carol1951

Remember its the turtle that won the race. We may not lose fast, but at least we haven't gain 30 to 40lbs either. I know that I should excerise more but I have never be into excerise. I would rather do more things, like yard work, paint a room, or read a book. I have never like to run and with my knees that is now impossible, but I do like to walk if I had someone to walk with. Just be thankful that we are on the down side of our weight not the upside. Slow be sure win everytime carol

My DH just left for his big week long camping out with his highschool buddies. I know he couldn't hardly wait to go, he tries to play it down, but I know he can't wait to get there. I just wish he would get tired of them. They have been doing this for 30+ years. I think this is the first year one of the guys is only going to be there one evening. Maybe the rest will get tire of acting like kids and grow up. I know he has fun, but after 30 years it about time to give it up. I'm alone in the house and I have so much I need to be doing, but I have yet to get started. I usually get a lot done this week, while hes out of the house. He isn't going to Canada fishing this year, this will be the first year in about 20 that he hasn't done that. He spends more time with his buddies camping and fishing then he has with me in the 37 years. I can count on one hand how many vacations we have had together. I should never have let him start all the trips, but I was busy with kids, working, and I never seem to have the vacation time. You know I always had to take time off when the kids were sick, so I never had the time for vacations. Now that I have retired from the work force you think we would go somewhere, but no we don't. I went to New York with my girlfriend in May for 4 nights and five days, of course my DH couldn't get off work. That the usually excuse that I hear a lot when I want to go some where. He always has time for his camping trips. It really hurts my feeling. I really tried to tell him couple of years ago how I felt, but as usally he is not in tune with my feeling. He alway makes me feel guilty about things. I always felt like he is a good provider and he deserved to have special time, but sometimes I just wish we want to have the time with me. Oh well I'm just feeling sorry for myself today. The challenge for this week is to be good while I'm by myself. I know is will go good. I hope to get a lot done.

My DH just left for his big week long camping out with his highschool buddies. I know he couldn't hardly wait to go, he tries to play it down, but I know he can't wait to get there. I just wish he would get tired of them. They have been doing this for 30+ years. I think this is the first year one of the guys is only going to be there one evening. Maybe the rest will get tire of acting like kids and grow up. I know he has fun, but after 30 years it about time to give it up. I'm alone in the house and I have so much I need to be doing, but I have yet to get started. I usually get a lot done this week, while hes out of the house. He isn't going to Canada fishing this year, this will be the first year in about 20 that he hasn't done that. He spends more time with his buddies camping and fishing then he has with me in the 37 years. I can count on one hand how many vacations we have had together. I should never have let him start all the trips, but I was busy with kids, working, and I never seem to have the vacation time. You know I always had to take time off when the kids were sick, so I never had the time for vacations. Now that I have retired from the work force you think we would go somewhere, but no we don't. I went to New York with my girlfriend in May for 4 nights and five days, of course my DH couldn't get off work. That the usually excuse that I hear a lot when I want to go some where. He always has time for his camping trips. It really hurts my feeling. I really tried to tell him couple of years ago how I felt, but as usally he is not in tune with my feeling. He alway makes me feel guilty about things. I always felt like he is a good provider and he deserved to have special time, but sometimes I just wish we want to have the time with me. Oh well I'm just feeling sorry for myself today. The challenge for this week is to be good while I'm by myself. I know is will go good. I hope to get a lot done.

Paula I also have not lost much either around 30 lbs and I was banded march 20th. I have 2 cc in my 4cc band and still can eat way to much. I don't excerise as much as I should. I get my fourth fill next week on the 16th so I'm hoping for more restriction. I keep waiting for it to happen like I read, but I have only a small amount of restriction. I worry that I will stretch out my pouch while I'm waiting for more restriction. How much can you eat at a time right now. I worry that may I have a leak or something like that. I just wanted you not to feel alone in this process I think there is more of us out there going slow. We just don't speak up as much, because we feel if we do we will be seen as a failure. We are winner we have lost and we have not gained, so we are winner and it may just take us longer. I know that I feel like I want it gone now, not next week or next year, just now. It took a long time to get to where I am and it may take a little long to get it off, but I know we can do it. Good luck this week and keep us informed on how you're doing. Carol

