jesslynn

Today was a decent day. I had a very good cheer practice today, and one of my coaches pointed out my weight loss. She is also trying to lose weight but she is not nearly as big as me. She goes "Jess if you get skinner than me fast I'm going to be so mad! You look great!" It made me feel good because not a lot of people have noticed my loss. I stepped on the scale this morning to see that i lost another couple pounds, which was very exciting. I am still struggling to see the loss, I look hard, but I don't notice it or feel it much. I don't see how I don't see it though because today I wore a cheer shirt that is a size large! That's big for me. It's not as big as the shirts I usually wear to practice but it definetly was not tight. It feels good to be able to fit into things that you've been waiting to fit in. I don't see any change in my normal clothes but I have been in my cheer clothes. I used to wear 2XL shirts to practice and now I feel as if I've been swimming in them. I started to whip out the XL and they're comfortable, and now I suppose I'm working on the larges, that's still a work in progress, but I'm getting there. I have faith.

YESS! I'm in a very similar boat. I take pretty vigorous classes and it's so hard to keep up with things when you are trying to focus on the band. I had my surgery at the end of February and for the whole month before that I was struggling to focus on my school work because I was only thinking about my upcoming surgery. It was the same for a little while after my surgery too! You just have to try your best to stay focused so that you can be successful with your finals and the band! Good luck!

So I've had my band for six weeks now and I'm definately struggling. I go back and forth with feeling incredible and depressed. I'm down 30.5 pounds from my highest weight and thats great but I've only lost a pound in the last three weeks and it's frustrating. For the most part I follow my planned diet, I know "for the most part" doesn't sound very good but I am trying very hard. I'm sixteen so it's frustrating looking the way I do. I've ate very healthy and excersized my whole life, so my normal pediatrician was always shocked as to why I was so heavy, but hey we are who we are. I need my band tightened and my appointment to talk to the nurse-practitioner is this monday so I'm excited, yet very nervous for that. I need a friend to talk to about my struggles with weight and the surgery but nobody knows. I have only told my parents, brother, and grandpa. I don't want people to know because they are so judgemental. It's hard that no one knows about my surgery not only because I need a friend to talk to but also because I go to parties, sleepovers, and other normal fun teenage stuff that causes it to be hard. All my friends eat is mostly junk and sometimes it's hard to find things to eat. (I usually bring some protein shakes though) I want to tell some of my friends, I'm just not ready yet. I don't regret having surgery at all. I love my band and I'm proud of it, it's just hard as I'm sure all of you know, I'm excited for my new healthier life, but I'm also excited to get out of this little funk I've been having.