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Thanks Leatha

can't spell something either....there is no smiley face with a dunce cap for me. And speaking of smiley faces. What does Huytsao, and Phanvan mean?

So how do you like this? Not only was it lunch, I had bread... Now I know I need a fill. I went to Prima Pasta. Had someithing I can't spelll. :D took more than half of it home.... UMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM I am full. Bad Terry, Bad Terry for tantalizing the people who are in a different time zone..... Ok, now, for my nerd lesson of the day... what is ROTFLAMO? I got the lamo part...

Perfect sense Lisa. I can only speak for myself, but I do the same thing. I don't think the lap band will be able to fix it all. I have decided to see a counselor to see what this "hold" food is on me. It is all I can think about. If I am happy, I eat, sad.....I eat...pissed .......I eat. So for some reason it consoles me to eat. But it doesn't make me happy. When I was losing, I WAS HAPPY. I realize now, I want that back...slowly the love of the food is being replaced by compliments of how much better I look. Notice I said , "slowly". I also have a short memory except when food is involved and I forget easily how good the compliment felt when the smell of cooked "anything" wafts my way.... Piglet...yes I am.. but a little smaller piglet than I used to be.... Yippeee, It's lunch.... Boy, that lecture didn't last long, I am already thinking of lunch. :think

Welcome Diane, I don't know how tall you are, but I started out at 301 and I am 5'2". So you can imagine how lovely I looked. But my health was my main issue and it has improved 100%. I hope your insurance approves, if they dont, they will have to pay more in medical expenses, so maybe they will. I can eat anything but bread. So as far as not being able to eat , you can. Or I should say, most can. The amount is definately smaller. And I will say that I hear a lot of people grieve over the loss of the food. Me included. I look at the plate and get a little mad cause I can't eat it. But then it subsides and I realize I don't want it. Keep us posted. I know it must be hard to read about out success and want it so bad and not know if it is attainable or not. Please be persisent. I was told that they say no hoping you will give up. But I have know cases where they finally said yes after the 4 try.

You know what Lisa, I find myself thinking of you when I fill my plate. Everyone wants to know what little world I live in all by myself because for no apparent reason I start laughing. and it usually is a visual you have given me of your band popping out or your "gut" flopping out of those 22's.... Your a nut!!! But everyone knows still waters run deep little chickie, and I want you to start concentrating on stopping when you feel full. Get this mind going in the right direction... I don't have mouthfuls of great wisdom, and I understand being poor about as well as the next street person, lol.. , so until you can get that port fixed, and get a fill, please try to hang on. Don't kick yourself if you don't lose. Hell you have more of a reason than anyone.... I don't. I am just spoiled as hell and want my way... WOw... that's hurts even when I say it... I PROMISE YOU, YOU WILL LOSE MORE. Yours will take a little longer because of your problem, but it will get fixed , and when it does, the weight will come off. You are going to be shocked at the difference when you actually get the right restriction. You will be going, "oh, so this is what happens, " Now I understand..... Hang in there..I am sorry you had a crappy experience, but you might just be the lucky one, because when you actually get it, you will appreciate it... Love you and I love to read your posts. PLEASE keep being funny. you make my day.

Donali, First let me tell you how I look for your posts. There are things that happen for a reason. I believe that with all my heart. To compare this journey, or even life , with a roller coaster ride is so true. I love the way you put things. Sometimes I get so involved in what "my" life is like, I forget to be compassionate to my family and friends and what "their" life is like, or how they feel. It's hard to always be the "rock". I have always been.... But for the last year, I have been the "needy" one for some reason. I found that I liked it, It was good not to be strong, just to relax and let someone else have the reins. I realize I am doing this not only with my family, but here in the group and with my other group. But I am a little tired of being needy now, and feel I am ready to go back to being the "strong" one again. I must have needed a break. I have had a, wonderful, but "very difficult" life. I am sure we all could tell tales of woe...lol... but when I found you and this site, I really did find a place that I LOVE to be. Thank you for your sincere posts. Hopefully I can help you as much as you have helped me. Now .....on a lighter note....you are so right New Hope... I guess life isn't standing still . What an eye opener. Makes you take a good look around and stop waiting for "when".... Well being female, and truly loving the fact that God gave us males, I am very flattered that Bobby took the time to post and tell me that 50 doesn't look to bad after all.... puts a smile on my face a:) Thanks guy!

i agree with Penni. what you ate La_madam was ok. If you never have a treat then it is a diet, and we shouldn't have to diet. I think sensible eating is the key, when I can remember I think that. Jack Medina was a coach to Mary Lou Retton, he said, "Never diet, eat a sensible meal" Look at the first 3 letter of diet. He says, that is what diets are for. Use your head and eat sensable... I just don't have a normal head....But I am trying.......