I just don't like holidays anymore, I use to love the 4th, but now it just reminds me how everything has changed. I would love to have all my kids over, but my DH is still mad at of middle daughter. If I can't have all of them then, I will not have any of them here. I will not leave her and her children out. Sometimes I just want to clobber my DH. My DH did barbeque yesterday and it was wonderful as usually. He can fix anything and it will be great. The boston butt was so tender and juicy, I ate way to much and to fast also. The meat kinda hurt a little. I made fresh green beans and corn on the cob. I also eat some dot ice cream. I know I ate to much, so I will start the day with a protien shake and a glass of water. I didn't get all my water in yesterday. The scale was up this morning, not surprised. I thought that I might weight myself, but figured that I need to face the music. It wasn't quite as bad I as thought it might be. Today will be a good day. I will drink lots of water and I will be busy and try to get my excersize. I will not eat just because I'm unhappy, I will try to busy myself and stay out of the kitchen. I'm feeling much stronger today, than yesterday.

I just don't like holidays anymore, I use to love the 4th, but now it just reminds me how everything has changed. I would love to have all my kids over, but my DH is still mad at of middle daughter. If I can't have all of them then, I will not have any of them here. I will not leave her and her children out. Sometimes I just want to clobber my DH. My DH did barbeque yesterday and it was wonderful as usually. He can fix anything and it will be great. The boston butt was so tender and juicy, I ate way to much and to fast also. The meat kinda hurt a little. I made fresh green beans and corn on the cob. I also eat some dot ice cream. I know I ate to much, so I will start the day with a protien shake and a glass of water. I didn't get all my water in yesterday. The scale was up this morning, not surprised. I thought that I might weight myself, but figured that I need to face the music. It wasn't quite as bad I as thought it might be. Today will be a good day. I will drink lots of water and I will be busy and try to get my excersize. I will not eat just because I'm unhappy, I will try to busy myself and stay out of the kitchen. I'm feeling much stronger today, than yesterday.

I agree with Juli, I also ate way to much yesterday. I will start my day with a protien shake and very light the rest of the day. Going to have garage sale tomorrow with my daughter so will be busy today. Hope everyone enjoy their 4th of July. It sure was noisey in my area. Carol

I've had 3 fills and do for my 4th on the 16th, I still feel that I can get way to much. I have a little restriction, but now what I see others talking about. I hope I haven't stretch my pouch out. I wonder how you know if you have stretched the pouch. I how do you know if you have a leaky band?

Welcome to the group. You will find support here. You don't need people who preach or who si condescending. Most of us have questions and we get nice helpful answers. I have to stay away from all the people who lose lots of weight really fast, they don't have a clue how hard this is. It's a lot harder than I every thought it would be. Again welcome and lets know how you are doing.

WHY do I want to eat anything in sight somedays and I have no hunger the other day. I don't understand why I do this. Why can't all days be the same it would be so much easier to lose weight. Today so far isn't so bad, yesterday I wanted eat everything in sight. I was at the store today, I walked by the cookies and didn't buy any. I really, really wanted to, but I know that I would eat them and that won't help the cause at all. I have to have these small victories, it helps with the self esteem. I did get some more fresh cut up fruit, that seems to help some. I will over come this weight. I still can't imagine myself thin, wish I could. If I could see myself thin them maybe I could stick to the food plan better. I know I will do better this week. Next week my DH will be out camping with his high school buddies. They have been doing this for 30+ years. Will they every grow up. It didn't use to bother me that they did this, but then I finally realized that he had spend more vacations with his buddies then he had with me. I really tired of these so call camping vacations, but hes going to do it all the same. I now plan more trips with my girlfriend who isn't married. Most of married women can't seem to get away with this kind of behavior. He doesn't say a word, or he can't say anything about me going with my girlfriend. Oh well, what I really worried about next week is being alone with myself. I try will hard to be accountable to myself, cause it is really only me that I hurting. I will have to write a lot next week to keep up with all thoughts that I will be dealing with while alone in the house. I know I can do this, I can only relie on myself.

