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Mom Lambert, Happy birthday, so glad it was a good one. Glad you feel better also that is a milestone all of us want. Congrats on the new job. You will do great. Carol

Jeni, Glad your doing so well. Keep up the good work. Time does go by fast and before you know it you will be all healed. Carol

Jeni, Sure glad you are doing so well. A shower always makes us feel so much better. Keep up the good work. Thanks for starting this months thread. Carol

Good luck on Thursday, will thinking of you.

Gwen, Sorry things have been so rough. Sounds as if thing might be coming together now. School sounds tought enough without all the other stuff. But you are a strong woman and can do it. School will be over before you know it. Keep us post on how things are going. Carol

Last night as I sat watching TV I realized that I don't have a close friend. One that you tell everything to. I keep so many things inside. Its eating me up, so I eat everything I can get my hands on. I think that why I have so much trouble in the evenings. I need to get up off my butt and do something. I'm always afraid of what people will think, so I do nothing. I don't take critism well. I'm not funny. I don't really know to talk with people. People think I'm a bitch, when in fact I'm afraid to say anything. When you have been told that your stipud, and loud you have begin to shut down and you don't talk. Once you start that process you forget how to talk with people. I always feel no one will really wants to hear what I have to said. How do I get over that. I need friendship. I have been around this web site for seven weeks and have only post a few times on the threads. I always feel no one wants to hear what I have to say. I wish I was funny, I love to read what some people write. I feel flat, like no one cares about me. So much for me and my pity party. I had a pretty good day yesterday. The calories add up so fast. I have been trying eggs for breakfast, even through I hate eggs. I found some low fat bacon bits and add some cheese, but that adds up to 300 plus calories. When you are trying to keep calorie under 1200 calories, that doesn't leave many left for the rest of the day. Maybe I'm afraid of not having food to eat. Even when I was on weight watchers I would save all my points till evening so I could eat something when I wanted to. Why do I feel it alway everything or nothing. If I mess up I give up. I have to learn to forgive myself. I guess thats one thing I have never done. I always feel everything is my fault. I never tell anyone no, not even myself. This band is going to be a real learning experience.

It will sure make family gatherings easier for everyone. Congrats to your family

Hope everyone has a great holiday weekend.

Tammyj, Sorry you're having so much trouble, but hang in there. I know you are not where you want to be ,but you have done so good. Just think where you would be without the band. I some times wonder if the urge to eat will ever just go away. The will to eat is my way of coping with everything. So I do understand. We are here and glad to be here for you.

excerise seem to a theme for all of us now. I sure miss it when I really don't have time. This has been one of those weeks. So much going on, will be glad to get back to it next week. Jeni, good luck on your boot camp next week. Everyone have a good weekend.

I have decide that I'm just lazy. Its really really hard work to lose weight and I guess I just don't want to do that kind of work. I can't eat chicken and have not for two years that goes for bread also. I have toyed with joining weight watchers again, but because I can't eat most meat I'm not sure what I would eat. I think that is part of my problem. I don't know what to eat, since most meat just doesn't want to go down. I need to make an appointment with the doctor and see how things look. I know I havn't lost a thing in a year and I know that is part of the reason I havn't been back to the doctor. Anyway I have decide that I'm just lazy in all things. I think I need a brain makeover so that I would start to think in a more postive way. Maybe I'm just depressed. Oh well tomorrow is a new day and things will look up, I hope.

I have decide that I'm just lazy. Its really really hard work to lose weight and I guess I just don't want to do that kind of work. I can't eat chicken and have not for two years that goes for bread also. I have toyed with joining weight watchers again, but because I can't eat most meat I'm not sure what I would eat. I think that is part of my problem. I don't know what to eat, since most meat just doesn't want to go down. I need to make an appointment with the doctor and see how things look. I know I havn't lost a thing in a year and I know that is part of the reason I havn't been back to the doctor. Anyway I have decide that I'm just lazy in all things. I think I need a brain makeover so that I would start to think in a more postive way. Maybe I'm just depressed. Oh well tomorrow is a new day and things will look up, I hope.

Thanks Juli for starting this months thread. Yes you are so rigth about the support that is given and receive on this board. We often need the enouragement and sometimes we just need to voice our concerns. I will take this time to thank everybody for the last two years, its been so helpful at times. Thanks for being there here when we need you all. Carol

Jeni How wonderful for you to be in a size 6. Wonder how we change the image we have in our head of how we think we look? Congrats again.

