Melissa S

Sandra... if we are going by your measures... I most certainly need a fill!!! I'm able to eat a whole can of tuna and about 4 triscuits too!! Fill is scheduled for Wednesday... just a bit though.. I dont want to confine myself to a life of clear liquids and thin soups! So get this one... I had a lazy day today.. slept until 9am...showered and went to my moms... threw dinner into a crock pot and laid around watching movies with my daughter (all the while munching on cheetos and chocolate chip cookies my daughter made... hey.. out of my obligation as a mother.. I had to try them).... I was feeling a bit food guilty so I went upstairs to weigh (normally I weigh in the morning) and I was down a pound.. only 1 more pound to my first mini goal!!!

Scale did not move..at all! Oh well... at least I didnt gain!!

I'm on my way over to my moms to weigh in... wish me luck!

WAY TO GO ON THE SIZE 12!!!! Thats GREAT!!!

Good morning! Guess what guys and gals?!?! I FINALLY MADE IT TO THE GYM!!! This morning I got up early and went to the gym... did 25 min. on the elliptical then came home and walked the dog... on my way to getting back on track!

My weekness is doritos. LOVE them... I allow myself one serving per week... if I'm good..and don't cheat! HAHA.. But yes.. put down the bag!!! GRAB THE WATER!!!

Manatee.... LOOKIN GOOD!! You guys know.. I did laundry for 3 hours yesterday and I'm STILL not done!!!

Weazer... Thats WONDERFUL!!! I'm only 2lbs away from dropping that "morbid" word FOR GOOD!

I know exactly how you feel Laura... and its hard to describe that feeling of wanting to look better than ... whoever.. almost like a personal victory for your self esteem!

Sandra- So far I've gotten in 32 ounces of Water... I'm gonna go get a big glass of Crystal Light... which would be about another 16 ounces... My brother in law went home last night...and I have LOADS of laundry to catch up on.... Restriction came out of no where today.. I had about a cup or so of homemade bean and ham soup..and I was stuffed. I think I need to start adding more Beans into my diet.... I do remember being fuller when I was on that baked bean/FF refried bean kick.

down another 2 lbs.... slowly but surely!

UGH! I have to wait until 1/16 for a fill!!!!

Count me in! I'm gonna put a call into my Dr's office today for a fill..

Just got off the phone with my friend (the one who's daughter committed suicide in Oct)... its as if she can sense when things arent quite right with me. She said she just had a bit of a meltdown also, called another friend of hers..cried it out and felt better...turned on the TV to see that the movie Overboard was coming on (BIG joke between her and I... she looks exactly like Goldie Hawn..and in passings by at work I used to always sing songs from that movie to her)... she said thats when she knew she had to call me. We chatted a bit, I told her everything that has been going on..that I started meds again and was feeling better...she made me promise to call her the second I start to feel down again. It was very comforting to talk with her.. I really am feeling alot better... thanks for all the kind words these past few days!!

Thank you Sandra.. I've talked with her a bit more about it...and told her once things calm down a bit we will re-evaluate the situation and go from there. I'm starting to feel better... meds are working... Husband is still getting on my nerves but at least now I can tolerate him! NSV!! NSV!! NSV!! This morning I got out of the shower...and could fit the entire shower towel (regular size) around me!!! I called my husband in to see... he didnt seem nearly as thrilled with it as I was.. oh well.... We're off to Dave and Busters with the kids... Everyone have a great Sunday!

Metal- I wish I could say things were going better but they are not. My husband and I got into a huge fight last night...and what does he say to me?? To "snap out of it..and get over it"... I would never say that about his PTSD or tell him to get over everything he saw in Iraq. Needless to say I didnt sleep well..and I was in a slump all day today at work. I need advise.. I found out last night that my 12 year old daughter was thinking of having sex!!! I freaked out and told her that she is not to see her boyfriend anymore. Did I over react??? I think she's been growing up way too fast... and I told her it needs to slow down. What do I do?!?!?!

Mini- isnt it a great feeling to get into something you've bought in the past saying "someday I'll wear this"..... I've done it many times...and its a great feeling when it finally happens... just wait until that shirt gets too big!!! MandyJo- I was diagnosed bipolar about 5 years ago.. I've been on so many meds I've lost count.. and the side effects... wow.. sometimes I'd rather be depressed!!! I gained 60 lbs in 2 months, lost most of my hair (more so than with weight loss), my hands shook something awful... so with help and support from my Dr, we got down to just taking Wellbutrin with the understanding that if my moods get unstable I will take my other meds along with it. But after getting the band I was so sick of meds..and tired of having to crush them all.... and the taste of a crushed pill... ugh! Anyhow.... I do suggest talking to your Dr about how you've been feeling... just keep in mind.. no one med works for all... it may take a while before finding the right one! Thanks for the kind words ladies... I'm on day 2 of Wellbutrin... usually by day 3 I start feeling a difference.....

another meltdown tonight... Just cant shake it this time...I found my wellbutrin... Gonna go back on it.

Metal- Don't ya just LOVE those complements? I agree.. some outfits look better than others but NO outfit is good enough to hide 60lbs?!?!?! She's just jealous!!

um.. not sure what happened to the post.. haha.. sorry!

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Happy Holidays everyone!! Glad to see everyone is doing well... and NOT GAINING OVER THE HOLIDAYS!! ... that was my goal.. not to gain. So far so good.. I had several major meltdowns yesterday... depression is kicking in something fierce. My grandfather passed away back in 2003...and going to my grandmoms house for Xmas without him there is always a rough time.. add in TOM (aahh.. yes, mother natures cruel Xmas present) and PRESTO!!! Instant meltdown time for Melissa.. I'm still trying to snap out of it.. but its been really rough this time around. So far I've held it together today.. I had off and me and my 15 year old brother in law went out to lunch and to a couple stores..and now we are back at the house making dinner. No water today.. nothing "good for me" .... just trying to make it thru the day.... BTW... anyone get anything good for Xmas? I got a new Ipod (can't wait to take it to the gym) and some gift cards (which I used some of one of them today to buy new pots and pans...)

well.... heres the new hair... for the 2nd day in a row... I got my water in!!!

Sandra- I did it... I got ALL my water in yesterday!! And can someone explain to me WHY on my days off (Sundays and Wednesdays) I'm up at 5am and cant sleep?!?!?! UGH!!

I know what you mean about the pics... but I'm sure you looked great! I tried again to take pics of my new hair... but didnt work out so well.... I'll try again this weekend.