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Hello, waited all night for Susie, now I am going to bed a disappointed violet:crying:! Pamela, your vacation sounds sooo neat. Tomorrow (6-28) is my dads 75th birthday. We finally got it all together and are having a dinner at my Aunts. He really is a special kind of man, and everybody that meets him agrees. I go into work early tomorrow since I was off today, then go to my aunts so may not be posting until late. I hope all have a nice weekend and extra special hugs to TracyK for moving!!

No kat, she is coming to my house!!!!!!!!!!!! Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Terry, maybe a goal for next year is fifty cents an hour!!!

My nephew would love to see the blue angels!!! Went to lunch with my parents, and piddled around, didn't accomplish much, but I bought some sugar free energy drink so maybe I will clean my house yet??? Jane

Tracyks have lots of fun and win big!! Kat, no cardiologist, just the order for the tests. Have unexpected day off tomorrow, should I clean??? YES!!!!! Well I have a bad headache and am going to just sit back and watch tv. Have a good day!!!!!!! Jane

Tracyks have fun in Vegas!!!! We are jealous!!!! I am sure the other Tracy would much rather be on a plane then moving!!! I made a HUGE mistake at bank on one of my loans, thought I had an automatic payment set up, but nooooo!!! So it hasn't been paid since the end of April. Have to go in today to straighten that out. Luckily I have a real nice person who takes care of me!!! She said she would wipe out all late fees etc....... Need to stop and get her some something! Okay enough of me have a great day!! Jane

Pamela when do leave? TracyKS HOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to switch Dr.s for a number of reasons, but the biggest is that he lied to me, or his office staff or someone. I am not one to call or bug him at all. I see him 2x's a year when I have to. I hate going to the doctor. I had a problem when my insurance switched pharmacies, I had problems getting what I needed, pharmacy said it was Dr., Dr. said it was pharmacy, who do you believe, anyway that went on for 5 weeks, and cost me money because I couldn't use the 3 month thing. Anyways that all worked out, but when I needed a Dr. to tell me my results from the heart thing they told me they never rec. fax. The heart Dr.'s office said they did and had gotten confirmation back, they said they had sent it twice, but would once again send it again. I finally had to go pick up the report, and when I came home from work, it was in the mail with the date of last Friday on it. That was when they said he didn't get it and was already gone for the weekend. He then could have called me Monday and didn't. So long story short and probably lost most people by this point out of boredom or confusion, I am switching Dr.s. I can take my time because I don't go back to Dr. until October or November. I just hope that I never pass out again, or have an episode like the one I did. I have been out of my mind eating like it is going out of style. Makes me mad that I have no control. Oh well, better get to bed. Jane

Hey Laura, I like your new siggy thing!! You look great and do I see neck bones?!!!

I finally got my results from the holter monitor, but had to go to the cardiologists office to pick them up. It showed that I had an extra beat occasionally and some other things that I don't think are anything. I have made up my mind that I am not going back to my regular Dr. I have to find who I am going to, but that shouldn't be too much of a problem. Laura I agree with Terry, call your Dr.!! That is too scary! Kat, you look great in the picture!!! I can't wait to see your before and after now!! It must feel so weird!! I am so happy for you!! I hope Macy is better tonight. Well off to bed, and see you tomorrow!! Jane

Denise, I am so happy for you and your family, I am sure that was super scary! Tracy, if you lived closer I would cancel my appointments and come help you pack!! TracyKS I am sure that would be weird seeing your face, but you really are an inspiration. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUSIE AND JUDY!!!!!!!!!! I am feeling okay physically, but sad mentally. I have gained weight. I am not up to 259. I really need a fill, but can't get one til the end of July. There is just a lot going on, nothing big or horrible, I think my coping mechanism is off a bit, and not making me deal well. Off to get ready for work!!

Pamela, are you serious about taking pix? I can take them, just can't post!! I think I will shoot for September 1st. I have to pack all the paperweights I have, because they are in the living room in 3 display cases. I have about 300, so it will take a while, plus I am so not fast, and not in a hurry. So September might be next year sometime. I need to commit to a time, sound familiar Haydee?? I can't imagine what you are going through with Juan, but I know you deserve the best, and if he can't give you that, you need to find somebody who can!!! Hey how come I had to go to advanced, yesterday it let me do this without the advanced. Hey Terry I like the shirt:w00t:!!

Susie, you are turning 50??? We need to send you 50 things!!! Maybe 50 bandaids, or 50 ace wraps! I wanted the card to come on your birthday, not today!! I mailed it Saturday, now if your birthday was today, it wouldn't get there until tomorrow! I love birthdays, just wish I knew it was 50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Terry, how many beads did you end up getting? Did you ever decide what to make? I looked at floors, and really liked the cheapest floor I saw, which is really odd, usually I like the most expensive. It is not what I wanted either. So if I go with that it looks like I can get it all done for under one thousand dollars, labor and materials. But I don't jump to anything, so will keep looking. The Dr. didn't call me today about the holter monitor, that makes me so angry. ATT did not call me either about my car. Oh well have a nice night!!

Haydee and TracyK Hugs!!! I am off to get some things accomplished and have lunch with a friend. I might stop by a flooring place, been saving money the past two years from Christmas at work to get a new floor at home. I think I have enough saved. I will feel guilty though, I think about what I should pay off instead of a new floor. Jane

Susie, thanks for swinging by and picking me up!!!!!!!!!!! Unless I am needed as a car I am in!!!!!! If I remember correctly it was cheaper for people to fly into St. Louis. Actually why don't we just rent a party bus from KC airport to St. Louis airport, then we can go to Memphis airport pick people up and be there and none of us have to drive. I am sure that won't cost much?!?!:ohmy: Trying to get motivated to clean. So far that hasn't worked. I took a nap and had a strange dream, now I am trying again for motivation. Anyone have a spare bottle??? I'll even drink it out of a can! Wow now I don't have to go to advanced to make smilie faces or big letters!

