shouser331

So im feeling more sensitive lately about my weight than ever before and im about 50 days out still for my surgery! I was doing really good and lost 3 pounds in a week and now im eating for all the wrong reasons again. I questioned my husband on him being faithfull and broke down crying cause i cant understand why he is with me when im not a skinny beautiful wife. I dont know if this is normal before surgery or not but i guess im putting a lot of pressure on myself to get healthy and i have a lot of accountability to live up to. Im scared about failing i guess but then the next minute im excited and looking at all my old clothes and getting ready to be able to wear them. Im a hot mess right now i guess and hope these feelings get easier to deal with. Ive heard a lot of people talk about how emotional this journey is and i never realized it until now, and i havent even had the surgery yet! UGH....Any advice??

Im starting to get excited that my body is going to change drastically but i also know that I have a lot of work to do to get where i want to be. Im looking forward to going up the stairs without being out of breath, putting on socks and shoes easily and making excersize a hobby instead of a chore. Im at the begining at 306 pounds but thats ok cause it won't last. Surgery in April is coming and my life is going to be different and better!