CajunCutie

Hey guys! I was sleeved on Feb. 25th. I also had my band removed. Glad to know I am not alone in this journey!

I have over 200 pounds to lose. I haven't posted here in a long time because I am embarrassed. A little history on me: I had my surgery on 12/19/07. At first I lost about 15 pounds. Now however, I am back to what I was before surgery. I have been gaining and losing the same 10 pounds over the last 9 months. My surgeon said my band is "almost too tight". Nothing is wrong with my band. The problem is me. I have wanted to lose weight for a very long time. I made the decision to get lap-band with the dream of reaching my goal. 9 months with the band I feel that I am a lost cause. I have even considered getting the bypass surgery. But, I know that will not work because my issues are all in my head. I use food for comfort. My question is, how do I just do it? Fight the head issues, and just use my "tool" to help me lose weight...

I totally understand where you are coming from. I could have written your post. I too am having SERIOUS issues being a food addict. I can't offer any help. But, know that you are not alone.

I had surgery 12/19/07. I currently have 8ccs in my 10cc band. I am scheduled for another fill Thursday. I have good restriction. So, what is the problem?? I am still about the same weight I was the day of surgery! I feel like I am trying to fight my band. Most of the time I eat healthly. But a few times a week I get ice cream (700+ calories) and frozen coffees (300+ calories). I paid for this surgery to help me lose weight. But, I am just eating around it. The "bad" stuff goes down easy. I keep saying I am going to start walking. That hasn't happened yet. What the heck is wrong with me???? I went into having this surgery with 100% motivation. Now, I am at 0%. I have all the tools I need to lose weight: my band and a great support network. I know what I need to do, but I just haven't done it yet. I feel like a failure. I look at other December bandsters, and see that yall have lost tons of weight. How do I mentally get on the roll with my band???

I am very discouraged. I just got back from seeing my surgeon. The results of my upper GI show that everything with my band looks good. The placement is great. He even said that I may be too tight. I looked at the xrays and the amount of liquid going down looks like the width of thread. So, I have restriction. That is not the problem. So, what is the problem? Me. I am the problem. I drink while I eat. I eat too much. I eat the wrong foods. I haven't been exercising. So not losing any weight is all my fault. A part of me wanted it to be the bands fault. I guess so I could have an excuse of why the weight is not coming off. But, now I don't have an excuse. I still stuff my face with food. Even if I am not hungry, I eat. I can eat anything and it all goes down fine. If I feel like I might be getting stuck, I drink. I have learned how to eat around my band. I have about 250 pounds to lose.....and I don't know what to do anymore. Amy :thumbs_down:

Thanks everyone for responding. I was having a really bad morning and had to vent. I know what I need to do.....I just need to do it. I am just going to take it day-by-day.

Snowbird, I don't PB much anymore. You would think I would if you saw how much restiction I have. The doctor was amazed that I don't even have reflux. I don't drink high calorie drinks. I don't drink any type of soft drink. I drink tea, milk, orange juice, and coffee every now and then.

Thanks for responding. Yes, I am in counseling. It does help with some of the emotional issues. I don't like the idea of diet pills either. I am going to make an appointment with the dietitian. Hopefully she can help me.

Oh...and my surgeon gave me a prescription for diet pills.

I am ok. I am looking for a new job......so I am super stressed. And I am turning 30 this week!!! AHHHHH! I have been stress eating the last week. I need to re-focus! How have you been?

Hey guys! I am still here too. Things have been CRAZY at work. I am also looking for a new job! I am doing ok with the band. I didn't have a great weekend eating wise but other than that I have been doing good. Everyone can tell I have lost a little weight. Overall, things are better with me.

I don't know what is "taste" like to be thin....but it has to be better tasting than being fat!!!!

My first fill was 3ccs and I had no restriction. I currently have 8.4ccs and have great restriction.

Thanks to everyone that has responded. I went to my doctor Thursday. I received a small fill. I now have 8.4ccs in my 10cc band. I gained 1 pound since my last visit a month ago. That was a little upsetting. But, I am not letting that get me down. My doctor wants me to write down everything I eat and turn it in to her in 3 weeks. I need to start being accountable for what I put in my mouth. Losing weight is a process. I will reach my big goal by reaching one small goal at a time.

Thank all of you for responding to my post. I am so glad to be a part of this forum for support. I am struggling. I am scared. I feel like a failure. But, deep down I know I can do this...and that gives me hope. I am now worried that I have done damage to my band or expanded my stomach. I am going to my doctor tomorrow morning. I am going to tell her the truth about what I have been putting in my mouth. Thank you all again for responding and the support you have given me.

My doctor drained mine with a needle. It was not painful at all. I started seeing my seroma I guess about 4-5 weeks out from surgery. Call your doctor to get it checked out.

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I should also tell you that I have great restriction right now, 8ccs in my 10cc band!

I have been on Zoloft for 2 years now. I was banded in December. I never had a problem taking the pills and I take 2 at a time.

The Tapping Technique by Paul McKenna 1. I want you get the biggest desire for a food that you can right now. If you don’t have a big enough craving, put this technique to one side and come back to it when you’re really feeling it. 2. Focus on this craving for a moment, and when you’ve thought of that I’d like you to rate your desire for a food on a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest and 10 the highest. This is important, because in a moment we want to know how much you’ve reduced it. 3. On a scale of 1- 10, how strong is your craving? Remember, if you’re not really craving a bite (i.e. your craving is not at least a 7), come back to this technique later. 4. Now take two fingers of either hand and tap about ten times under your collarbone while you continue to think about eating. 5. Now tap under your eye ten times. 6. Now tap under your collarbone again. 7. Place your other hand in front of you and tap on the back of it between your ring finger and your little finger. Continue to think about your desire for food as you do this and each of the steps which follow: Close your eyes and open them. Keep your head still, keep tapping and look down to the right then down to the left. Keep tapping and rotate your eyes round 360 degrees clockwise, and now 360 degrees anti-clockwise. Remember to keep thinking about the food you were craving as you do this! Now hum the first few lines of ‘Happy Birthday’ out loud. Count out loud from 1 to 5. Once again hum the first few lines of ‘Happy Birthday’ out loud. 8. Stop and check – on a scale from 1 to 10, what number is your craving at now? If it hasn’t completely gone yet, just repeat this sequence again until it does.

I also had a seroma around my port area. It was the size of a large grapefruit. I thought an alien would pop out of it one day..lol. I had it drained 3 times over a 7 or 8 week time period. The first time they took 277ccs, second 75ccs and the third only 18ccs. So, it does get smaller over time. And now, it is totally gone. It is just a pain to have to go to the doctor's office and get it drained. I was worried at first, but it does go away.

Molly, I am very sorry to hear about the death of your mother. I lost my mother at a young age too. The sadness will never completely leave...but it does get better with time. Congrats on your recommitment! You are not a failure! We are here to support you! :thumbdown:

Hey Newgirl, I am sorry you are dealing with all of this. I know what you are going through. I was raped when I was 15. Yes, there is a HUGE connection between weight loss and the emotional issues. For me, I ate to stuff my emotions in. The more I ate, the better I felt. Eating until I was stuffed was how I dealt with my emotions. food helped me get through a lot of rough times. I had no idea the emotional issues would be this hard to get through. My head still says EAT..and EAT A LOT. But, my band won't let me eat. The issues are still there...I just can't stuff them in anymore with food. I am in therapy. It has helped. I just take it day to day. Some days I do great...other days I eat ice cream. You are not alone in this battle.

I am so glad you are doing well. I have been thinking about you!! :eek: