My secret to success was to live in denial - really! Each time I felt the butterflies in my stomach beginning to flutter, I'd tell myself that today was an ordinary day like any other and pretend that the surgery was not going to happen. If I had to, I'd take it hour by hour. I'd tell myself, "If I can make it through this hour and I still want to back out, I can." But I'd get through the hour or day and the stress went down as I got used to pretending it wasn't going to happen. Even as I lay on the gurney in the O.R. prep room, I was thinking, "I can just get up and walk out at anytime if I want to." Knowing I had the choice made all the difference.