BekahC79

Thanks for the input everyone. I appreciate your (mostly lol) kind words. I finally got my primary doc to call in a liquid script for my Prozac. He was supposed to do it before and kept not doing, and I ended up being off it for a week. So I'm sure my roller coaster emotions are due in part to that. I really want this to work for me. I'll just be so glad when I can finally start getting fills so that I don't get so distracted by the hunger. It's so much harder for me to make good decisions when my stomach is growling. And on that note, I think I'll go grab a protein shake!

I am 1 week post-op today. And it has been nothing like I thought. From the IMMENSE pain where my port is, to being HUNGRY! Like hungry, hungry hippo hungry! What?!? Plus when I weighed myself this morning, I'm thinking ok, one week out, 2 days w/ virtually no calories and then the next 5 days averaging about 750 cals a day, this oughta be good, right? What loss do I see? 1.4 lbs! What what?!? Are you kidding me?!? All the pain and misery for that?? I've lost more from having a good BM! So I threw in the towel. I gave up. I did what I know and do best and that is go to my kitchen to find my comfort. I went right to my pantry and grabbed... a donut stick. And ate it. And felt fine. Truth is I advanced myself well beyond what the guidelines are for my timeframe. I started mashed potatoes and refried Beans at 4 days post op. I was hoping the donut stick would make me feel sick so that I would be more inclined to stay away next time I'm drawn to that nasty, sugary place, but it didn't. But anyway, I am now in the depths of despair. If I am doing this poorly on my diet at a week out, barely losing weight, am I doomed to fail? I'm afraid I made the biggest mistake of my life getting this surgery and that I won't be successful whatsover. How do I fix this? Can I fix this? Can I fix me?