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BTW...my ticker goal is just a 10% goal..

WATER WATER EVERYWHERE...especially in my belly LOL:thumbup::thumbup::thumbup::Dancing_shocked:

LOL Michelle!!! Boo!!:thumbup:

Hi girls!! Michelle, sorry for your friends troubles. cancer is an epidemic. I think I posted on here last year that a friend of mine was among some 600 women mis-diagnosed as having all clear mammograms!! DISGRACE, anyway..the women were recalled, NOTIFIED BY THE MEDIA, the hospital dragged their asses trying to cover it up and so the women in question heard about the scandal through the news!! Jeeeez.. Anyway, when my friend was re-tested she ha advanced breast cancer, had a DOUBLE mastectomy and started a 6 month Chemo treatment that robbed her also of her hair!!! I was so angry over it!! I was in bed tonight and I was freezing because it is freezing out (duh) our heating is acting up and I hadn't been able to eat properly today with the band..nothing would go down, so I had no inner fuel either. So I just got up, wrapped in my blanket and made scrambled egg, eh stuck too. I'm gonna have to stock up on soup for the moment. But I am happy that I know I got one hell of a fill..right now I don't care if I have to live on soup! So tonight was my weigh in with WW and I was only down 3lbs, but I hadn't a drop of water ALL WEEK!! I would have expected at least 5lbs but then my friend "REMINDED" me that I had 2 bottles of wine and a chocolate easter egg on friday (hello, selective memory!!!):Dancing_shocked: That was before my fill on sat so I guess I thought my 3 days of soup after that would cancel the bold out, but not when it's dried soup full of sodium and snacking on chocolate and full fat yoghurt! Ah yeah.. I'll make sure to be conscious of the "fun times" this week. I had actually denied to myself that I had been bad! WTF??? I convinced myself that I was justified in expecting -5lbs yet I was nervous stepping on that scale... subconscious guilt?:thumbup::blushing: My DH is a very talented Joiner (Type of carpentry) also Builder, he is loving, gentle and I admire his strength of character. Oh and he has Beautiful Brown eyes!!:Dancing_tongue:

Hi All!! BTW..there is no green beer in Ireland..lol!! We're too fussy for that!! Paddy's Day was very cold but dry and bright and our local parade was nice to see. It was more full of kids than ever and it was great to see the many outlets they have locally. Ie..fishing, sport, guides, karate, sailing, hurling etc. I spent most of my day chatting and catching up with local friends and then came home and lit my fire and watched "The Brave One" with Jody Foster..wasn't great. Is it just me or is she the same in every movie? She looks great though, very fit! I feel the same about Keira Knightley, or as I call her 'Skelator' I Bloody HATE HER!!! she drives me mad with that feckin JAW of hers, her bony ass and posh ass accent...booooooo.. I tend to boycott movies she's in. I just can't stand watching her! And while I'm on the subject, here is a short list of actors (and my pet names for them in brackets) whos movies I can't watch coz they 'annoy' me (am I mad?) angelina Jolie (goldfish face/ Mother Theresa) Kevin Spacey (Conceited man/ legend in his own mind) Brad Pitt (Founder of Brad Pitt fan club and husband 2b to mother theresa) Gweneth paltrow (She who does no wrong) Ben Affleck (JAWS) Dakota fanning (ChAdult, a word I made up meaning child adult) She's a good actress tho, just can't stand her being interviewed) Tom Cruise (Psycho) Katie Holmes (Mrs Psycho) Ah to hell with it..the list could go on forever!! lol:lol: Anyway, LAURA..just something for you to consider re birth control.. DO NOT TRUST CONDOMS as your only protection. I have been told this by numerous doctors not to mention the 5...yes 5 friends of mine who were surprised with pregnancy after taking such 'pre-cautions' Especially 'fancy' ones from the net. As for DH protesting against the delivery ward, my sisters DH we all thought would be a mile away when the baby arrived was right there, holding my sisters leg up for the arrival of his son and then cried more than the baby. It is said Women become mothers once they know they are pregnant, men don't become fathers until the birth. Haydee...your situation sounds very frustrating and I could never try to figure you guys out without having met you both and seen you together, I am quite a good reader of people and body language and can usually decide quite fast whether or not someone is genuine or not. It comes from years experience working in the bar trade and as you know I've been running my own family's bar now for 5 years, and it is as good as a phd in human behaviour. So I would have to SEE to advise, but would you consider Juan to be a bit controlling do you think? RE: TUMMY TUCK..is that what you guys were discussing before? Remember I've had one done.. when I lost my 100lbs before. It was an AMAZING thing.. I LOVED (and still do) LOVE the results. Although i am fat again, women always comment on my 'flat stomach' hehe!! It was sore sure, but nothing major really, nothing that outweighed the benefits! I would do it again. xxxx