Just when I am getting real serious Lisa comes up with 'her band is coming up and going to shoot someone in the eye cause her pants are too tight" and I have to laugh. Thanks goofy.... I appreciate what Donali and Penni said. I am going to print it and re-read it. Yours too Lisa... so i can laugh... I really think that when the compliments start pouring in, I start faltering. It is like I just can't take it or something, and my hubby bitches at me and tells me I can't take a compliment for sh_t. He says just say Thank you. I sort of feel like they are lieing to me... I'm a little sicko , huh? But I am going to work on it, cause you both are right on the money. I just forgot how to use the band since it isn't stopping me very well right now. Most of the time I am like Lisa, I am not sure I have one and then ...boom, it restricts me....I have one banded friend that pretended she had the band when she didn't, cause she had to wait to get it, and lost 25 lbs waiting. I am not that good. I was totally impressed... Well I have to go home, so I won't be on tonight probably. But i will be back tomorrow searching to see what I missed...maybe tonight...don't know...

Hey, I saw a cake just like that, except...... they used a balloon in the end of it. You use one of those little tiny balloons and fill it with whipped cream and air. then you layer the cake over it and when the bride to be cuts it with the knife it blows cream on her.. Funny huh? I just had a bachlorette party for my neice, and I took kiwi fruit, (round and kinda hairy) and a cucumber and arranged her fruit tray with this in the middle. I used white almond bark to hold the fruit to the cucumber... it drooled around the plate and was actually really cute. Maybe I can make the winner a fruit plate!!!!! Now that you know how nasty i am...lol:mad:

YEAH ILUVSAMMYS!!!!!WOO HOO.... HOPE THE REST OF YOUR JOURNEY IS SMOOTH AS WELL..

Well bushbaby is going to be in the Dallas area, so I think that is where we are leaning, unless of course we could do that AND the Fredericksburg day.... Yeah, that would be fun! The sooner the better I say... Anyone want to chime in?

Welcome Jen, I know it is a bit painful right now, but it won't be long before you are up and running... I guess I was lucky. I didn't have much pain if any and I was at work within 4 days and could have gone back sooner. But take it easy and try to heal. You are in for a wonderful ride.

Kyleigh, You know better than that, anyone is welcome. I invited myself too. I think bushbaby is going to be her 12-14 of Aug. Don't know much more than that. Keep watching...Leatha said she may get to come too. Anyone else that wants to meet to eat lunch or whatever you can think of just post and say so.....I am very un-imaginative. So I will just do what everyone says if I get to come....

Delarla, aka sissy, Ok, but my stomach is growling right now. I have already had half a protein drink(forgot the glass at home when I left) and a half bowl of stew. It's only 8:35... believe it or not, my tummy is STILL hungry....so I am going to go get me some water and start drinking..... Let me know how you do..... I will check on and off during the day (shhhhhh while I am at work)..... :D :laugh :laugh

Leatha, Sorry i missed the post on your Birthday..... Hope it was a good one, but I hope Next year is a "sexy" one with a cute little honey that you meet between now and then.. How about that for a present... I will pray.... God, let Leatha meet Mr. Right, Let Leatha meet Mr. Right. Amen.... Now... HAPPY BIRTHDAY (BELATED)

Let me add one more thing, for all the hell I seem to have had, I Still LOVE my band, and they will have to rip it from my dead body. I am still better off than I was and I don't want to seem un-appreciative. Now, that's better. Kinda like putting clean sheets on the bed. AHHHHHHHHH.