Barb, My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this trying time. Please keeps informed and we will think of you often. Carol

Do you every feel like no one understands you? Do you every feel all alone with no one at your side? Do you every feel so overwhelmed that you just want to go away some where and hid? Do you every feel like everyone you know is ashamed of you? Do you every feel like no one likes you, or wants to be with you? These are some of my feeling today and these are some of the tiggers for my wanting to eat. Now I just have to learn how to control the need to eat when these things are getting to me. I hate it when people you love hid things from you. I hate it when people you love don't share things with you. I hate when people you love don't love you back the way you want to be loved. These are some more of the trigger eating. I have learn some things in the last two years, but I still can't control my eating yet.

Do you every feel like no one understands you? Do you every feel all alone with no one at your side? Do you every feel so overwhelmed that you just want to go away some where and hid? Do you every feel like everyone you know is ashamed of you? Do you every feel like no one likes you, or wants to be with you? These are some of my feeling today and these are some of the tiggers for my wanting to eat. Now I just have to learn how to control the need to eat when these things are getting to me. I hate it when people you love hid things from you. I hate it when people you love don't share things with you. I hate when people you love don't love you back the way you want to be loved. These are some more of the trigger eating. I have learn some things in the last two years, but I still can't control my eating yet.

Hang in there Gwen. I think we all do this and is natural part of life. You will do much better this week. We will be think of you.

Here it Feb. 13th and I still at the same weight that I have been for the last serveral months. I know that I have lots of problems, but one that came to light last night is the need to control something. I have no control over so many things that I can control what I do put in my mouth. No one can tell me no. No one has to see me eat (I know everyone can till that I overeat by just looking at me.) I can eat in private, I can hide things, I can eat in the car, I can go through a drive thru and I can eat what I want. I don't want anyone telling me I can't eat. It's really the only thing I can control. The funny thing is for the last month I've been telling myself that I'm the only one that can do this. I have tried many diets and I have had lap band so far none have worked for me. I'm one that has the control to make it work. I think if I work on this maybe it will help me in the future. I know I have the control to make this work. I am in control of what I put in my mouth, no one can make me eat or make me not eat. I do all the buying and all the cooking. We really don't eat out very often. I have to start with a real effort and maybe this will work. I have to want this more than I want to eat.

Here it Feb. 13th and I still at the same weight that I have been for the last serveral months. I know that I have lots of problems, but one that came to light last night is the need to control something. I have no control over so many things that I can control what I do put in my mouth. No one can tell me no. No one has to see me eat (I know everyone can till that I overeat by just looking at me.) I can eat in private, I can hide things, I can eat in the car, I can go through a drive thru and I can eat what I want. I don't want anyone telling me I can't eat. It's really the only thing I can control. The funny thing is for the last month I've been telling myself that I'm the only one that can do this. I have tried many diets and I have had lap band so far none have worked for me. I'm one that has the control to make it work. I think if I work on this maybe it will help me in the future. I know I have the control to make this work. I am in control of what I put in my mouth, no one can make me eat or make me not eat. I do all the buying and all the cooking. We really don't eat out very often. I have to start with a real effort and maybe this will work. I have to want this more than I want to eat.

Gwen, Hang in there. We all struggle every day! You can do this, don't let one bad week, one bad day or even one bad hour determine your future. You have done so good and you know that. Have a great week. We all are here for anyone that need to say anything. Carol

I'm hanging in there. No new to report. Hope everyone else is doing good.

Tonight I'm wandering the kitchen wanting something to eat, but I'm not hungry. What do you do to get rid of these thoughts? I just hate these feelings. Its been really bad these last couple of days. Did make to the Y this morning. Walked in the river for a mile and then did the arobics class. Just need to go more often then twice a week. Thanks for listening everyone. Its really helpful knowing you guy are there. Hope everyone is doing fine.

Why do I have this over whelming desire to eat? I know I'm not hungry right now, in fact I'm very full. But at this very moment all I want to do is go fine something to eat. I know I need to redirect and do something else. So why don't I go for a walk or go do laundry? This is the sickness that I have. Why do we eat when we know we are not hungry? It would be so much simpler if we could just take that huge devil right off my shoulder. The feeling sometimes so bad it almost all consuming. This is what I thought the band would take away from me. I really believe it would take that devil and banish him forever. Yes the band make you feel full, but it does not do away with the devil inside me. I have to learn how to handle this little devil.

Why do I have this over whelming desire to eat? I know I'm not hungry right now, in fact I'm very full. But at this very moment all I want to do is go fine something to eat. I know I need to redirect and do something else. So why don't I go for a walk or go do laundry? This is the sickness that I have. Why do we eat when we know we are not hungry? It would be so much simpler if we could just take that huge devil right off my shoulder. The feeling sometimes so bad it almost all consuming. This is what I thought the band would take away from me. I really believe it would take that devil and banish him forever. Yes the band make you feel full, but it does not do away with the devil inside me. I have to learn how to handle this little devil.