TracyInks.. it has just dawned on me that you got married!! Wow, congratulations!! How did you feel about yourself on your wedding day? I'm sure you've prob already been thru this with everyone but seeing that I was MIA....!!

LOL Laura..they are probably the sexiest Paddy's day outfits I've ever seen, but Beautiful nd love the undies!! You're so creative! You could be a RL designer!! :tt2:<------BTW WHAT is this??? lol

Hi Girls, Terri..i love those stacking rings!! I am known for my jewellery, I have tons of it, love co-ordinating my accessories. I mostly wear black clothing so it's my jewellery that I change to make the outfit!! lol Laura, your B&A photos are unreal!! I understand what you mean when you say you keep asking "do I really look like that!" after all is is a shocking transformation. And you're sucha a beautiful looking girl. I thought of you the other day when I read in the newspaper that SL will be having a St Patricks day Parade!! LOL The Irish tourist board are doing it as a form of marketing! that's just Craazy!! So, I flew to Manchester yesterday to meet my surgeon for my fill. I had gained..wait for it..27!!!!!!! lbs since my last visit. So I am now HEAVIER than I was even at my initial consultation before pre op diet... How in the heck did I manage that???!!! So I was expecting a disappointed reaction from him and a bit of a lecture but instead he put down his clipboard and pen and sat down to talk with me. He said tell me what's going on with you. So we chatted and I explained myself as honestly as I could and he thanked me for being so honest with him. He said he sensed ambivalance from me and I explained he was right and that I most likely was because I can't seem to make the commitment to myself because of my past weight loss failure demons. He said not to beat myself up ar feel disheartened and that he has seen people go through this before, struggling for up to a year with the band and their issues and it's not always good from the get go for everyone. He said then that he has seen some of these people finally click and get going and that he believed I would do so also and never look back when i finally happens, but that I can't go MIA on them and just "give up" because I feel like I'm failing. And never to be ashamed or embarrassed to come over to get it adjusted. Soooo...I was really delighted with this chat and the fact that he took the time to be so understanding and caring with me. The clinic was running late and he was VERY busy, and it really touched me that he stopped to chat with me. So he said, right let's give you a right good fill and get you sorted. After the fill, which I didn't even feel, he's so gentle, he sent me to the cafeteria to get a sandwich and see if I could eat a quarter..SLOWLY. I only had about 3 small bites and BAM...STOP..I never felt that before. I feel right now like I did post surgery!! I reported back to him and he said "you see?" So I'm on soups/purrees for 3 days now, which brings me up to my weight watchers class on Wed. then I will follow the core plan and continue with the meetings. My baby Nephew is geting Christened here in May, so that's a mini goal for me. I am his Godmother and I also have a cousins wedding that same weekend so I am looking towards that as a goal to be right back on track and feeling redeemed!! Tomorrow is Paddy's day and it's batten down the hatches day for me!! It's not a day I particularly like as everyone just gets tanked and the streets are a terrible mess after. I plan to take a drive to surprise a friend who is hittin the big 40 tomorrow also! So there's my story girls. I really hope to get a good start when I weigh in wed in WW. I don't own scale anymore, I delibrately left mine behind in the old house..lol so I have no way of driving myself crazy jumping on and off everyday at home.

