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Birdee, If its any help, I just wish I weighed 186. I would think I was a "50 year old BABE". My daughter started out at 236 and it has been a year and 3 months and she weighs 180 - 177 depending..... on the day..... She is BEAUTIFUL..... You probably just don't need to lose as much... Some people look great at 186 where some are going to look bigger. My sis and I talk about this all the time. Just keep on trying sweetie... It's working.

You know what, now that I think about it, my legs are hairier.... I used to have REAL thick hair, my pony tail was ridiculous... So I like my hair now, it is much easier to do. BUT.... It has thinned a lot and really hasn't come back. My daughter has hair just like me, and hers has not thinned. So I don't know the answer. I just want to talk....lol.... Honestly, It is coming back, just not as thick as it was...

Darci, I am an older lady with the band, and my 20 year old daughter has it too. I want you to know that each of us and every other banded person are different. Some things are alike , some aren't. But in my experience, I cannot drink cold drinks. I was so addicted to Coca Cola that I didn't think I could do the band. Boy was I wrong. I also no longer "crave" it. I can take it or leave it. My daughter, however, can drink it. She also no longer craves it... It is odd how this band works. You will get over the craving if you give it a chance. As far as aspirin, I can take it. But I recently found out that you "never" take aspirin on an empty stomach. I hope this helps you. I have lost 95 lbs. I feel like a different person, and look different too. It is well worth what I had to give up.

That's tooooo funny.... It makes life fun anyway....

thank you Donali. Getting to wordy just bums me anyway... I like what you said.... I will let everyone know on Wed afternoon or Thurs...Thanks again.

BEAUTIFUL GIRL....LOVE YOUR SMILE. :D :D

Well I wasn't weepy, but now I feel like crying......... except when I wrote that I cracked up and started laughing... You all want to know something I do that is hilarious............ When I am in the grocery store and one of those snooty bitches that look like she just bought her stuff at some fancy store is pushing her basket like it has cooties on it, ya know the type right? Well I fart on her isle............yep........... then I double back to see how she reacts........It is so damn funny. I walk up and down the isle after that kinda looking around and you should see how funny it is... I laugh my way through the store. My daughter won't walk with me. I don't do this all the time, I am not always crude, in fact you would never know I do this to look at me.. That is why it is so funny. My daughter said, I share toooooo much... Oh well... that me.

I guess this is a sick way of looking at it, and I truly don't mean it wrong, but at least you are only sore and you still have the ability to have that band. That is so great. I am happy to hear that you have lost 3 lbs. Sometimes that is the motivation that keeps us going. This soreness will pass, I know it is hard right now though. I am going for my endoscopy in the morning and I am asking for you all to say a small prayer that I get to keep my band. I am so worried they are going to tell me that it is eroding and that is why I am having the pain. But if it is, it just is and I won't be able to do anything about it. I hope you all don't expect me to be a rock like Donali was.... I admire her.... but I am afraid I will just fall apart. So I am praying for an ulcer or something else to be wrong. I will tell you all as soon as I know something.

No, I don't think slippage means removal. It is when the stitches that hold the band in place are somehow undone, and the band slips down the stomach like an hour glass, or even just a little slip. I had a friend with the hour glass slip.... But some slips are very small. The problem is that when one slips, it may cause the stomach to lie ove the side of the band and food could get into that pocket. If I am not mistaken that is not good. So, I may or may not have that problem, hopefully I don't , but I do have a lot of pain in my stomach.... In all honesty , I have to tell you that my MD gave me some Asiphex (may be misspelled) and it seems to have helped. Maybe it is an ulcer.... crossing my fingers....

Donali, do they know why your band eroded? My surgeon said only 1% so far has done this. He is a percentage nut... If I am not mistaken, only 4% have slipped. At least these are "his" numbers. I am afraid mine is slipped or eroding. I have had burning in my stomach for a month. I posted this loooong post yesterday, and I guess I hit the "go into space and lose this post key" because it never showed up. It was a whiney little piece too. Ironically, it was similar to Delarlas episode, so I didn't re-post I only read the answers to hers. To put it all in a nut shell, I have gained from 204 to 218..... WOW!!!! I just have this burning in my tummy , I saw my surgeon, endoscopy scheduled on this next Wed. so I won't know much till then. Hopefully it is just an irritation from this diet I was trying called fat flush. But now, I am back to 214 today.. But I have never done this before and I was panicking.

You will probably be all better by the time you read this. But i DITTO everything everyone is saying. You will do ok. Good Luck.