WHY do I want to eat anything in sight somedays and I have no hunger the other day. I don't understand why I do this. Why can't all days be the same it would be so much easier to lose weight. Today so far isn't so bad, yesterday I wanted eat everything in sight. I was at the store today, I walked by the cookies and didn't buy any. I really, really wanted to, but I know that I would eat them and that won't help the cause at all. I have to have these small victories, it helps with the self esteem. I did get some more fresh cut up fruit, that seems to help some. I will over come this weight. I still can't imagine myself thin, wish I could. If I could see myself thin them maybe I could stick to the food plan better. I know I will do better this week. Next week my DH will be out camping with his high school buddies. They have been doing this for 30+ years. Will they every grow up. It didn't use to bother me that they did this, but then I finally realized that he had spend more vacations with his buddies then he had with me. I really tired of these so call camping vacations, but hes going to do it all the same. I now plan more trips with my girlfriend who isn't married. Most of married women can't seem to get away with this kind of behavior. He doesn't say a word, or he can't say anything about me going with my girlfriend. Oh well, what I really worried about next week is being alone with myself. I try will hard to be accountable to myself, cause it is really only me that I hurting. I will have to write a lot next week to keep up with all thoughts that I will be dealing with while alone in the house. I know I can do this, I can only relie on myself.

denise, maybe its our age. I don't if being over 50 makes a big differance or not. But this is the first serious weight loss try for me since I turned 50. I have done weight watcher serveral time in the past six years ant usually lost 20 to 30 lbs before I quit. I can't quit the band so its just got to work. I still try to tell myself that even 5 lbs a month would be great, but lets be honest we all want it to go away over night. Just stick with it, I feel that soon or later it just has to go away. keep in touch we are here for you carol

I trying to get stuff ready for a garage sale at Dana's tomorrow. I have stuff in the van, but DH won't be home till late, so can't get stuff for the truck till later. I weight again this am down to 268.2 this morning. Here goes the yo-yo between to numbers. I did do better yesterday with my drinking. Of course that included a protien shake that I had for lunch. I still am able to eat a lot. I worry that I have stretched out my pouch. I'm eating around 2-3 cups of food at a time. I do pretty good between meals. I don't snack very often. Not like I use to, which was pretty much all day long. It was just one long meal from time I got up till I went to bed. I now go 2-3 hours at time and some times I don't even think about eating. Thats amazing to me because I have thought so much about food all my life that even a couple of hours without a food thought is a miricle in its self. I still can't trust that I will ever be thin or thinner then I am now. Its be so long I don't even remember being thin any more. I think I need to change my thinking. I get really discouraged because I can't believe that this will work for me. Nothing has ever worked for me, so why would this. This thinking is very distructive, because if I get just a down then I just want to throw in the towel and eat whatever is available. I'm trying not to buy things that will be easy to grab and eat. Thats what I like to do, is grab and eat. I had a very hard time this morning trying to decide what to eat for breakfast. 1st I wanted something very easy to grab and eat. 2nd I don't care for breakfast foods. 3rd I don't want to take the time to cook something. Will I every learn to be a normal person :faint:

I'm thinking this just like a marriage the honeymoon period is over and now I have to fight to make it work. I will not be divorcing my band anytime soon. I could have gained 28 lbs instead of losing 28 lbs. I is so hard, maybe the hardest thing I have everydone. I figured the weight would just fall off and it is not. I know I'm not eating nearly what I use to eat, but the weight just doesn't seem to want to leave. I guess I have been to good a customer over the last 30 years or so. Hang in there I'm sure it will leave at some point and time. Carol

Ok so I entered before I wanted to. I really need to figure out to keep up my excitement and thrill that I felt right after I got the band. I will make this work, no divorce from the band for me. I have got this far now the work begins

I've decide that the band is kinda like being married. I have to figure out how to keep all the excitement and the thrill of a new marriage. I THINK THE HONEYMOON IS OVER.

Monday, July 2, 2007. Looks like we will have some sunshine today:whoo::whoo:. I'm so tired of all the clouds and rain we have been having. I worked out in the yard for about an hour yesterday. I need to go walk or do something for excersize today, besides laundry. I did pretty good this weekend. It really helps not having anything in the house to eat. I did have some problems with my pizza Friday nite. I know better than to try the crust. I usaully only eat the toppings only, but since we were babysitting I forgot and ate the crust. I slimed just a small amount. Then Saturday nite my hamburger(without the bun) did want to go down either. I did really bad on the water front on Saturday, Sunday was much better. It helps when I do a protien shake also. THIS IS GOING TO BE A BATTLE EVERYDAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!! It's discourging to think I have to do this the rest of my life so guess I think of it as one day at a time. My problem is that some day I just don't feel like doing the battle. How do I maintain that excitement and the wonder of something new. Its kinda like marriage in that the honeymoon period is over now and I have to make this work for me. I just have to stick with it, no divorce for me from my band. The band is here to stay.