Hi Girls... Remember me? My sincere apologies for going MIA for the past I dunno how long! I can't remember the last time I checked in, really. I recieved some Christmas Cards From Jenn and Haydee, thank you so much! I'm so rude for not replying I'm sorry. I'm usually good at that but I sent ZERO cards this christmas! We Finally moved into our beautiful new home and it was a couple of weeks of madness, boxes, dust, tradesmen, curtain fittings etc!! I'm still unpacking boxes!! My God..It's crazy, but I'm very happy with my new house. I also just got my new laptop for home so I am finally connected to the internet at home!! My Sister had her baby Boy, 8lbs 6oz and he's just beautiful. I'd love to get pregnant this year but that all depends on the man above if he decides it's for me! I see you all are doing great with your weight loss. There are even a few 100lb-er's? WOW!! Well, Ms failure here has gained ALL weight back!! I haven't travelled for a fill since July of 07, and I just booked myself in for a fill on March 15th. I am mortified to go back to the clinic having not achieved anything, I am full of excuses for the doc, but they are all just excuses. I don't have a scale in my new house but I weighed myself recently in my mothers house and it read 240!!! I just can't allow myself to loose the weight!! I'm holding on to it for dear life. I can't go anywhere near "Diet Mode" without cracking up and I am just accepting myself as I am. I am still on my Cymbalta medication, which keeps me out of the dreaded depression, but I also have completely withdrawn from work, Also Socially and I do not see my friends anymore. I do not go out and I drink at home alone instead of going out. It's depressing isn't it? Anyway, Good to see you're all still here!!

I'm Free!!! Arresting officer did not show up..and I made it over 3000 miles to be there! Anyway, that's that over with!!...No on to the rest of my life.. Phew!!!

hi girls...very quick post!!! I'm off to VA to face my charge tomorrow I'll let you know how I get on..am running for cab to airport.. wish me luck and sorry for the quick post.. violet power!! Amanda xx

I hate hate..the being called skinny... It would be like calling an anorexic Fatso!! I had a male friend who use to greet me all the time with "hey Skinny" or "Hey Slim" and like you Panda I use to cringe.. Then one day I just asked him not to say either anymore that I didn't like it!! It would be like greeting Quasimodo with "hey georgeous!" it points out that it's obvious he's not!! I don't like any reference to my physical self anyway..fat or skinny..I'm not comfortable being made aware that others may be judging my body.. Love me for my genius please!! That will do.. Ok girls..I knocking off now..may not check in for another few days..but I will once I get to the other side of the pond!! Take Care...xxx

Oh and thank you all for your greetings!!! :):):):):):)

Haydee...those "compliments" SUCK!! Some people just don't know how to give Kudos without a little punch in the gut!.. all you can do is focus on the positive fact that your efforts are being noticed, and possibly threatening some enough to push them into insecurity and your changing appearance is taking them out of their Comfort zone.. Focus on the positive girl..you ARE a hottie!!

OMG!!! Can I just say AGAIN!! This thread moves sooo fast!! I had 6..YES 6!! Pages to catch up on..I didn't get to read them all fully but Congrats to you Ms Jen on your Milestone!! And I liked the garbage truck analogy And TERRI!!! new low for you after 7 weeks!!! Wow...after all that you hung in there!! Laura...The Man baby pic ....LMAO...warped!! p.s..I love my Ipod! Well, violets..today is my birthday!! Yeay!! My husband bought me a beautiful charm bracelet..Pandora Jewellery, it's beautiful!! Awww I've been so busy the last few days..had lots of visitors and work was busy too. So I'm trying to get organised now for my upcoming trip on Friday.. I'm flying over to see my Mam and Sister (and her evergrowing bump!) and this day week is my court date in Virginia...eek!! I've to do the payroll for two weeks now and the schedule, get my dollars, go to the doctor for my Rx, clean my house and pack!! Oh, so much to do...so little time. The friend I had visit me on Monday had a double mastectomy in August as a result of a consultants failure to diagnose breast cancer!! Oh, it's so sad..she's undergoing Chemo now.. She's in her late 50's. She has shaved her head in anticipation of loosing her hair too.. My heart was low when she left.. we just never know what's around the corner for us do we? We had a lovely day together anyway, we had dinner and a show and then the next day we went shopping in the local angel shop... Anyway..have a great day everyone,, and Happy birthday to me!!!