DONALI, Forget the scars, I wish I boobs like that... Here we go on the boob subject again. Like I told someone else, mine are flat, and I mean it. But I can deal with it if I just can keep losing some weight soon. I am so proud of you.. You are a trooper... I would be a "pooper" cry baby if they took my band. I am facing the same problem (maybe) and I just can't bear it... I don't know how you did it, but If I find out this is not an ulcer and it is band erosion I want to talk..... I am scheduling an Endoscopy this afternoon in Austin and it shouldn't be too long before I know what this burning in my belly is.... You look great by the way... I have gained from 204 to 216.5..... I don't know what's wrong. Well hell, yes I do... It's called, beer, Pina Coloda, ice cream, cookies and baby ruth, with NO exercise. Only my mouth... is getting exercise. But all of a sudden food goes down like crazy and I eat so much more than I did... I need a fill???? yep probably , but here is the burning thing again and I can't get one till I know what it is.. It is amazing how my appetite came back. It just seemed that "one day" there it was.. I don't even feel like I have much restriction any more. so now I know I would shoot right back up without the band. I will get gastric bypass, if at all possible, if they take the band. I am ashamed of myself, I am strong willed in every aspect, tough as a boot. Been through major stuff in my life. But when it comes to food, I act like an idiot i guess. The band is the only thing that has ever helped me have control. I feel so blessed to have it. So I genuinely admire your strength and composure about the band. Don't know how you do it though.

What kind of dog is Sissy Joe? I just love my animals. They are my buddies. Hey, me and your friend have something in common!! ( I have pancake boobs too!) I would have died when I was younger at the body I have now. But what the heck.... you either like me or you don't.... My first husband was a hottie. Looked a lot like Tom Selleck. But as shallow as the water in my pottie....lol... He told me he would have never dated me much less married me if I looked this way in High School... Well kiss my patootie.... and by the way.... He don't look like ole Tom S anymore.... He ain't so pretty anymore either...lol...The one I have now is a million times better, cuter, sweeter, and best of all he is "sincere" and I wouldn't have Mr. Stuck on himself back.... So the Lord works in mysterious ways... huh?

I'm not as brave as you little nudists.....I'm older and have more saggy parts... and I DON'T want to show them to anyone.... This is so gross, but I used to wear a 44d bra. Now I have tube like boobies and the skin is so saggy I can actually roll my breast ....Now I bet THAT is more you you wanted to know!!!!lololol:D :D I have GAINED 10 LBS.. OMG What am I going to do????? I have gained a lb a day for a week. I called my surgeon and I am beginning to think he don't care a bit.... I need a fill, so I am going heavy on the protein and trying to make myself feel full again. I can tell I am eating a lot more...I have been real lazy with the exercise, but this is scaring me and I need to do something......ride my bike or swim or I don't know, just something. I just Caaaaaaaaan't get fatter......I think I would just die... It is weird how 10 lbs feels again... My clothes are tighter and my self esteem is FALLING... So I have to get with it... Just saying that makes me feel a little better... You pronounce sascijo like (sassy-Jo) I have a blind Pekingese that my hubby got for me on my b-day 4 years ago. she is blind because she got in a fight with her sister and it popped her eyes. But she is doing ok now, and I just love her.... I spelled her name that way because I was going to register her, and the common spellings were taken. Have any of you ever heard of or gone to a Dr. Nirmal Jayseelan (probably not spelled right) in Dallas? I am thinking about switching to him. He is supposed to be a partner to Dr. Benevidas. Just wondered. I told my husband that I told you that I couldn't come to the Vegas get together, and he said, "Why?" So maybe that means I can after all. I hope so...

I'm not as brave as you little nudists.....I'm older and have more saggy parts... and I DON'T want to show them to anyone.... This is so gross, but I used to wear a 44d bra. Now I have tube like boobies and the skin is so saggy I can actually roll my breast ....Now I bet THAT is more you you wanted to know!!!!lololol:D :D I have GAINED 10 LBS..

Also!!! You are a pretty girl Delarla, most people will look at the flappy arms first, and then they look at the person, and then, amazingly, they don't see the flappy arms anymore.. ... Only the person inside them... By the way, flappy (lol), you can call me "apple belly". I look half decent everywhere until I stand up and you see this floppy, hanging down over my "area" belly.... Only, it is still big and floppy too... Hmmmmmmmm how about that visual? We may as well laugh.......Can't change it yet!!!! Yet, is the key word here..........lol:p

GREAT ATTITUDE! WE CAN ALL LEARN FROM IT....