Monday, July 2, 2007. Looks like we will have some sunshine today:whoo::whoo:. I'm so tired of all the clouds and rain we have been having. I worked out in the yard for about an hour yesterday. I need to go walk or do something for excersize today, besides laundry. I did pretty good this weekend. It really helps not having anything in the house to eat. I did have some problems with my pizza Friday nite. I know better than to try the crust. I usaully only eat the toppings only, but since we were babysitting I forgot and ate the crust. I slimed just a small amount. Then Saturday nite my hamburger(without the bun) did want to go down either. I did really bad on the water front on Saturday, Sunday was much better. It helps when I do a protien shake also. THIS IS GOING TO BE A BATTLE EVERYDAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!! It's discourging to think I have to do this the rest of my life so guess I think of it as one day at a time. My problem is that some day I just don't feel like doing the battle. How do I maintain that excitement and the wonder of something new. Its kinda like marriage in that the honeymoon period is over now and I have to make this work for me. I just have to stick with it, no divorce for me from my band. The band is here to stay.

I was banded on 3-20-07 and have lost 28 lbs, I seem to play with the same couple of lbs. I also only seem to lose when I 'm on the liquid after a fill. I also use fit day and get between 1200 and 1500 cal per day. I know is a lot less then I use to eat, but I'm not losing very fast and its very discouraging to see lots of people already at 50-70 lbs mark. I don't really have any ideas unless you excersize more or cut calories more, drink water (which I guilt of not getting enough in), and change up your diet. Good luck to all this is a very trying time.

I trying to get stuff ready for a garage sale at Dana's tomorrow. I have stuff in the van, but DH won't be home till late, so can't get stuff for the truck till later. I weight again this am down to 268.2 this morning. Here goes the yo-yo between to numbers. I did do better yesterday with my drinking. Of course that included a protien shake that I had for lunch. I still am able to eat a lot. I worry that I have stretched out my pouch. I'm eating around 2-3 cups of food at a time. I do pretty good between meals. I don't snack very often. Not like I use to, which was pretty much all day long. It was just one long meal from time I got up till I went to bed. I now go 2-3 hours at time and some times I don't even think about eating. Thats amazing to me because I have thought so much about food all my life that even a couple of hours without a food thought is a miricle in its self. I still can't trust that I will ever be thin or thinner then I am now. Its be so long I don't even remember being thin any more. I think I need to change my thinking. I get really discouraged because I can't believe that this will work for me. Nothing has ever worked for me, so why would this. This thinking is very distructive, because if I get just a down then I just want to throw in the towel and eat whatever is available. I'm trying not to buy things that will be easy to grab and eat. Thats what I like to do, is grab and eat. I had a very hard time this morning trying to decide what to eat for breakfast. 1st I wanted something very easy to grab and eat. 2nd I don't care for breakfast foods. 3rd I don't want to take the time to cook something. Will I every learn to be a normal person :faint:

Kacee, I so glad to read this thread. This is happening to me too. Everytime I go to the doctor my b/p is fine, but at home it is way to low. Its been as low as 67/39. I think I need to get a new b/p meter that keeps track of the pressures, so I can take them to the doctor. Last time I saw him I told him, but he just went on to something else. I glad you got your problem fixed and hope you feeling better. This is the first time I have read when anyone else was having the same problem. Thanks for this thread, I now don't feel quite as crazy as I was beginning to think I was.

I really want this to work, but I seem not to work at it. I just want the weight to fall off and I not have to do anything. I know thats nuts, but thats the way I feel. I didn't have to do any work to get here, why do I have to work to get rid of it. Crazy isn't it to think like that, but this morning thats the way I feel. Why is there days where you do great and then day when I could care less what I eat. I weight this am and I back up again. I weighted 270.2 ths morning. I seem to only lose when I'm doing liquids. Maybe I should stick with liquids for a while. I don't know what to do. I have got to track my calories (I do much better and I know I do better when tracking my calories). I have to excersize (which I hate to do, I have never found anything that I really enjoy). People tell to swim, but (I have known serveral people who have drowned). I don't mind walking( I just don't like doing it by myself--dogs you know). I wish I could inlist my DH to excersize with me, but he hate it just as much as I do. Maybe this is his way of defeating my weight loss. He never encourges me or tells me I'm doing good. I think this journey is on my own. I really want to lose this weight. So I have to stop putting road block up or trying to blame someone else. I have to do this on my own(now). I really miss my comfort foods. I still eat pizza, but only the topping, no crust for me. I really miss have a great hamburger, no bread for me. Bread seems to be the only thing I can't eat anymore. Everything else is ok. Meat I have to eat slowly or it hurts like the devil. All the other stuff goes down way to easy. I have had my third fill I'm at 2cc in a 4cc band, but I really don't have a lot of restriction yet. I read where some people can only eat 1/2 cup of food at a time. I can still eat a lot more then that. Maybe I have already stretched my pouch out to much. I don't have a clue, why I do this stuff to myself. Today is a new day I will try to get a better handle on it today. I will use fitday.com, I will try some kind of excersize. I will drink my water, I know I didn't get anywhere close to drinking 64 oz yesterday, I might have gotten in 24 oz. I don't drink like I should (maybe that is why my weight was up this am). I will start right now with a bottle of water, then will try to eat something for breakfast. This will be a good day.