ohh..lovely..thanks terri..I'll do that!! I'll let you know when I get my teeth into it!:kiss2:

WWJ(udy)D...LOL that's GREAT!! Inspirational indeed!! I knew WWJD was what would Jesus do..I thought there had been a christian conversion while I was away!! LOL Laura..Cassy is such a CUTIE!! OMG... I'm not much of a cat person, but they look like lovely cats too..how do you keep them all while you work? Boxers are a lot of work! Oh...she's so cute! Ouch on the boobie!! Yikes! I'm glad the work account may not be lost on you. tracyK..that's very sad about that young man!! I was raised Catholic (I can't even spell it!) And IRISH catholic at that..in my opinion it's about as far from Christianity as you'll get..but we're moving as a country and getting over the "dark times" our people suffered at the hands of our catholic priests.. I was very upset with them for a long time as many of my friends had been "interferred" with by priests growing up, and for a long time I couldn't even look at any man wearing that collar!! I remember Terri, you mentioning a book you said changed you're whole notion of faith.. I read one too called "into the light" and it really influenced my thinking. I'm much more of a spiritual person than religious, there's a lot I don't agree with, a lot I don't believe, but funnily enough I have great faith at the same time.. I certainly don't believe in "nothing", and as I say to all my aethiest (can't spell that either) friends.. there's no such thing as a non-believer Even if you believe in nothing, you are believing in something!! Hey..I'm an eternal optimist / philosopher!! LOL:heh:

Just reading through a few things ont the Violets folder!! PAM...you're so funny!!! Has anyone noticed that a lot of the violets have listed purple as their fav colour? hmmm just thought that was interesting. Oh, and colour here is spelt with a 'U'..I know you guys spell it 'Color' Us europeans like our vowels!!

Hi Girls.. OMG..there is always so much to catch up on whenever I am away for a few days!! Can I just ask about the bracelets I keep hearing you all speak of ??? I must have missed that Congratulations Pam on your new number whoooo hoooo!! I'm still holding out down at my first goal (Grrr!!!) I must schedule another fill (I've only had two!!) It's a pain in the A** having to fly to Manchester everytime but That was my decision so I better live with it! Still though I think the clinic is setting up base here In Ireland sometime in the near future..That would be GREAT! I know I need another fill..I will not be able to stay on top of this with out it, given my current motivation!! I've just been looking through some old photos of myself..GoD I was SLIM!!! And I was wearing such beautiful clothes and I look so comfortable in them..ie not straining to cross my legs (lol) I have all those clothes vaccum packed, I refuse to let go of them!! I have a cruise next Fab to look forward to and then I want to start on making a family after that so I have a lot to motivate me. I will be starting my NLP sessions with my Therapist again on Thursday and I feel I am nearing a point where I'll get my mojo back and join all you wonderful violets again in my efforts.. I'm so happy I have you all to turn to and to watch as you prove this can be done. Although I am lagging behind I am still hopeful by your examples that I can do this... I am gonna flip this freakin switch if it's the last thing I do.. Have a good day.. Don't forget to fill me in on the bracelet thing!!

Name your 3 all-time favorite movies Goodfella’s Planes trains and Automibiles Carlito’s way If you could pick a new career right now, what would it be? Artist How old were you when you fell in love for the 1st time? Not really sure..I had a lot of crushes before I actually realised what love means I’d safely say my husband is my first real love..so 27 If you could pick your “last meal” what would it be? Alcohol What’s the greatest thing about the town you live in? The scenery, my house, and the community Where were you born? Dublin, Ireland Have you ever read a book (or attended a lecture, took a class, etc.) that changed your life in some way? What was it? “Feel the fear and do it anyway” Opened my eyes big time! “Light a penny candle” by Maeve Binchy transported me into her story, I lived it! Going to Music College also changed my life. What is your favorite charity? Why? Children, homeless and the elderly Children, because they are innocent, homeless because they are often forgotten and blamed for their situation and the elderly because they are lonely and vunerable Name your 3 all-time favorite books: “Light a penny candle” by Maeve Binchy “Wuthering Heights” by Emily Bronte “The colour Purple” by Alice ? Can’t remember her name What do you do when you are bored? Eat, smoke, watch TV Do you have any vices? Eating, smoking and watching TV Name one thing you’d like to do before you die. Have children, and be a good mother Is the glass half-empty or half-full? Full What is your bedtime? Midnight What is your idea of the perfect vacation? Anything Luxurious Ever have a dream that you were “with” a movie star? Who was it? I dreamt once that Charlie Sheen was knocking on my window in the rain (I don’t even fancy him!) If you knew your advice would be taken, what would you say to a high school graduate? Don’t sleep around. Don’t do drugs. Choose a good partner in life. Don’t hang around with or give of yourslef to loosers