Well, where do I start...WARNING THIS IS LONG I do have a hiatal hernia, (small) It was diagnosed before the band, it was not considered big enough to fix. I have a lump in my neck- Had these test to try to see what it was All came back ok. no cancer... don't know what it is... 1. Blood work - thyroid 2. ditto - red and white blood count 3. sonogram on neck 4. tons of x-rays 5. cat scan, twice, first one wasn't done right 6. went to see a regular MD just to show it to him after seeing my band surgeon,(said he didn't know what it was, and seeing another doc. 7 went back to band surgeon. Lots of pain in stomach, burning, ask for fill under fluro, he refused, doesn't care much for them. said the EDG would be better. 8. Had EDG. I'M FREAKIN CRAZY,,, NOTHING IS WRONG WITH ME. 9. could have had mini vacation in Vegas and stayed drunk with Lisa, Delarla, aka wild woman for what all of this cost.... lol:D 10. Now I am pb'ing in my sleep. Guess this is my imagination too. Oh, maybe not, Joe woke me up going, "Honey ,you ok?" 11. So plain jane doc in Brownwood prescribes Mobic for inflamation in neck, and Aciphex for burning tummy. Says I am taking meds on an empty stomach , burning it.... blah, etc. 12. Stomach actually does get better, neck still swollen, but all test come back that I don't have cancer.. Yipeee:D Plain doc says it is rare something that is "like" arthritis, but it isn't arthritis. If it were in my shoulder would be bursitis, but in my neck it is called something else and he don't know name of it. It inflames neck area and makes a nodule at the v of the neck. 13. Drinking lots of pina coladas, and flirting with younger men. Woops, you don't need to know this one... 14. I started not eating sooner before I went to bed, it did seem to solve my problem at night. Only one night has gone by, so we will see. 15. No I don't seem to be too tight in the daytime. In fact it feels like I need a fill . I have yo-yo'd for 4 months without loss. In fact I have gained from 204 to 213 now. 16. Need another pina colada. I could cry. But at 50 years old, you have seen enough that you know it won't help and you have to just get up , trudge forward, and suck it to hell up.. cause no one can do anything for you but yourself, and maybe a lapband forum..... God I love this place... Thanks EVERYONE... I guess you are my therapists, cause my fingers are flying, and with each little click of the key, I feel better. It helps just to type it I guess. I know my little cyberspace friends will be there, and I just can't wait to see the next post. 17. Is an upper GI different than what I have posted that I have had done? I will do it if I need to. 18. I will elevate the headboard, thanks, also, I did have gastric reflux, it burned, but this is just water or pills and water that I have taken, and it just comes up.... just like when I over eat. So I honestly feel like it is the bed. I'll tell you why. We had a truly worn out mattress... I gave it away and got a new one. This board is hard to sleep on and it feels like my head in going downward cause my butt isn't in a hole anymore. So maybe you have solved my problem. I did try the extra pillow thing and it just bent my neck...didn't sleep well. So tonight I will prop the headboard up slightly and see what happens. as far as the binging, well I guess I will just have to exorcise the demons in my head on that one. Thanks for letting me complain. You girls are GREAT......

Ok, you are from Riverside Ca, right? Why do you have a Dr. in Tx.? Am I slow, or did I miss something? Don't get me wrong, I love it that we may get a chance to meet, Who is your doc? What kind of meeting is this? Wow full of questions huh?

I would love you meet you , don't know if it will work out or not, but we have some friends that live in Ovilla which is close to Waxahachie. Send your info to sascijo@yahoo.com and i will try to meet you and Leatha if it works out.. How fun!! a mini lapper meeting..

Tina, I came online to late to wish you luck, but you will read this when you are already banded. I know you will do well. I'll say a little prayer for you.....there ya go, it's done... Now let us hear about it.

Well, I know Delarla is getting that important sleep right now ..but I am binging too. I need to confess my eating habits so I can feel ashamed and get back on track. I swear, You would think as hard as i have worked I wouldn't eat like I have. First of all, I pb'd in my sleep last night... I woke up choking. I haven't been getting very good sleep lately.. And EAT, I can eat girls. I am getting a little worried... I have had 2 candy bars, chips & hot sauce for lunch, chicken and fried potatoes and fried tomatoes and fried okra for dinner, Ice cream cake. Yep, I am a pig. What the heck makes me binge like this. I now weigh 213. I am so disappointed in myself. How in the world can i tell other people what to expect when I do this? I am going to call Dr. Dillawn and tell him what i am doing. Maybe I need a fill, every test has come out good, band in place, blah, blah, blah...... I don't understand why I have been choking in the night , stuff just comes up in my throat while i am sleeping, so if I get a fill, is that going to be too much? . It's scary... plus....I am not exercising. It is almost like I want to be a failure again. I just can't seem to get back into my groove...

Silly Leatha......I have been trying to get it clear, but no matter what I do, I am stretchy or blurry... Help

Well it looks like I could learn a few things from you Theresa.... I wish I were still that focused... I hit and miss. But then I have never been as faithful as I should have been, Thus my lack of weight loss lately huh? In fact I just ate a drumstick. I know, I know..... Congrats girlie....I am Sooooooooooooooo proud of you.

Penni, Joe is pretty much the same way... I am lucky. I think sometimes he feels a little threatened but I try to reassure him that after 26 years I ain't goin nowhere...... He is very complimentary and loving and like I said in another post somewhere, there is a little light in his eyes that had dulled and now has come back. Every man wants a woman he can be proud of and vice versa.... As far as your man Delarla, sometimes when we really don't want to , we can pour on the attention and make them feel like he is "King Tut" and it is amazing how the male responds. I think they begin to feel a little left out, we are getting a lot of attention, you seem to have a very outgoing personality, and speaking from another outgoing girl, sometimes it takes its toll on our man. I had to reverse the situation with Joe and I because I started getting real irritated with him. He seemed like he was monitoring my movement, where I went, who I talk to, blah, blah, blah.... But when I got to thinking about it, I would be jealous if he started getting ripped and girl bartenders were flirting with him!!!!! So I started pouring on the love, and he responded well and now he is ok again. I think we change more than we realize, and it is hard for our spouses who have loved us either way to accept it sometimes. Maybe you should plan a special night with him and I can almost promise you he will get better.