I totally understand what you are going threw I hit my 1 year mark November 7 2012, my husband and I had been trying for 5 yrs to conceive and nothing. I decided to have the lap band done and I still have my struggles, my doc wants me lose 45 pounds more before I start again to conceive. I was so upset with myself because having a baby means everything to me I have my own issues with cravings still so I let myself down. Now I'm ready to take back control and get this weight off I just hope and pray it works. The best of luck to you.