Shante92

So I went in to get my surgery today! Whoop whoop! How exciting right?! Well how about they woke me up and said they can't complete the procedure because the anatomy of my body isn't normal. They said that my stomach is under my chest and that they say couldn't get to it! I'm so devastated. I'm sliced all open and I'm going home as if my liver was too big when I did everything right! I tried so hard on that liquid diet. They were talking about referring me to Birmingham because he feels that they can do it because they're better equipped, but I'm debating if I still even want it. I'm going through all of this pain for nothing and what if even they can't do it.. Then it's twice for nothing. Ugh I'm so hurt.

I have my surgery in 2 days and I've been trying to get to this surgery date since November. I haven't told anyone that I'm having surgery, but my mom started broadcasting that I'm having surgery soon. People are starting to approach and ask what I'm having surgery on and what for and all I know to say is on my stomach. I really don't want to tell anyone because I don't want people to think I'm just taking the easy way out. I'm 20 years old and I've been obese all of my life (morbidly obese since the 5th grade) and I've NEVER lost weight out all of the things I've tried. I literally can't fathom losing weight on my own... Anyway, does anyone know what I can tell people I'm having surgery for without having to tell the real reason. Really don't want that judgment, especially in this small town. I know people are going to judge anyway, but I went through enough explaining with my family and I know how others outside of family (and of a smaller size) could not be so understanding. And it's really not anyone's business, but I don't want to be rude when people 'act' like they're concerned about me going on that operation table.

How do you guys handle giving yourselves a shot. Is it pretty simple? I start the blood thinner shots tomorrow and I've never fathomed giving myself a shot once, let alone for 10 days. I'm thinking about going to my mom's everyday and let her do it.

The doctors and supporters never really spoke about the pain afterwards, but I've gone under the knife before so I assumed it would be about the same... But as I read, I see how so many are talking about the pain and I'm scared now. Lol anyone know the best ways to rid that pain? I heard some people try a lot of things and none of them help, but only time gets rid of it. I thought I was already prepared mentally, but I might have a little more mind-prepping to do.

Most of the time, the hunger is in my head, but what I really don't understand is how come I can have a protein shake and not have one piece of meat per day when that's just protein? Will that really hurt and cause that ole liver of mine not to shrink?

I started the liquid diet today to shrink my liver. I don't know how I'm going to survive 10 days without eating anything.