I really want this to work, but I seem not to work at it. I just want the weight to fall off and I not have to do anything. I know thats nuts, but thats the way I feel. I didn't have to do any work to get here, why do I have to work to get rid of it. Crazy isn't it to think like that, but this morning thats the way I feel. Why is there days where you do great and then day when I could care less what I eat. I weight this am and I back up again. I weighted 270.2 ths morning. I seem to only lose when I'm doing liquids. Maybe I should stick with liquids for a while. I don't know what to do. I have got to track my calories (I do much better and I know I do better when tracking my calories). I have to excersize (which I hate to do, I have never found anything that I really enjoy). People tell to swim, but (I have known serveral people who have drowned). I don't mind walking( I just don't like doing it by myself--dogs you know). I wish I could inlist my DH to excersize with me, but he hate it just as much as I do. Maybe this is his way of defeating my weight loss. He never encourges me or tells me I'm doing good. I think this journey is on my own. I really want to lose this weight. So I have to stop putting road block up or trying to blame someone else. I have to do this on my own(now). I really miss my comfort foods. I still eat pizza, but only the topping, no crust for me. I really miss have a great hamburger, no bread for me. Bread seems to be the only thing I can't eat anymore. Everything else is ok. Meat I have to eat slowly or it hurts like the devil. All the other stuff goes down way to easy. I have had my third fill I'm at 2cc in a 4cc band, but I really don't have a lot of restriction yet. I read where some people can only eat 1/2 cup of food at a time. I can still eat a lot more then that. Maybe I have already stretched my pouch out to much. I don't have a clue, why I do this stuff to myself. Today is a new day I will try to get a better handle on it today. I will use fitday.com, I will try some kind of excersize. I will drink my water, I know I didn't get anywhere close to drinking 64 oz yesterday, I might have gotten in 24 oz. I don't drink like I should (maybe that is why my weight was up this am). I will start right now with a bottle of water, then will try to eat something for breakfast. This will be a good day.

Took a nap yesterday, should have known better. I can't sleep tonight. Sometimes I feel as if I have the RLS that you see on TV. I just couldn't lay still tonight. So here I am sitting up eating all the wrong things. Good thing there is not much in the house. I thought about buying cookie when I was at the store on Friday, but I didn't knowing I would probably have a night just like this. I can't have cookies around. I love COOKIES. So I have eaten some cheese cubes and a twinkie. The twinkie was terrible, I didn't really enjoy it at all. I also have some cottage cheese salad. Guess it could be worse. I'm still can't wrap my mind around the fact that some day I might actually be smaller. I'm not saying thin, because I don't believe that will every happen. I just want to feel better, not sluggish all the time. I would like to be a size 14 or size 12. I will never be a smaller size, cause there is going to be too much excess skin. Still it seems a dream that will never come true. I didn't do much this weekend. It was really a very quite few days. Hope this is a good week. I need to log on to fitday and chart my food intake, I couldn't seem to get fitday to work the other day and so I just haven't been back. Something to do tomorrow. Sleep is getting near I hope. The morning will come soon enough.

Dont feel alone, I was banded on march 20th and have lost 28 lbs. I know that I'm eating a lot less, but like you not the right choices all the time. I think that we can do this but it will take time. I had my 3rd fill last week and I'm eating a lot less, but the scale has moved back up instead of down. I need to excersize also, which I have not been doing on a regular bases. I seem to lose when on the clear liquid or all liquid right after a fill, but then I just hang around the same weight. I lost only 4lb from may 21 to june 19, not a lot, but I will take it. good luck and hang in there. carol