Where do I post my Answers Terri? I've my answers done!! LOL

About Me Allergies: I have no allergies No favourite colours, but I tend to like autumnal shades My hobbies include Art, music, reading, and writing I collect postcards of beautiful landscapes or seascapes or sunsets / sunrise to paint from I also love stationary / cards / notepaper / pens etc. Oh I also have a thing for elephants..I have them looking out my windows around the house..It's a superstition that they protect me. I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!

I like that Terri..that's cool !!!

Hi Gurls!! Just popping in to say hello.. Laura..A BUBBLE?? that must have been bizzare! LOL.. I had a major P/B last week while trying to eat (BOLD GIRL) a BIG MAC! I peuked anyway and Martin (DH) looked at me as if I was freddie Krueger!! LOL Serves me right for eating McDonalds shit! I am now Back down to my first goal weight , AGAIN!! I had floated up 6lbs AGAIN!! If I get down into my second goal ticker It'll be the first time since July!! I can't believe it's been 6 months nearly since the OP!! I am seriously not where I thought I'd be!! I guess I have a bigger emotional and psychological attachment to my fat then I thought. I have a mental block for sure..but I know I'll break through it. I started seeing my psychologist again last week, and I'm gonna do some NLP sessions with him over the next few weeks, I really need to reprogramme this conviction I have that loosing weight is a waste of time. I thought the band would do it for me..I guess What I really wanted was a magic wand so I could look the other way and just shrink magically! I really am resisting the responsibility of having to put the effort in myself !! Like that A-hole man of the year award..I walked out on myself 3 years ago when I started gaining his weight back and I guess I left a bitter taste in my own mouth in doing so..I have to learn to trust myself again. I know that I've been hurt by men before, and yes it has left a lasting distrust in me, I tend to be harsh on men by only aknowledging the dicks amongst them. I wouldn't trust some as far as I can throw them, but that is living in the past and when we live in the past we have no future only that which we remember and dwell on. And although I was hurt by many men, I still found a gentleman and married him. And I have great faith that together we are right for each other..not just him for me..or vice versa. My experience never changed my belief or my faith that there was someone out there for me..It did not shape my convictions. But Rather I learnt to tell the difference between a looser and a keeper! I guess what I'm trying to say is that regarding my weight loss, I am living in the past, letting history dictate what my future is to be, because I am hurt by it, but I done it to myself. At least others who hurt me can be left behind, removed from my life..but me however is stuck with myself and I! And for the most part I love myself, I like who I am, where I'm going and what I can do creatively and intelligently, I love where I live and I love my Husband, my family and my life. So I am lucky, there's just one thing missing, and it's not for the want of or from others..the one thing I want is the one thing only I can give to me, and I am letting myself be denied...why? Because I'm afraid I'll ultimately fail again? Because I don't want to struggle to achieve something that has no guarantee of lasting? Because I have associated getting slim with sacrificing instead of the many health benefits and better quality of life it will offer? You see what I mean? I have a switch in my head that is blocking me from seeing, from KNOWING this (loosing weight) as a good thing, and until I can reprogramme this I will be stuck here. I must change my belief.. :help: MAJOR WAFFLE!! major Waffle

Thanks Laura..Yeah it's so beautiful up there.. I'm so excited about it..we've been building since Aug 2006!! I hope I can post the house pics.. Oh and byt the way..can I be on the secret santa list please!