After 2 years I finally went back to my dr to get back on track. He sent me for a barium esophogram to check on my band since its been a long time. I was so nervous but the radiologist said the band looks good still - I just have no pouch and everything just goes right down.
I see my dr on Thursday & hope to have a fill & get back on the wagon. I really want to make this work this time - I am tired of feeling like a failure. I know it's my own fault that I havent succeded - I just needed to vent to others that understand how I feel, thank you for listening =)