Megan, I think your post was close to a lot of our hearts too! I am so happy you are better. I can relate to everything you said... I too am better. It is amazing when I look back at the things that I thought were so important, and they don't seem nearly as tragic or serious now. Self esteem is such a sneaky thing. It can fluctuate up or down with every breath I take. I am learning to like me, and learning my self worth does not depend on a "mans love or attention", or what my family or people around me think of me... It didn't happen overnight, but it is happening and I truly like "Terry". Don't get me wrong, I am not "fixed" and I may never be completely , but I like where I am and I can live with it. At one time I wouldn't even go outside and sit in the lawn chairs because I thought every car that drove by was laughing at the fat woman sitting outside. Another time I was walking down the street and some roofers starting laughing and jeering at me.. They even started barking at me like a dog... I was so embarrassed, I cried.... I should have flipped them off and called them white trash, but instead I cried... So to each of you that are fighting low self esteem, or depression for whatever reason, keep typing, posting, and find someone to tell your feelings to. This seems to be a very caring and loving group that genuinely cares. I know I do......

I don't remember everything you wanted to put in book. But I would think a lot of these posts would be stories in them selves. MY last post on my daughters wreck and how I am reacting to gaining etc. could be used. I thought of a million things when you mentioned it, and now I am not sure what to send. Remind me of what you said...like what kind of stuff you are looking for. I am sure we could all use a reminder. Like you want, funny obviously, and serious stuff about how we feel and have felt. What else?

Thanks Delarla, I appreciate you and everyone on this board and I am soooo glad I found it.... I am struggling with bad choices right now... Breakfast is a good example... I can usually only eat about 1/2 an egg , sometimes the whole one and a piece of bacon... Sunday.....I ate 2 eggs and 2 bacon strips and might have eaten more but got up... Then I went to town to do some stuff and at lunch I ate a pint of "real" ice cream.. then I came home and ate about 1/2 of a pork chop.... I didn't eat anymore till night time and I ate a huge bowl of homemade chicken and noodles. I weighed 213 this morning... My lowest weight is 204, which means I have gained 9 lbs... But I am having to do some stressful stuff right now so I am going to try to not be so hard on my diet. But I am going to start my old thinking again and stop the real ice cream, etc...(beer, and pina colada's I didn't mention) The other stuff shouldn't hurt me.. I have been drinking way to many pina colada's with alcohol and virgin ones too. they are Real high in calories... But darn I love them... They go down so well with a burning belly. My daughter had a wreck Friday you guys... She had a 2004 Mazda Tribute and an older Calillac hit her in the side. She was turning (her fault) going about 4 miles an hour and he was speeding and he hit her so hard it flipped her car into the air and it landed upside down. On the good side of this, the seat belt held her in tight and it has a roll bar, and it didn't hurt her much at all. Thank God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She had 8 stitches in her elbow and that is it. The reason I am even telling this, is because I get so wrapped up in this weight loss, lap band , stuff that it consumes my life literally. I get pissy if I gain, I worry if my belly burns, I over react lately to everything.I drive everyone around me crazy saying, "Do I look like I have gained, wonder why I haven't lost any, do you think I will lose anymore, etc........ God helped me put things back into perspective, and I realize that it wouldn't matter if I weigh 700 lbs (you know what I mean) as long as my family is ok, and etc. It brought me to my knees, I am humbled and appreciative of my wonderful life I have been blessed with. I won the life lottery...lol..... I am so lucky... I am sorry for getting so carried away about what I look like and how much I weigh. Don't get me wrong, I care about it, but I needed to calm down. I don't know. Maybe the new attention made me want to strive harder to lose more, and then I got impatient. Wanted to lose more and lose if faster.... Anyway, girls, (and guys) when you get to this point, be careful and don't run the people that love you away , don't get carried away... This is an important journey, but don't let it consume you.... Like I said, I am lucky.... I got brought back to earth....without damage..lol....too much anyway.. Terry Evans

I don't even remember when my last fill was. I went to Austin to get one,and my surgeon said no..... I had lost a few lbs and he thought I didn't need it. Ironically, I gained about 8 lbs since then and have worked hard to get them back off... Now I have gained back again. so I am yo-yoing with the same 4 to 8 lbs. that can't be good. I talked to my surgeon recently, because I was just petrified I had erosion or band slippage. I still don't know for sure what the burning in my tummy is. I went to him and he sort of acted like I was wasting his time... Really ticked me off. All he wanted to talk about was the new people coming into Austin that are going to do fills for "anyone" under fluro. He thinks they are just in it for money, etc. (worried about his money i guess) I kept trying to make him understand that i was concerned about my band because my stomach really burned , etc.. but from talking to me he decided that I must have an ulcer. so he wanted to set up another Endoscopy , and I just can't keep driving 2½ hours one way to have consultations and then go back for the Endoscopy. I tried to make him understand that I didn't have any vacation time or sick time left, but he said he couldn't make it happen that day. (looking at my band) since then I have gone to just a regular MD and he gave me some medicine and it seems to be helping the burning in my tummy. But..... I am eating way more that i used to, and i am convinced now that maybe the surgeon was right, I have an ulcer and i need to wait to get a fill. I can tell my stomach is a little fatter and i am just a little panicky, after all, I have never had control over my excessive eating, and obviously i still don't. And no, I haven't been exercising. the last time I rode my bike, I came home to my favorite little dog having a seizure and she died. i felt like if I hadn't been gone I could have saved her. An excuse, maybe, but it has been really, really hard on me to lose her. Man, I may cry now... Sorry this is so long... I really need to talk... i wish we lived closer and could have a slumber party like girls used to and just talk, talk, talk.... I did get one of those above ground inflatable pools and I exercise in it. Believe it or not, i shake and wiggle in that little thing until I am actually almost winded. It is just a little depressing to see people that had the surgery in 2004 already passing what I have done.. Don't get me wrong, I am super happy for them... I just need to get my self together and get with it again. Zephyr Texas is just a few miles from the geographical center and is know as "Central Texas" If you know where Brownwood is, it is 10 miles from there. Texas is so big... Well, hope you aren't tired of reading this .

