another 32 mile ride!!!! Yea me!!

My husband keeps telling me he can't keep his hands off of me!! I love hearing this!!! I tell him, "you have always been like that though" He tells me it is different now though. I am almost the weight I was when we got married, so maybe he is seeing that!! I don't know, but I LOVE ALL THE ATTENTION!!!!

If I had not had the lap band, I would be laying in bed, trying to drum up enough energy to just get up and get dressed. I hated that the most. It seemed like such a choir to even shower!!!! I love my band!!

JC, I am sure that you know that any of us are here for you anytime!! I am sure that what he said will come back to you or you could call and have the nurse tell you again. I am sure you are numb and right now you are in shock! Rest, rest and rest some more...please..

I was getting charley horses A LOT before surgery. Almost nightly!!! But since banding, I have not had one!!! That, I am glad of!! Good luck in finding the culprit and solving the problem!!