I got my lap band in July 2010 since then I've lost almost 200 lbs. I've also had kidney stones, gallbladder stones, pneumonia due to which I've become acidic and delusional and I've also been having asthma problems. I binge and purge (I don't use the b word). I've gotten better since being hospitalized with pneumonia. Before I went into the hospital I was binging and purging literally 24 hours a day. Of course binging for me is no where near the same as someone else bc a sandwich or a hot dog is binging for me but I will not keep it down. People know about it some people have expressed concern but mostly it's almost like a joke. Now I only eat one or two meals a day and drink ensure two or three times a day. My throwing up is more under control but every time I eat I can't keep it down. No one knows I had surgery except my two best friends and mother. It is extremely important to me that no one finds out. My ex bf caught me throwing up and had just saw me eat so he put two and two together not about the surgery but about me eating and told his best friend and they confronted me about it and I was depressed for months and it made it worse. After that I was hospitalized for pneumonia I developed pneumonia from food partials in my lungs. Basically when I would through up I would inhale some of the food accidentally. Even though a few people know I throw and other people suspect it's so embarrassing to me. I feel like I don't know what I would do if people found out. I've gone to therapy but not for very long because I'm ashamed of my eating habits and lab band surgery. I just want to know if anyone has or had any similar problems or feelings. Band removal is a non option.