Obesityhelp.com is awesome.. It is what started my whole process with this band. I have a profile there. I am not sure how you look at it, I mean I can, but I am not sure how to tell you to look at mine. Member name is Terry Evans. I spill my guts out whenever I feel like I need to type on it. I still don't know how to get my picture on there. I need to update it. I have read how to get my picture on here, but get interupted so often I just give up. Maybe someone out there can say it so simple I could understand what to do. Guess I am not to smart. I put a picture on this site once and it came out huge. that was embarassing. I am eating like a pig.... I really need some help. I am beginning to feel like I used to when I thought everything was hopeless. I talk big, and try to help others and now when it comes to me, I am falling like a star out of the sky.:think :think I really don't know what I am doing wrong. I am watching what I eat, protein first, etc. But I am NOT losing. So lets hear the advice.

This is a total guess, but I "think" it is Smartbandsters

ROY!! I don't know why, but I just realized you had your surgery in Austin by Dr. Fass. He assisted my surgery in April of 2003 with Dr. Dillawn. WOW!! Are you a member of the Centexbandsters? If not, you need to be.... We meet, or I should say , they meet, once a month at Logans Roadhouse on Frontera road.(I think) I don't live there, and the one time I got to go my sister took me. But I had wanted to go this month. It should be next Wednesday if I am not mistaken. Hey, let me know if you are a member, and if not, if you want to be and I will tell you how to do it . I have been cheating so bad lately. Drinking Beer, eating ice cream and blizzards and you name it. I need a fill, but I think I have an ulcer and I have been drinking my calories because food nearly kills me. So I have only lost 6 lbs in the last 4 months. I am readly to kick start this again. We can do it together. Just chatting about what we eat and knowing someone else is reading it makes me want to do better. I feel kinda like I know you already.... Hope you email me ..<sascijo@yahoo.com> As far as that goes, anyone can email me. Terry Evans Dr. Dillawn 4-8-04 297/208/ ? depends on if I quit cheating You can go to the Centexbandster website and look at the photos. I have a lot of them there that show my journey. The pictures are what keep me going... Wow... I was fat. I do look better, but am not there yet.

You know honey, that was just a bullshit line to tell you so he could break up and do whatever he wants to. I'm sorry, but that is probably true. It hurts like everything and nothing is going to make it better until a little time has gone by. I wish it could be different. But until you are better, stay on the computer and talk a lot, there is always someone to chat with. You could try going to the show with a girlfriend, or play nintendo, or walk in your neighborhood. Maybe there is a hunk somewhere wishing you were broke up with Andy. You never know!!! Walk around the mall and look at the stores, maybe some of the friends you invited know someone you could just hang out with and maybe go to dinner with. I wouldn't let the door hit me in the butt.... Keep us posted. Once you appear strong, and doing well without him, he will take a second look and think, "man what did I let go of?", Hopefully you won't look back. I want to encourage you to be tuff, be strong, be agressive with "your life, and what you want" Even if you are quaking inside. Don't let him know it. The worst thing I ever did, was to beg someone not to leave me.... I cried and acted a fool, I begged and begged... He left anyway... He MARRIED the town you know what.... She became Mrs. HW Rose, which was something in our town, and she had been "doing" everyone in town until then. Then she suddenly got a status and it was as if everyone just forgot what she did. If I could change anything, I would change the way I seemed to lose my self esteem. He was everything, (at that time)or so I thought. But now, I realize, I let myself down. I didn't have to have a man to survive... I just couldn't see the forest for the trees if you know what I mean. You are young and it won't be long until you are in the swing again. But until then, find something occupying, paint, do crafts, work outside, chat online, KEEP BUSY... and keep us posted. best of luck to you Terry Evans