Wow Laura, those are remarkable!!!!!!!!!! You look GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I am back from my friends house, she is moving this Friday and hasn't really started packing until today!!! I wish she lived closer I would go tomorrow and help. Kat you made me smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess Pamela is seeing George Michael about now, I hope she is enjoying it!! I have gotten tons of bills in the mail the past few days for the episode where I fainted or whatever you call it. OH MY GOSH is all I can say!! I can't believe my deductible is already met, and it is $2500. I think the only people that get rich are the insurance companies who say they are "not for profit"??? When I turned 45 in May my insurance went to $586, for a $2500 deductible!!! I am so getting ripped off!!! The thing is, is this is a government plan here in Missouri, for people who through no fault of their own, are no longer able to get insurance. I had my brain tumor and then 4 months later the business where I was employed dissolved, and no longer was in their group for insurance. For some reason no insurance company would give me insurance!! So I had to turn to what is called "Missouri Health Insurance Pool". I used to have a $500 deductible, then it got too much, then I got a $1000 deductible, now I have the $2500 deductible, with another $5000 out of pocket. Life is soo good with great insurance!!!!!!! I think someone talked about a rants and raves section, I suppose that is where I should have put this post, but you guys are lucky enough to read my rants!!! Don't you feel special!!!! Okay, I should probably get ready for bed!! Jane

cruise? Did I miss something? I am getting ready to head to work, then to a friends house to help her pack for a move. Don't know what I am doing tomorrow. Monday is a busyish day then the work week starts anew!!! I hope everyone has a great weekend!! Hugs Terry!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also Pamela, Charlie is really not fun. Sue, Leon, and I had fun that night, but he is not fun.

Denise congrats and gald the prayers worked!! He really looks like a beautiful baby!! Judy if I haven't missed you have fun!! PAM YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME!!!!! But thanks to my phone will never forget about you!! I have gained weight and eating out of control!! I am very very very stressed right now. Nothing really bad, just having car problems that shouldn't be a problem, it was a battery, but the tow truck was a horror story, ending last night when I put groceries in my trunk, and noticed 2 gouges that went straight through my bumper from the tow truck. Of course now I have a accident report in with that company. Then my Dr. still hsn't called me about my holter monitor results. He supposedly didn't get them. I can believe that if he didn't have a horrible track record. I am just crabby. You must all think I am the crabbiest person in the world! Jane

Tracyks that is great!!! I hope you get it!! Purple power to everyone in need of it!! There seems to be a great need to a wide variety of people! Car broke down today. Had a major hassle getting it towed, not happy. I hope it is not too big of a repair bill. Not too much to say, waiting to hear from a bunch of people. I need something that doesn't require batteries or phone calls. You think I am asking too much??? Jane

Love the note, it was well written!! Hugs Terry!! I slept well last night. YEA! Got on scale this morning:eek: Can't be right so I am not going to get on scale for another week! How is that for avoidance/denial!! NO MORE SCHOOL!!! Congrats to Michelle and Pamela!

Laura the china cab. looks great!! It is sooo pretty!! Haydee, hugs to you and what you are dealing with!!

Well I am back from the funeral for Della's husband. Della is black, and the church is a black baptist. Here are Charlie, Sue, and I which are about the only white people in the crowd. It was like no other experience I have ever had. It was a nice service, just had more personality than anything I have ever been to. You have to remember I am a white presbyterian, and they don't make bread much whiter than that! I am feeling a bit better today. I am depressed and on meds for that. I think you all are right, I was being very hard on myself. I started my period early yesterday, which didn't help. Last night when I couldn't sleep I watched MTV's Real World where this guy was in rehab for drug abuse, and he wrote a letter to 'cocaine' about the effects that it had/has on his life. I was sobbing thinking about food and sugar. Then I watched an informericial, and then "Fiddler on the Roof" came on AMC and that made me happier. I would have been so much better off if I could have slept. Or if I would have turned all that negative energy in for some positive cleaning and filing for work! But, no I just wallowed (I know that is not the right spelling) in self pity!! I need to fix somethings, and get my ducks in a row. I am still on pins and needles, not knowing the results of the holter monitor, and not knowing til probably Thursday! You all are sooo kind to reach out like you have!! I really appreciate it more than you will know. Jane Pamela are you done yet?????

Yea Pam!!!!

Major poor me blues ahead. I am not happy. I am not sure what will make me happy right now. I am totally out of control with my eating and my life. I am unmotivated and seems like I am sinking further into my hole. I have gained weight, not a lot, but about 10 or so pounds, and I can't seem to stop myself from eating. I am not sure that that is what is making me unhappy or what. It seems like nothing is right. But Nothing is really wrong. I wish I could explain what I feel...I think if I could just fall asleep that would make me feel better also. By the way a "Shrinking Violet" is just a 'moniker' for April 07 band patients.

Laura great finds!!! I think I figured out the problem, when I start my internet, I can't type, but if I switch to my internet explorer browser then it works? Weird huh, I am testing it out on you guys!! Hope you all had a great weekend and fathers day and enjoy getting back to work? How is your Mom Terry? I hope your vacation being over isn't too big of a bummer!!! That is what I hate about taking a vacation, coming back.