Another newbie... I scheduled my sx yesterday for 2/1. I have casually considered the lap band for over a year, did not consider seriously due to insurance will not cover but finally decided I am going to take the financial hit and know when I hit my goal it will have been worth every penny. I have struggled with my weight my entire life but am now at a high point, 25lbs heavier than what I weighed the day I delivered my son! I have been through a divorce with in the past 2 years and of course most women lose weight I gained about 50lbs. I am at the point where I am embarrased of myself, my weight consumes everything I do and holds me back from so much.
I am trying to keep focused on the positive that will result from the sx. But I worry about struggling to accept that I can no longer enjoy /turn to food. I also have been debating about telling people. I have talked to my mom, sister and bf but not sure about sharing it with others. I know it will come out because I am a terrible liar and when people ask how I have done it I will just end up telling them. I dont think that people who have struggled with their weight this way will understand.
So much going thru my mind, I just want 2/1 to get here!
